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Cunning Intelligence

I had it all wrong. I'm too much for you. You're not good enough.

About Me


I am simple, yet complex. I am honest, yet I lie. I am beautiful, and ugly. I am conservative, but risky. I am a walking contradiction of terms.
I love photography. Even more so, I love taking a picture and making it more. Most of my work is of myself, for I lack models. I live in the south, and there is an abundance of places and people waiting to be photographed.
I am, however, not from the south. I grew up on both coasts of the U.S. I have never left this continent. I have never been to New York City, nor have I seen Seattle or St. Louis. But oh, have I been places. And have many more places to go.
I also write. Short stories and poems mostly. My life is my inspiration. Or I will see/hear/read something that causes a light bulb to go off in my head.
I am often mistaken for my mother when I answer the phone. My hair color/length often changes, so people have a hard time recognizing me. However, when you drive a bright yellow car, you are hardly ever not recognized.
I have a fashion sense that is all my own. I don't follow trends. I actually have a personality, and can carry a conversation. I love to talk; it's hard to get me to shut up sometimes. I love asking questions, but I don't like answering them. I don't like to speak in public. But I don't mind singing in front of a crowd.
I spent most of my childhood being careful, and always doing the right thing. I never took any risks, and rarely ever got in trouble. I got to a point where I could no longer stand my label of the "safe godsend" as I like to call it. So I did some rather stupid stuff. But I have learned from my mistakes. Yet I don't regret making them. In recent months, I have come to find a strength in myself that I never knew existed. There was always this voice inside me, and it is finally getting heard. I have a new confidence in myself. I am not afraid to take a chance, make a mistake, jump off that bridge... It was time I started to live my life. And that's exactly what I'm doing.

"It is a change, forever constant.
But in the direction of uncertainty.
The choices of today shape your tomorrow.
There is life in your future.
The question is whether or not you choose to live." - Kelly Crim

"We must be the change we want to see in the world" - Mahatma Gandhi
"Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on Sunday night. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourselves. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life. I chose somethin' else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who needs reasons when you've got heroin?" - Renton in Trainspotting

My Interests

I love many things. Obviously, I love to take pictures and edit them. I am a big fan of art. All types. Even silly little cartoons. I love to read and write. I prefer fiction novels that I can somehow relate. I love to travel, to see new places. I would love to be able to take a trip around the world. I love to cook. Though I don't get to do it enough. I love to dance, so I will use any excuse I can to do it. I love plays and musicals. and um...MUSIC and MOVIES are at the top. All types of music, all the time. As far as movies...some are better than others. But you can read more about that below.

I'd like to meet:

Clint Eastwood.
Ewan McGregor.
Rachel Ray.
Liam Neeson.
Edward Norton.
Susan Sarandon.

Deceased:
Elvis Presley, George Washington, James Dean, Jane Austin.

Music:

I am a big fan of music, in general. Not any one type. I have mixture of music. I listen to it all. Alternative, Rock, Pop, new age, techno, world, classical, reggae, country, metal, hip-hop, r&b, blues, jazz, folk, bluegrass... Some recent artists that have been at the top of my list are: Snow Patrol, Azure Ray, KT Tunstall, The Postal Service, Death Cab For Cutie, Christina Aguilera, Norah Jones, Nelly Furtado, Kelly Clarkson, Fatboy Slim, Aneela, Benise, Panjabi MC, Bird York, Nickel Creek, Better Than Ezra, Keith Urban, Gorillaz, The Weepies, Coheed and Cambria, Natasha Bedingfield, Gavin DeGraw, Black Eyed Peas, Fall Out Boy, Damien Rice, and Radiohead.
Why 30 Seconds to Mars? Because Jared Leto rox...literally.

Movies:

A fanatic's collection of favorites is always long. I love many movies, for many reasons. I go to the movies almost once a week. For some movies, its the whole ambiance you get when going to see it in a theater full of people. It's not the same when you're at home on your couch. I love all sorts of movies, for many different reasons. I can like a movie for its direction, but not for its story. Or I can love the score, but think the ending stinks. Movies can make you experience every sort of emotion. They make you think, and wonder, and dream.here are some movies that I hold in high esteem.
Here are some recent or just complete favorites: An Affair to Remember, Sideways, Donnie Darko, Pirates of the Caribbean (all three), Wonderland, Taking Lives, thirteen, Girl interrupted, Down with Love, The Matrix (the first one), Appleseed, Star Wars (all six episodes), Batman (the original), Over the Hedge, Pride & Prejudice, The Boondock Saints, Step Up, Lock stock and two smoking barrels, Snatch, Trainspotting, Requiem for a Dream, Sin City, Blow, The Village, Lord of the Rings trilogy, She's The Man and Crash. And I totally forgot..I'm not a big fan of "horror" movies. Purely because what they classify has horror movies today, I'm sorry but gore does not make it more scary. Just more gross. So I must add High Tension to my list. If you have not seen it, go now and rent it. It is clever, and while there is gore, it's perfect.

