Spoiler

"I am surrounded by shit. I am covered with human waste, smeared over my entire body, stuffed into every opening. My eyes see nothing, my ears are clogged and my nose is overwhelmed with the stink of it all. Other people’s shit, my shit, there is no difference anymore. I’m living inside it, slowly suffocating. I am becoming a pile of human shit. I am totally and completely without worth. I am rotting every second. Deteriorating, falling apart, dying. My eyes are going blind. I feel myself dissolving inside myself. My body is feeding on itself, muscles slowly, painfully being eaten and digested. I am turning into a zombie. A skeleton that can’t die. My heart stopped beating. It is shriveling up liked a dried up prune. Cuts do not bleed or heal. My blood has clogged and hardened and I no longer bleed. When I shit, my intestines are all that come out, slowly, painfully, a little bit at a time. I have lost my hearing and my smell. I am dead but unable to die. My body is dead but I am still alive. I cannot be killed, there is nothing more of me to kill. Thoughts swirl relentlessly through my head. I haven’t slept for three weeks. My head is pounding with pain and I’ve lost the ability to concentrate or think straight. I bring everyone down who comes in contact with me. Everything around me falls apart, nothing works, people hurt themselves trying to help me and I can’t help but laugh at their pain. The whites of my eyes have turned a dull urine yellowish color. My skin has dried up and turned whitish gray and flakes off when touched. My movements are slow and labored, I have very little energy. I see things that other people do not, I hear things they cannot. Everything is communicating to me. The radio and television talk only to me, about me. Everything they say is for me"