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RC and Crew

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About Me

I'm a survivor of child sexual abuse. Yep, it's a common story. Right now I'm on this healing journey, trying to go through the process in God's time, allowing him to guide me through it. He knows the whole book, beginning to end, so it makes sense to follow his lead.

I'm pretty much laying it all out here on the line, wearing my heart on my sleeve, but I'm sick of hiding this process, sick of people wanting to change the subject whenever something of a serious nature crops up.

So this is me, the real me, broken, healing, saved, questioning God at every turn, but knowing He really is the way.

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Shadow

Shadow was Ionce upon a timesometimes leadingmostly followingso much like the girlbut often distortedgaining dimensionwith multiple lightscasting more of methan she ever wantedas she walked closerd...
Posted by on Sun, 27 Jul 2008 19:28:00 GMT

Every Time I Breathe--by Big Daddy Weave--video & lyrics

Such a powerful song! (Lyrics below) Big Daddy Weave - Every Time I Breathe Lyrics I am sure all of heaven's heard me cry As I tell You all the reasons why This life is just too hard But...
Posted by on Wed, 04 Jun 2008 09:06:00 GMT

Make me willing...not happening today

Why does this never leave me? This extreme desire to see my veins dripping blood down my arms. Knowing exactly where to cut to achieve the greatest result. Longing for blades like others lon...
Posted by on Sat, 24 May 2008 15:40:00 GMT

Freaking Friday

  Well this just bites. I wrote a blog on all the things that can go wrong in one day, clicked the post button and got an error...losing the whole post. Yeah, I know I should have saved it in Ope...
Posted by on Fri, 23 May 2008 18:23:00 GMT

Thought depression was ending...

Yesterday it felt as if the depression was beginning to lift. That weight that pushes my mind and body down making absolutely everything a struggle was suddenly lighter. I began to feel somewhat ...
Posted by on Sat, 01 Mar 2008 13:57:00 GMT

Lies, Emotions, and Suicide

Have you ever felt like you're lying but when you actually look at it, you can't find any lies you've told? I feel like that tonight. I'm not exactly sure why except that maybe I wasn't as forthcoming...
Posted by on Mon, 25 Feb 2008 20:17:00 GMT

Poem--Fear, oh Fear

  fear, oh fear, paralyzing my bodystealing my hopei lie crumpled on the floorunable to cope my tattered heart, cold and bruisedmy shattered mindi feel misplaced and misledis this the designinsid...
Posted by on Fri, 22 Feb 2008 17:21:00 GMT

So Cold

I woke up tonight feeling cold--physically and spiritually. I know my chill came from feeling sick, but the coldness in my heart was, well, disheartening.  It amazes me how much God will use musi...
Posted by on Mon, 18 Feb 2008 01:51:00 GMT

Surrender

Surrender is a hard word for me. At dictionary.com the first definition for it is "to yield (something) to the possession or power of another." Ultimately what it means is that you're admitting t...
Posted by on Tue, 15 Jan 2008 15:52:00 GMT

When Am I Gonna Learn

when am I gonna learnat every single turn in the roadI need to just trust youyou know which way to gowill there ever come a timewhen I know I can't do this aloneI gotta lean on youevery single step o...
Posted by on Wed, 02 Jan 2008 00:02:00 GMT