Performance Series

Well, hmmm.... I spose I put something here about how cool of a guy I am or whatever, but Im sure all you clowns are already aware of that. So this is my info Im sendin you, I hope you like it. My name is Matt, Im 24 years old. I believe in taking care of myself. I have a balanced diet and a rigorous exercise routine. In the morning if my face is a little putty, I'll put on an ice pack while doing my crunches. I can do a thousand now. After I remove the ice pack, I use a deep pore cleanser lotion. In the shower, I use a water-activated gel cleanser, then a honey almond body scrub and on the face, an exfoliating gel scrub. Then I apply an herbal facial mask which I leave on for 10 minutes while I finish the rest of my routine. I always use an aftershave lotion with little or no alcohol, because alcohol dries your face out and makes you look older. Then moisturizer, then an anti-aging eye balm, followed by final moisturizing protective lotion. There is an idea of a Matt, some kind of abstraction, but there is no real me, only an entity, something illusory. And though I can hide my cold gaze and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable, I simply am not.... there. I have all the characteristics of a human being. Flesh, blood, hair, but not a single clear, identifiable emotion, except for greed and disgust. Something horrible is happening inside me, and I don't know why. I think my mask of sanity is about to slip.