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"Love wasnt about sacrifice, and it wasnt about falling short of someone's expectations. By definition, love made you better than good enough; it redefined perfection to include your traits, instead of excluding them. All any of us wanted, really, was to know that we counted. That someone else's life would not have been as rich without us here." ♥ Handle With Care by Jodi Picoult
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i could forget your name
i could forget your face forever
i could forget about the smile you always faked
the one you thought i bought, but never
i could forget your lies
i could forget the height for always
i could forget how desperately you tried
flattery will get you nowhere
i could forget how you tried
to get the best of me
youll never forget that you never got me
you never got me
real nice to know that you care
to leave me soaking wet
im so surprised you werent dead
you make me want to forget
you make me want to forget
i could forget your pride
i could forget your wandering eye
i could forget about the way you made me feel
you talked to me so condescending

i could forget how you had tried
to get the best of me
youll never forget that you never got me
you never got me.
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i may be young, and i know i have a lot of growing up to do. but what ive learned so far is that you cant learn much without a little suffering. you have to be happy with yourself, love yourself, before you can ever try to love someone else. you cant trust anyone else without trusting your own instincts and actions first.
ive also learned that saying "im sorry" means your accepting guilt... youre accepting that you did something wrong. but accepting that also gives you the ability to move on, and also is another step to maturity. nobody is perfect, we've all learned that from birth. we all make mistakes, but you cant ask for forgiveness until youve provided a way for someone to forgive you.
above everything though, ive learned that sometimes being selfish is only fair. even if you might hurt the people around you. you can only give and give and give so much before youve torn yourself down. the hardest part of life is being stuck in a hole and trying to find your way back out, and most of the time, you have to get back out on your own.
so sometimes be a little selfish. know that you deserve to be happy. think about your actions before you make a decision. decide if the consequences are worth it. think if what you might lose is something you can live without. love the people who surround you. your true friends are those who are accepting, who are supportive, and who can tell you exactly what you dont want to hear, only because they know you need to hear it. they dont pressure you, they dont compete, and they love you unconditionally. trust the people who make the effort to be trusted. not everyone is an enemy, and although being cautious is never a bad thing, there are still good hearted people who exist. and most of all, learn to love yourself. be able to get up in the morning and look in the mirror, and accept that this is who you are, and you try your hardest. be able to look out the window every morning without regret of your mistakes. and be able to fall asleep at night knowing that despite how hard life my seem, that a day, or a week, or even a year from then, life will have already changed. you will have changed. and the problems that seem huge suddenly become insignificant, and bigger ones come along.
so never, ever, lose your faith.
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My Blog

youre lost for tonight again.

youre waking up a part of meive never known and ive never feltso invincible, what took you so far away? remember: the wall. late night trips to augusta and andover. hard times with good friends.....
Posted by on Sat, 05 Apr 2008 16:52:00 GMT

sometimes goodbyes the only way.

i think i need to run away.
Posted by on Wed, 05 Dec 2007 23:18:00 GMT

sun aint the only thing thats shinin’.

i feel like i never have anything to say anymore. life has me speechless.theres so much going on, idk where to turn.what to deal with first.what to think first.   i need to grow up.i need to matu...
Posted by on Fri, 05 Oct 2007 01:56:00 GMT

im on call.

i think i need to just calm down.this all cant be as bad as i keep assuming it will.i guess reliving the past should just be one more thing to help me get over it. ah. but this shit is painful. like s...
Posted by on Fri, 14 Sep 2007 01:48:00 GMT

the past has passed.

i think a lot of the time i just dont understand. i feel like everyone's telling me to grow up and be an adult, especially since i dont go to school. but i guess i figure its not that easy. im still a...
Posted by on Tue, 12 Jun 2007 23:37:00 GMT

twenty.

OK what you do is, start off by writing 20 different sentences about people. You can repeat people if you want. It has to be what you think of them, or what you are thinking of them. The catch is...
Posted by on Thu, 26 Apr 2007 08:55:00 GMT

afraid to breathe.

i just dont understand a lot of stuff right now i guess. i thought maybe i did. i thought there for a few weeks now, i might have atleast something figured out. but it turns all back around, and im le...
Posted by on Mon, 19 Feb 2007 08:01:00 GMT

a yelling match.

i should be in bed. i should be in bed asleep, not searching around and finding things i dont want to read. i guess when my brother said curiousity killed the cat, he meant it. i guess he just said it...
Posted by on Thu, 08 Feb 2007 23:26:00 GMT

i guess i was wrong.

i thought that things might get better, but i guess the outside tends to play tricks on your mind. things always seem okay. but i guess it just goes to show, things tend to fall apart all at the same ...
Posted by on Tue, 16 Jan 2007 19:04:00 GMT

a new year.

i guess this is time to write about the year. everyone seems to be doing so, so i guess i just thought maybe i should too. its weird how things work out. i felt like i lost myself a few months ago... ...
Posted by on Mon, 01 Jan 2007 18:33:00 GMT