Joey

My name is Joey.i'm over the age of 30, but i have the soul of someone many years my senior yet the heart and imagination of a kid. i'm a full-blooded leo. i'm gay, but i don't consider myself to be flamboyant. the word "fabulous" makes my spine curl. drag queens often have that same effect on me, but not always. i used to constantly refer to people as bitch, ho, hooker, whore, girl or girlfriend, but not so much anymore.i love princess. she's a cat, but she's probably the closest i'll come to having children. for now, anyway. i'm 5th in the line of 6 children. i have a deep-seeded respect for my family, even if i don't always get along with all of them. my parents have been married for over 40 years. i'm happily amazed by that fact, yet i envy it at the same time.to my knowledge, i'm the only one of my siblings who's never smoked. i don't intend to ever start, though i do understand the inclination. i don't drink alcohol as much as i used to. except for wine. just not out in public...well, not often. i used to love going out to clubs, but it's become difficult to find one that entertains me in the same way anymore, despite the fact that i work at one. maybe i was spoiled early on. i miss a good dance club, as well as nights of reverie with friends and without responsibility. i sing really loud when i know the words, which is most of the time. dancing is also a vice of mine, though i'm not really any good at it.i like to laugh. no, check that: i love to laugh. i feel a sublime sense of satisfaction and gratification when i make other people laugh. i once toyed with the idea of becoming a stand-up comedian, but then gave it up when i realized that i was usually the only one who laughed at my own jokes. i have a bizarre sense of humor, but i'm thankful that there are people in my life who appreciate it. i like to be around people who don't take themselves or life too seriously - people who know when to be serious but also when to lighten up.when i was younger, i wanted to be a tv game show host when i grew up. i'm a clown. i'm a hard-worker. sometimes i work too hard. i'm often shy in social settings where i don't know many people, but i'm fun, especially when i'm relaxed enough to let my guard down. sometimes that takes a drink or two, but not always.i love my friends whole-heartedly, but quietly. anyone who doubts that fact probably isn't a true friend of mine. i know who my true friends are...i think. i would do anything for my friends. that may be my downfall, though, as i'm notorious for putting other people's happiness and well-being before my own. i am humble and modest, even if saying so makes it seem hard to believe. i have always tried to be the emotional rock for my friends, but i rarely let people see when i need the gesture to be returned. comes with the territory of being a leo, i suppose. i need not be the center of attention, though. well, not ALL the time.i love music. it's my strongest passion in life. i'm a dj at a nightclub. i would be devastated if i ever lost my hearing. when i die, the most sentimental item i could ever pass on to someone else would be my headphones.i still worry on occasion what people think of me, even though i pretend not to care. to this day, i still wonder why people who don't know me personally are often the first to pass judgement on me. i should know better by now. i'm an idealist. i don't consider myself to be shallow or narcissistic. i watch people when i go out, and i often wonder if anyone ever looked at me with the same disdain. it is not my desire to be a hypocrite, but i often fail at that task unintentionally and without realizing it. i hold myself to higher standards than anyone else ever could. i'm a perfectionist. i used to believe i was easy to get along with.i have ADD. i take anti-depressants, and i feel that making the decision to do so was one of the wisest things i've ever done. i drink a lot of green and white tea, albeit commercially produced. i eat raisin bran for breakfast when i can. i love italian food. i really should exercise more. i love my iPod and would be lost without it. i miss summer vacation. i don't feel my age, but i do feel that i grew up too fast. i once considered myself to be "smart," but now i'll settle for "intelligent." on two separate occasions, i came in second place in spelling bees in elementary school. i don't read much. the english language and i often don't get along.i have a terrible temper when pushed to extremes. i don't lash out without provocation. i'm not catty or bitter, but perhaps i am a little jaded. i hate being taken advantage of. i don't offer my trust or love very easily, but, if i do, you've got it for life. i'm afraid of being hurt...again. but i will take a chance once in awhile and step outside of my comfort zone. i once gave my phone number to a guy i'd never met before; i was a little disappointed that he didn't call. i don't chase people. i'd sooner long for someone from afar than be thought of as obsessing over or stalking them. i hate lying. immensely. i hate fake people even more. i remember when i still believed that looking into someone's eyes would say more than any amount of words ever could.i want more than anything to fall in love again. preferably sooner than later, but i'm willing to wait. i have been in love before. three times. i miss it a lot, but i won't compromise on anything to get it back. i do believe that love exists (see statement above about my parents being married for over 40 years). i also believe that, when the time is right, it will come for me again. i'm incredibly impatient (see statement above about having ADD). my heart is genuine, as is my affection. i'm passionate and sentimental. i'm flirtatious, but loyal. i'm a hopeless romantic, and i fear that there aren't many of those left in the world.i don't claim to be perfect. i consider the word "perfect" to be a relative term, anyway.I am a work in progress...