ELSIE

I AM A SWEETY. I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THE PEOPLE I LOVE. I DO EXPECT A LOT FROM THE PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT, BUT NO MORE THAN WHAT I WOULD GIVE TO THEM. I'LL TALK TO ANYONE UNTIL THEY RUB ME THE WRONG WAY, AND ONCE SOMEONE DISSAPOINTS ME IT'S VERY HARD FOR THEM TO MAKE UP FOR IT. SOMETIMES I DO STRANGE THINGS BUT THERE IS ALWAYS A GOOD REASON BEHIND IT...I AM NOT A PETTY PERSON I DON'T TRY TO MIND FUCK PEOPLE, I DON'T LIKE TO PLAY GAMES,OR HURT PEOPLE, I DON'T GET MAD AT PEOPLE THAT DO THOSE THINGS TO ME ANYMORE, I FEEL SORRY FOR THEM. I JUST WANT TO SURROUND MYSELF WITH PEOPLE THAT HONESTLY CARE ABOUT ME...I BELEIVE IN FATE, AND LOVE, AND SOULMATES,I BELEIVE THAT PEOPLE CAN CHEAT THEMSELVES OUT OF THERE OWN HAPPINESS..... AND THAT WHOLE "PAIN IS PERCEPTION, LOSS IS A LESSON" SHIT I AM STILL TRYING TO CONVINCE MYSELF THAT IS TRUE, IT GETS EASIER AS I GET OLDER...ALL IN ALL, I MOSTLY SPEND MY TIME CONFUSED AND SICK TO MY FUCKING STOMACH, I RECENTLY HAVE DEVELOPED VERY BAD NERVES, AND THINKNING TOO MUCH MAKES ME WANT TO PUKE..(I AM SERIOUS IT IS REDICULOUS AND ANNOYING)I JUST GO THROUGH LIFE REPELLING FROM THINGS I DON'T WANT, BUT NEVER REALLY KNOWING WHAT I DO WANT...THAT IS OK I HAVE PLENTY OF TIME,IT WILL COME TO ME...BECAUSE I AM NATURALLY VERY PATIENT. I HATE TO HEAR THE WORDS 'I'M SORRY' THEY DON'T MEAN ANYTHING TO ME ANY MORE.