Babie, you've always been right there and that's when I knew I didn't have to BUY your love.. with like money, clothes, or cars, and that's okay because then our love would never have been as true as I see it now...
To: Chounna Yuom
We don't choose the people for whom we fall. We can only choose to continue loving them, to make that conscious decision to put aside fears and worries, to do things that we didn't think possible, to entertain thoughts that scared the hell out of us months or years or lifetimes ago. We can choose to take the risk, because I feel that you are worth it.
I like long walks on the sidewalks and candlelight lunches =P and i'm a down to earth chick, I love socializing, i'm confident, mysterious, and charismatic. I'm soooo efn easy to get along with but sometimes i'm a bit bossy when I need to be. I know what i want and i'm certainly not AFRAID to ask for it!
..THE SIGN
OF THE
=SCORPIO=
I am typically described in one word: INTENSE. Deeply emotional and emotionally complex, I possess an incredible charisma that attracts and stimulates others, who always want to know, who is that behind the intriguing mystery? That's the great question: who lives behind the sexy, alluring yet impregnable persona that I portray? The answer isn't an easy one to find. I like to keep my secrets, and perhaps I couldn't tell you even if I wanted to. My constantly rising and falling emotional responses often prove confusing at best. My driving pursuit, however, is connection. It's what gives me my reputation for being an amazing lover and what makes me so intense in both romantic and platonic relationships. Behind that drive to connect, however, is a driving sense of insecurity. I am afraid that if I disconnect from others, the disconnection will be complete with secrets and illusions, manipulations, and occasional rages and that I can lash out whenever I get my feelings hurt.
All this takes up a lot of time and energy, to say the least. My task is to learn to relax and let go my fear of abandonment and being alone. If I can learn that disconnecting isn't necessarily permanent, there would be less of a need for manipulative and vindictive behavior, of course, the only way to learn that lesson is to let go, which may be far easier said than done. I tend to be one of the most possessive, jealous and suspicious signs of the zodiac. I possess a heightened sense of secrets and always try to sniff out what's hidden. However, others may be more forthright and direct, meaning everything is out in the open but I'm gonna try to find the real truth anyway, perhaps even to the point of creating a secret or a lie where there isn't one. I need to learn the value of trust and privacy, allow my friends and lovers to feel trusted and trustworthy, allow them to chose which parts of themselves to share and which to keep private.
One reason why it may be hard for me to trust others is that I'm afraid I can't trust myself to withstand being hurt or taken advantage of. When something like that happens to me, my instinct tells me to get revenge. I am not a malicious sign; I simply have an incredible complex emotional life and I tend to be at mercy of these emotions. I need to learn to self-regulate more effectively, to resist the urgh to lash out when hurt, to rise above pettiness and manipulation. I'm learning to forgive and forget since holding on to anger and grudges improves nothing for anyone. However, these lessons are difficult to learn. In my struggle towards personal freedom, maybe it'll help if I get inspiration from others who have already mastered what I'm trying to learn. SOmeone who possesses the emotional self-sufficiency and calm demeanor that I may lack; it's unhealthy for me to try to stifle emotions, but it is important to be able to control my actions in response. I need someone to teach me about true honesty and directness; someone to teach me to be warm and open-hearted to love ones; rather than suspicious and demanding. Someone to guide me to find myself....