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Jess

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About Me

If life is worth living then you should live it. If it's not, you should try it. Some things are best if fought for, and somethings just aren't worth going after. So choose wisely and carefully, don't just go along for the ride, be an activist in your own life.

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My Interests

My harley baggins-pants. She is just the sweetest little kitten face in da whole wowld. i wuv her vewy vewy muth, isn't that right you cute little flufferbottoms! Wait....what was I suppose to say......i meant flufferbum.

I'd like to meet:

me

You Are An INFP
The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Music:

Music is my heart, my soul exposed for everyone to see, though they seldom dare look deeper, afraid of seeing their own soul. but here i am. Sing, sing a song.

Movies:

American Beauty, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Stranger than Fiction, and any other random thing that Brandon and I have bought.

Television:

can't afford it....but if i could it would so be football and Heroes....and samurai jack, but i believe he is off the air...so sad.

Books:

To Kill A Mockingbird, Farenheight 451, God's Politics, A Fine Balance, Bible, 1984, any Tolkein or C.S. Lewis. AND C.S. LEWIS's LETTERS!!! I HEART HIM! haha. oh, and now currently Devil in the White City (AMAZING if you like architecture, history and cereal...er...serial killers! which should be EVERYONE!), Tulia, and thats about it for now but if anyone actually reads this i shall keep you desperately updated....uh...yeah...desperately?

Heroes:

So this guy comes up to me and says, "What's the vision? What's the big idea?" I open my mouth and words come out like this... The vision? The vision is JESUS--obsessively, dangerously, undeniably Jesus. The vision is an army of young people. You see bones? I see an army. And they are FREE from materialism. They laugh at 9-5 little prisons. They could eat caviar on Monday and crusts on Tuesday. They wouldn't even notice. They know the meaning of the Matrix, the way the West was won. They are mobile like the wind, they belong to the nations. They need no passport. People write their addresses in pencil and wonder at their strange existence. They are free yet they are slaves of the hurting and dirty and dying.What is the vision?The vision is holiness that hurts the eyes. It makes Cchildren laugh and adults angry. It gave up thegame of minimum integrity long ago to reach for the stars. it scorns the good and strains for the best. It is dangerously pure.Light flickers from every secret motive, every private conversation. It loves people away from their suicide leaps, their Satan games. This is an army that will lay down its life for the cause. A million times a day its soldiers choose to lose that they might one day win the great 'Well done' of faithful sons and daughters. Such heroes are as radical on Monday morning as Sunday night. They don't need fame from names. Instead they grin quietly upwards and hear the crowds chanting again and again: "COME ON!" And this is the sound of the underground The whisper of history in the making Foundations shaking Revolutionaries dreaming once again Mystery is scheming in whispers Conspiracy is breathing... This is the sound of the underground And the army is discipl(in)ed. Young people who beat their bodies into submission. Every soldier would take a bullet for his comrade at arms. The tattoo on their back boasts "For me to live is Christ and to die is gain." Sacrifice fuels the fire of victory in their upward eyes. Winners. Martyrs. Who can stop them? Can Hormones hold them back? Can failure succeed? Can fear scare them or death kill them? And the generation prays like a dying man with groans beyond talking, with warrior cries, sulphuric tears and with great barrow loads of laughter! Waiting. Watching: 24-7-365 Whatever it takes they will give: Breaking the rules. Shaking mediocrity from its cosy little hide. Laying down their rights and their precious little wrongs, laughing at labels, fasting essentials. The advertisers cannot mold them. Hollywood cannot hold them. Peer-pressure is powerless to shake their resolve at late night parties before the cockerel cries. They are incredibly cool, dangerously attractive inside. on the outside? They hardly care. They wear clothes like costumes to communicate and celebrate but never to hide. Would they surrender their image or their popularity? They would lay down their very lives--swap seats with the man on death row--guilty as hell. A throne for an electric chair. With blood and sweat and many tears, with sleepless nights and fruitless days, they pray as if it all depends on God and live as if it all depends on them. Their DNA chooses JESUS. (He breathes out, they breathe in.) Their subconscious sings. They had a blood transfusion with Jesus. Their words make demons scream in shopping centers. Don't you hear them coming? Harald the weirdos! Summon the losers and the freaks. Here come the frightened and forgotten with fire in their eyes. They walk tall and trees applaud, skyscrapers bow, mountains are dwarfed by these children of another dimension. Their prayers summon the hounds of heaven and invoke the ancient dream of Eden. And this vision will be. It will come to pass; it will come easily; it will come soon. How do I know? Because this is the longing of creation itself, the groaning of the Spirit, the very dream of God. My tomorrow is his today. My distant hope is his 3-D. And my feeble, whispered, faithless prayer invokes a thunderous, resounding, bone-shaking great "Amen!" from countless angels, from heroes of the faith, from Christ himself. And He is the original dreamer, the ultimate winner. Guaranteed.

My Blog

BLEAH!!!

The subject line has nothing to do with my blog...just think the word BLEAH is amusing...kinda sounds like someone vomitting with an accent...haha. Anyway, I'm actually not totally sure what this blog...
Posted by Jess on Thu, 12 Jun 2008 11:20:00 PST

What’s Everyone’s Problem?

Why is everoyone so undependable?  Why does everyone assume things?  Are they so perfect, so wonderful?  Are they better, closer to God?  have they figured out who God is?  I ...
Posted by Jess on Fri, 15 Feb 2008 02:10:00 PST

Oh fuck it anyway

    So I've kind've given up...in a manner of speaking.  i've really decided i just can't win....which sucks, but you learn to deal with it.  Misery is miserable, so fuck it.&...
Posted by Jess on Wed, 06 Feb 2008 10:28:00 PST

Emotions

    How pathetic am I?  Seriously, I can't sleep because of movies.  I get out of sorts, emotional, tired, enraged.  I break down in tears at the sight of and actress, pl...
Posted by Jess on Tue, 29 Jan 2008 10:02:00 PST

Heart of Gold

Hello, my dear readers. Of which I believe there are two. Here I am again rambling away at the mercy of my mind. But what can I say, the voices in my head are very demanding.Anyway, the point of th...
Posted by Jess on Wed, 02 Jan 2008 02:38:00 PST

Drowning

I was tired, but I couldn't sleep. I've been here way too long. I felt so trapped in this room so I got up and went out to the balcony. You know, the way people do right before they leave. I could ge...
Posted by Jess on Mon, 02 Apr 2007 01:26:00 PST

So life...i'm stuck in it right?

Yes, life, love, realizations, better yet, revelations.  well i have come to a new realization of a love revelation.  most won't agree...well, some might, not sure, i don't personally care.&...
Posted by Jess on Wed, 14 Mar 2007 11:10:00 PST

Apply to Life...

James 1:2-8 Dear brothers and sisters, whnever trouble comes your way, let it be an opportunity for joy.  for when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow.  so let it grow,...
Posted by Jess on Thu, 08 Mar 2007 07:20:00 PST

What happens when my heart breaks?

God is still God, and man is still man....i still falter and he still picks me up.  Once again, my life is turned upside down.  the past few weeks...well months...have been nothing but a ser...
Posted by Jess on Tue, 06 Mar 2007 11:46:00 PST

God...could I breathe now?

I...don't know what to say.  i'm trying to write this in an effort to get emotions out, but i think they've almost disappeared...what do you do when hell is bent against you?  literally.&nbs...
Posted by Jess on Tue, 27 Feb 2007 10:08:00 PST