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I'm a kinda shy, kinda quiet in nature laydeeee who has always been/always will be an observer. I ponder my place in the universe, probably a little too much sometimes, I love to, draw, make things, and have experiences that make my brain hurt. I guess I'm pretty sensitive, I feel alot of stuff quite deeply and I also think about stuff way too much. I make a great listener.People have told me I'm a bit too honest for my own good, but that's just the way I am, there's a difference between honesty and lack of tact, I'm just honest. I should have been a twin, and I think I'll always be looking for my other half.
I'm good at fixing stuff, my brain likes a challenge, especially taking things to bits and putting them back together again, PS2s, radios, fiddly things that are broken and look impossible to fix. I love writing but I don't get enough practice. Films are my biggest passion, alongside film-scores. I wish I read more books, I listen to the radio for my news. You can rely on me and I'll stick with you to the end.
I'm always the quiet one, but I wish I was the loud one. I'm really good with animals and wanted to be a vet. I'm not squeamish and I have a pretty high pain threshold, in fact I love lots of gross stuff and you'll never see me tutting at a brilliant fart/fart joke! I'm quite vulgar in my own way, but never offensive.
I don't care if my DVDs/CDs aren't stacked alphabetically, I don't care if you're not wearing the latest fashion. I love scruffy hair, unusual faces and people who 'fit together right'. I don't care what car I drive as long as it works, I wish buses were more accessible so I didn't have to pollute the atmosphere. I think the universe could quite possibly be a bunch of dust particles floating around in God's kitchen, not that I believe in God.I find Mary Poppins quite terrifying, as well as mushrooms, the idea of going blind, my teeth all rotting away, losing my parents and having enormous breasts.
I'm totally torn between the the city and the country. I would love to eventually live on a boat. I recycle. Wasteful people really infuriate me.
I love guys who are just themselves and not afraid to express themselves, whatever they're into rather than trying to fit into some bracket or lifestyle related to fashion, music or car ownership! I don't like music snobs, or film snobs, or people so blinded by their own ignorance that they won't give anything outside their box a try. In fact I hate it when people define you by the type of music you're into! I like all types of music.
I hate fashion because it's pointless and sometimes I sort of wish we all had fur instead to avoid the stresses of having to buy and bother about wearing clothes! I have a really terrible memory for alot of stuff, but possibly that's just laziness. I'm very good at massages and I give some of the best hugs you will ever receive...ever...fact!I wish I had done more travelling but there's still plenty of time right...I'm not very girly, I never have been and I generally get on better with guys because they don't have a fixation on shoes, eye shadow and which belt goes with what outfit. Possibly that makes me a bit of a tomboy, if such a thing exists anymore as an innocent label in the crazy, mixed up hetero, metro, bi-sexual universe called the noughties?!?!My Life So Far...
I was born in a clean and apparently efficient hospital in Hackney, London, in the sepia-toned winter of 1978. Born within the sound of 'Bow Bells' as the saying goes, I'm a proper Cockney dontcha know! Damn I wish I was still this cute! Me and my siblings back in London circa 1983I rode my bike without stabilisers for the first time down Benthal Road, a street I will never forget. Although I spent several years of me life pretending to be:

A cat (because I didn't want to wear bloody dresses and who makes a wee girly wear dresses when she's crawling around on her knees. It's cute at 5, but at 7 I became an embarrassment to most of my family, and friends (sniff).

Kit the car from Knight Rider. I didn't want to be the Hoff, I wanted to be the bloody car! And I thought this was normal, for my hands were my indicators and I could do a bloody good impression of a 'Turbo Boost' by running up a slope and jumping a bit while going 'whoooshhhh!'.

A Terminator. I was a Terminator sent from the year 2029 to infiltrate a normal family and gain knowledge about the average family's PC use for the coming computer apocalypse. When anyone would ask me to prove it I would simply tell them , 'I could peel the skin from my hand to show you the gleaming metal servos beneath but it's a bugger to get the skin back on again and to be honest I can't be arsed.'

