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~The future Mrs. Joe Madero~

Once I felt dead but now cause of you I feel alive

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Layout made by--I have found that someone that makes me happy, that knows exactly what I feel, knows how to put a smile on my face and cares for me as much as I do for him and means its. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO ; ; ;

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This song reminds me of my brother and how close we were and I know that 1 day I will be able to see him and tell him that I LOVE HIM. I miss you Louie it's been almost 14yrs and not a day goes by that I don't think of you. You were my everything. My only regret is getting you that motorcycle for you B-day.

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Almost 14yrs since that cold day in May Yet I still remember it like it was yesterday (I guess to me it always will be) the day was perfect just the way it all ways was, mommy, you & me. Reunited after so long. that very night the world would come to a drastic end the streets were filled with people laughing, people dancing he never had a chance to grow up eighteen he was merely eighteen just starting to experience life on his own, he wanted to be independent a rebel he wanted to say that she did without his dad-cause he wanted to be the man of the house. 6:00 PM EXCUSE ME: I think he's your brother the guy with the red car and BIG motorcycle was the first words out of his mouth "he was in a accident" the world came to a halting stop and yet the room still managed to continue to spin frantically I run down the stairs, up the street he was gone no where to be found it was really him, his motorcycle on the ground not a dent. He must be fine. full of disbelief I acted as if I never heard the words when they told me he had been taken to the hospital but I should stay with the motorcycle as the cops would be coming. I kicked the bike taking my angry out on it… As I get to the ER my worst fear: those words it can’t be NO NO NO lying . . . still no movement although I could have sworn that at any moment he was just going to rise up out of the baby blue bed that he rested in and bring peace to a room full of grief a best friend to so many . . . his life stolen away it didn't even look like him it wasn't him too long I glared at him questions running through my mind like a freight train at a speed to fast to comprehend "God, he was just a kid. How could a life so young be stolen so quickly? " I got infuriated with Him he was a good kid just made a few bad choices I never thought they were severe enough to be punishable by death the next day as I witnessed the casket that held the breathless body of my dear friend be lowered into the earth tears poured down my cheeks like rain out of heaven before the dirt even covered his casket, I should have gone too, I was supposed to be with him when he died, it was so cold that day I could feel the salty droplets dry hard on my face I wondered for so long about the life of my friend I pondered this question so many times why shall the innocent die, while the murderers run free? how come he never got to fulfill the "perfect" plan that we are all promised? it has taken me 14yrs to understand the loss of my friend it is all summed up in this one word that often brings shutters to the bones of so many "lessons" her death was a lesson to all that he left behind life is fragile there is no way that we can control who lives and dies all we can do is have faith that we will get through it good and bad are obvious and sometimes not so obvious right and wrong choices can determine life or death so it's time for us to wake up mourn no more for time will heal our broken hearts

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My kids are my heroes, they have helped me grow to who I am. Love you babies. XOXOXOX

My Blog

Doesn't matter

No matter the friends I keepIt's always alone I sleepNo matter the people with whom I talkIt's alone I shall be forced to walkWhen night drops cold across the landand I'm searching for someone's handI...
Posted by ~The future Mrs. Joe Madero~ on Thu, 28 Dec 2006 03:12:00 PST

Missing you so Much

Whenever I felt lonely you were always there,a person with whom everything I could share.My inspiration, my idol, my pride, my alter ego,the first one to cheer me up whenever I am low.In a stranded la...
Posted by ~The future Mrs. Joe Madero~ on Tue, 31 Oct 2006 08:45:00 PST

NO more tears

  I given upI've been defeatedAll the love Has been depleatedI've tried so hard for so many reasonsI've given out chances upon chances for no reason Maybe I give too much and dont askFor ba...
Posted by ~The future Mrs. Joe Madero~ on Fri, 20 Oct 2006 11:40:00 PST

Alone

Purity once had a name,And beauty once had a face.Life once had a meaning,And once I was safe.Once there was freedom,And once I could laugh.Happiness once was alive,And once I had another half....
Posted by ~The future Mrs. Joe Madero~ on Fri, 25 Aug 2006 08:23:00 PST