i'm far from complicated, and yet anything but simple. that's the best way i can put it. all my life i've gone on and on with that one question... 'who the hell am i?' but i guess that's a question i'll be struggling to answer as long as i live. so far i've learned that i'm someone that most people can count on... i can say that i've been through a lot... and i'm not afraid to admit that i've had my struggles in so many areas... but i guess that's what makes me all that i am. i am far from perfect... if you're looking for perfection, you've come to the wrong place. i'll admit that i tend to make a mistake a couple of times before i finally "get it," but i am still intelligent. i don't have blonde hair or tanned skin, and i'm not skinny. i am pale... i have a pudge in my belly, i hate working out, and i love to eat... i don't consider myself gorgeous, but i do know i am a beautiful person... and that goes far beyond the physical. i am smart. i have ambition, and i'm not afraid to admit i have my faults. i am witty and opinionated at times, but i will still never try to force my opinions upon you. if you impress me, i will let you know... i am one big oxymoron all at once... a cliche that's hardly ever used. i enjoy things like finding 'cold spots' on beds... towels fresh out of the dryer... complete and utter randomness. it's things like that which make up my day. i love laughing more than anything in the world, but i've learned not to smile unless i actually mean it. i love to belt out on philisophical questions, going on on tangents about why things work the way they do... i can't help but love to learn, and i'll continue to do that for the rest of my life... i'm the kind of girl who would rather read on her spare time than watch tv... that's just how i am... and there's no other way to put it...
+ dorky +
+ compassionate +
+ empathetic +
+ goofy +
+ passionate +
considerate +
+ sympathetic +
+ blunt +
+ creative +
+ open minded +
+ sensitive +
unique +
+ humorous +
+ weird +
+ loud +
+ strong +
+ experienced +
i'm not too simple, nor am i too complicated. i'm just andrea... and that's good enough for me.
MORE ABOUT MOI Just let me ramble.
I am now twenty years young. It's been a struggle, but I am coming to accept my flaws. I am forgiving myself for the people I’ve hurt, the mistakes I’ve made, and the mistakes I have yet to make. I am starting to live. Along the course of this journey I was forced to embark on the moment I took my first breath, I have learned a lot of things. They were lessons that others had to force upon me, lessons I had to force upon myself, but most of all, lessons that I would not ever want to do without. My past has been my greatest teacher.
I live by cliches. I think of myself as a cliche that's hardly ever used. What a paradox. I love the ironies in life. Like many others, I believe everything happens for a reason. I’ve discovered that life doesn’t always give you second chances. You’ve just got to learn what to do with the first one it gives you. I understand that a lot of the ‘jumps’ I make will cause me to fall. I’ve just learned how to pick myself back up successfully and embrace the hurt that may or may not come along with it. I’ve also learned that everyone in life is going to hurt me at some point or another. I’ve just had to realize who was worth the pain. I’ve been hit where it hurts, and I’ve never actually let go. I’ve just learned to put up my walls. It’s not because I want to keep others out, but to see who cared enough to bring them down. At other times, I've just had to run away to see who came after me. So far, this has proven to be successful. The way I see it is that if you don't love me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best. Loving someone takes seeing the worst in them, and caring for them anyways. Nowadays, once I know what I want, I run. I run like hell until I catch it. Most of the time, I won’t let go. If I ever really loved or cared about you, chances are that I still do. I’ve just learned to live without you. A lot of people say that relationships are about give and take. I can’t say I agree. Relationships, regardless of what kind you are in, are about give and give. I think it’s a shame that people who change FOR love will never know the joys of changing BECAUSE of it. I believe that love truly is worth fighting for. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take risks, if you are not ready to feel the pain, chances are that you're not ready to fall in love... and that's okay. I’ve come to understand that everything, regardless of how big or small, has the potential to change a life around. I am now starting to accept change, rather than trying to push it away. I still struggle to live in the moment at times, but I am taking chances. I've danced in the rain before, and other times I've just gotten wet. I am not anything close to the person I dreamed myself up to be when I was a little girl, but despite the mistakes I’ve had to make countless times, I believe I am something better. I may not have ended up where I thought I was going, but I ended up where I was meant to be. I couldn’t be happier.
LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM...
NOT WHO YOU WANT ME TO BE