These events led to murmurs of 'Well sometimes I wonder if she didn't get swapped at birth', and many worried expressions. This leads me to have less confidence in that sepia-toned Hackney hospital. Further Hawcroft children, sister Katie and brother Joe were spawned and expelled in the confines of the home to prevent further mix-ups. However Joe was born on camera for the 'Horizon' show back in 1980, and sister Katie nearly got born into a toilet bowl. This makes me laugh and feel very smug, although the fact I was born with the umbilical around my scrawny neck probably gave some clue to my future disposition...i.e. sunny with frequent showers ;-) These are my womb buddies, Joe and Katie. The best siblings a big sis could want.And that's my family... At age 7 I was uprooted from London and planted firmly in the outback of Mid Wales where I learned to understand cows, stinging nettles and the neccesity of rubber footwear! That's my home, Deep Cutting House, beautiful.I did really well at school, mainly because I was a precocious, brainy dweeb with pigtails and those scary knee-high socks. Although my mum tried to teach me at home for a while, I got a bit weird and anti-social so I went to normal school where I got moved up a year early for being brainy and able to draw The Mary Rose dead good! I was a swot in High School, but I didn't mind I had more interesting conversations with my teachers than with most of my classmates. I went on lots of trips, won lots of awards and ended up being a roadie for the school band in 1995 in Austria which was amazing.I saw Jurassic Park in 1993 and it made me scream 'FUCK!' at me mum I was so amazed, from then on I realised I could carry on my geeky but talented tendancies by becoming a filmmaker of some kind. And that is what I've been trying to do ever since. Well it all really began when I got taken to see The Return of the Jedi in the West End when I was 4 years old, and then my obsessive listening to the scores of John Williams, finally an addiction to seeing new films which can be an expensive habit!I went to Uni in Portsmouth in 1998 to do film and video and it took me a year to realise that they wanted me to make a broadcast quality film with two bits of string and an empty box, i.e. they had no equipment to speak of and most of the tutors looked like hairy testicles or drug addicts.
I tried an illustration course, had fun with my friends, spent my loan and basically developed my hand-eye coordination by playing alot of PS1 and working on checkout at Lidls! Education was no longer my worry, but I didn't have any anyway so I didn't do much but breed lots of little baby rats, sit on the polluted Pompey beach watching the ferries shuttle past as I slowly got arsenic and sewerage poisoning! I did meet some wonderful people who will linger in my life forever I hope. Friends are the best.In 2002 I realised that if I didn't finish my degree, all that teasing I endured in High School for being a swot with pigtails who ran to lessons would be for nought! I applied to Southampton Institute, a BA in Film Studies, and planned my escape from Wales for the second time.Southampton Institute was brilliant and I had such a good time, despite money worries and not being able to go into Halls, I met some lovely people who helped me get back into student life, tutors and students alike.
In 2005 I graduated top of my class, won an award for my film and got a First Honours Degree!
After University finished I spent a year working at Harbour Lights FunHouse...sorry Picturehouse in Southampton. I met an amazing bunch of people and had a brilliant time seeing films, working on bar, going out and being silly and drawing crazy pictures for the fun of it! I'll never forget Harbour Lights! As the saying goes: Great Films, Great Times, Harbour Lights! True...
At the moment I'm living back in the family home in Mid-Wales trying to save up money for my big move to London early 2007 by working in a factory where I get paid silly money to do something a monkey could manage. Basically I work on big presses like these: And I squish metal into these shapes for car engines, spark plugs, etc.I need to sort my life out and actually achieve something for myself which is hopefully what the rest of 2006 and then 2007 will bring. Fun, frolics, and doing some of the things I've always wanted to do but never did because of the damn pigtails man! I might not know tons of folk, but that's the way I like it. I do think about stuff far too much before jumping in, procrastination is the bane of my young life and it's more a fear of not fitting in or losing that comfort zone, but I'm realising that more and more I'm not a freak, I just have to shout a bit and jump in feet first instead of testing the water and panicking about the sharks! I do wish I'd realised that before the age of 27, but still, we all have to get there on our own right!

Some Inside Information On Me...Through the Power of Quizzes!

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You Are Mud Pie
You're the perfect combo of flavor and depth
Those who like you give into their impulses What Kind of Pie Are You?
Your Personality Cluster is Introverted Feeling
You are:
Tolerant, flexible, and open to new ideas.
A stickler for integrity and authenticity.
Passionate about causes, beliefs, or politics.
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my handwriting style is...
sophisticated scribbler
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Your Inner Child Is Surprised
You see many things through the eyes of a child.
Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded.
You cherish all of the details in life.
Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things. How Is Your Inner Child?
The Movie Of Your Life Is An Indie Flick
You do things your own way - and it's made for colorful times.
Your life hasn't turned out how anyone expected, thank goodness!
Your best movie matches: Clerks, Garden State, Napoleon Dynamite If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?