Television:

I love watching the food network in the afternoon. I watch Paula's Home Cooking, Everyday Italian, Barefoot Contessa, 30 Minute Meals, and Good Eats. I also, religiously, watch Grey's Anatomy, One Tree Hill, Desperate Housewives, Ugly Betty and Brothers & Sisters. I still watch Friends, That 70's Show and Sex & The City re-runs.

Books:

I like reading for some of the same reasons I love watching movies. I like to escape for a while. Reading stimulates the brain. It's one reason I try to read at night; it makes me dream. I have a very vivid imagination. I'm that kid in school who actually understood Shakespeare. Who could really see that picture that the author describes. Who walks along with the characters in the fields of flowers. Yeah, I'm that kid. I love classic books, like Great Expectations, Pride & Prejudice, and Jane Eyre. Romeo and Juliet is still one of my favorite plays. Though I don't rule out fantasy, I tend to stick to fiction novels.

Heroes:

My great aunt, who lost the love of her life but is still going. My grandmother, who just recently had a heart attack but is doing better. My best friends. Firefighters, police officers, doctors, nurses, EMT's... And myself. For even with the help of friends and loved ones, they can't really help you unless you help yourself too.

My Blog

i just have to say...

that when you combine ingrid michaelson and constant offerings from sweet people... you will be in a better mood :)
Posted by Cunning Intelligence on Tue, 18 Dec 2007 09:52:00 PST

some of the things need to be amended

Because in my last blog I wrote some things to some friends that I really shouldn't have written. And I didn't write to some people I should have.   It wasn't that the timing was off anymore. It...
Posted by Cunning Intelligence on Thu, 01 Nov 2007 10:47:00 PST

my friends hold my heart

"True friendship is never serene." - Marquise de Sevigne "A friend will break your heart, a friend will mend it, a friend will provide you with every feeling in the world, good and bad. A friend is e...
Posted by Cunning Intelligence on Tue, 30 Oct 2007 10:42:00 PST

at this point..

Time has changed.As it usually does.People grow slowly older...all that jazz. People also change in time.Sometimes its not always easy to see.But some see it day by day. You shouldn't hate what you do...
Posted by Cunning Intelligence on Mon, 08 Oct 2007 08:45:00 PST

joy upon a knifes point

Zero to Hero Had I but known of said competition.Laid out plans of attack and conquer.Devious notions of sabotage would invade.Winner truly takes all. But men of such caliber that are known to me,Do ...
Posted by Cunning Intelligence on Wed, 11 Jul 2007 09:17:00 PST

i cant sleep when i cant speak to you

Formal Acceptance Regretful of mistakes past.A settling of present standing.Wanting to believe better things will come.Seems time passes slowly while waiting.Never understanding certain actions taken...
Posted by Cunning Intelligence on Wed, 11 Jul 2007 10:54:00 PST

post pardum f*ck off

why do some people just insist on being assholes? why do some people insist on fucking up someone elses life just because? why do some people tell secrets that shouldn't be told? why are some people a...
Posted by Cunning Intelligence on Fri, 29 Jun 2007 12:41:00 PST

the world evolves

it's funny how sometimes changing one thing can make a difference.and changing everything does nothing. one simple addition can change your whole prospective on the situation. leading up to the start ...
Posted by Cunning Intelligence on Wed, 27 Jun 2007 11:44:00 PST

lost, dazed, confused...anything but high

i miss...   but it doesn't seem to make a difference anyway.
Posted by Cunning Intelligence on Thu, 21 Jun 2007 10:53:00 PST

all i have waisted

SittingHopingWaitingThinkingFeelingWishingTrustingForgetting AcceptingStayingAllowingBelievingSeeingLosingLyingCryingDyin g Leaving...
Posted by Cunning Intelligence on Sat, 09 Jun 2007 12:44:00 PST