is' ..I WANT TO THANK MY NEICE FOR ALLOWING ME TO BORROW FROM HER, THE FIRST PART OF THIS SECTION WAS WRITTEN BY HER. I aspire to be somebody's everything. I act like I don’t care, but the truth is I just care too much. I'm a mess and my life usually is too. I laugh at the stupidest things, I cry for no reason and I get mad easily. I always put others ahead of myself caring more about them than I do myself. I let myself get hurt as long as someone I care about is happy. I want to meet someone who will love me even with how ridiculously messed up I can be. I have a true smile that can light up the room when someone actually pulls it out of me. Sometimes I can start a chain reaction with that single smile. I want to meet someone who I can say "I'm fine" to and they can look me in the eye and realize that it's not true without me having to tell them. It's almost never true, I've just gotten so good at hiding that. I don't like disappointing people. I wish I had the heart and the will to believe in most everyone but I don't. I do believe in true friendships and know that they are actually very rare. I know that I have wasted too many wishes on so many stars. I end up not being able to walk away, I put everything into everything I say. I may be sad, but I’m not weak and I'm finally seeing that life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass it's about learning to dance in the rain, I just don't want to dance alone. Well there really isn’t a lot to tell about me. I don’t play stupid head games, too old for that. I tend to be very honest about most things so if you don’t really want to know the answer don’t ask me cause I’m going to tell you whether it’s hurtful or not. .. I stayed in a military community because I grew up with it and I've never ever considered living anywhere else. I respect our soldiers and what they do everyday and living here and doing a job that may help make their stay here any easier is what I love. The hardest part about living here is watching my friends deploy. ....I have learned that in life one really has very few really close friends. I have been fortunate to find my circle and can say without hesitation the ones that I consider my real ones are. I have always gotten along better with guys then girls. I find most girls/women to be petty, selfish, catty things that are just looking to find the next bit of drama. When there is none I find them all to ready to start some. That makes the few that I have found to be even more special to me as I know they don't fit into that category.....
