I am a fan. I'm a real, true life, loyal fan.
I'm a fan of people and things that make me feel SOMETHING.
For instance, there are people out there that are SO funny just thinking about them makes my day better. I'm not bullshiting either. A LOT of people I know genuinely put a smile on my face that I just can’t get rid of.
I am a fan of film.
I have seen films that I adore for making me laugh out loud (and I laugh loud) and just devastate me all at the same time like VALENTIN - and I carry that feeling with me everyday. Then there are movies that help me get lost in someone else’s story and make me cheer for them. Dumb movies like ONCE UPON A TIME IN MEXICO.I owe my life to music.
I owe my life to all the music that made me think and laugh and cry and dance and eventually pack up and move hundreds of miles away from everything and everyone I knew. I'm talking about that music, that when you hear the first couple of notes it makes you stop whatever you are doing...... close your eyes..... and just get lost like YELLOW LEDBETTER.I admire creative people.
I can’t even begin to understand how they can paint a feeling?!?!?! Or how 'bout those people that can CREATE A BRAND NEW HUMAN BEING ON SCREEN and make me care about them, even if just for an hour. I LIVE for sports teams that make my heart race and make me want to scream out loud or cheer until I can’t feel my throat or legs anymore. My favorite emotion is the feeling of pride. Not for myself, but when others make me proud of them for coming from behind and fighting till they can't see anything else.... or even for just getting what they want.
And when I say I’m a fan, I don’t mean that I LIKE something. I mean I really LOVE it... in my bones. I love these things so much that I wear them on my sleeve and never stop.
I hope that you have more to cheer for than yourself. If not.....I really feel sorry for you.
I don’t know what that says about me, but there it is.