CURING THE BLIND,FEEDING THE POOR,AMPUTEE'S... OH AND ORPHANS.
SHE LOOKED INTO THE LAKE AND SAW HERSELF. BUT IT WAS NOT HERSELF. ONLY A BLURRED REFLECTION TAINTED BY A FEW STRAY LEAVES.JUST BECAUSE WE BELIEVE SOMETHING DOES NOT MEAN THAT IT EXISTS. JUST BECAUSE A FEW BILLION PEOPLE BELIEVE SOMETHING DOES NOT MEAN THAT IT EXISTS. IN FACT CAN WE REALLY SAY THAT ANYTHING EXISTS AT ALL? EVERYTHING THAT WE SEE, TOUCH, HEAR, TASTE WE ONLY SEE, TOUCH, HEAR AND TASTE BECAUSE A RESPONSE IN OUR BRAIN TELLS US THAT WE DO.DID THE CUT ON YOUR FINGER HURT BEFORE YOU REALISED IT WAS THERE?TODAY I MET DEATH. DEATH THAT I CONTROLLED AND YET FELT SO HELPLESS TO AVOID. EVERY DAY PEOPLE MEET DEATH. SOME IN THE MOST HORRIFIC AND TRAGIC OF WAYS OTHERS LIKE MYSELF IN THE SIMPLE LOSS OF A HOUSEHOLD PET. AND YET IF WE CANNOT PROVE THAT LIFE EXISTS THEN HOW CA WE PROVE THAT DEATH DOES?I AM ONLY ALIVE IN MYSELF BECAUSE I HAVE MEMORY. WITHOUT MEMORY I AM NOT JESSICA BANKOFF. I AM DEAD. I AM REBORN. I AM NO ONE BUT SOMEONE. MY CATS LIMP LITTLE BODY BURIED UNDER THE ALMOND TREE NEVER HAD MUCH MEMORY TO BEGIN WITH. BUT SHE HAD ENOUGH TO DO THE SAME THINGS OVER AND OVER SO THAT WE TOOK THEM TO BE HER PERSONALITY. HAVE YOU EVER NOT LIKED SOMETHING BUT MADE YOURSELF LIKE IT? OR REALISED THAT YOU ONLY DIDN'T LIKE IT IN THE FIRST PLACE BECAUSE OF THE DISLIKEABLE PERSON WHO SHOWED IT TO YOU?A MIND IS NOT SOLID. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS PERSONALITY. WE ARE IN A CONSTANT FLUX OF CHANGE. WE ARE DESCRIBED ONLY BY WHAT WE CHOOSE TO LIKE OR DISLIKE, DO OR NOT DO, AND WE ARE AS PETTY AND FICKLE AS OUR MIND CHOOSES TO BE. AND OUR MINDS ARE PRETTY FUCKEN FICKLE!DRUGS WARP OUR MEMORIES. OUR MEMORIES MAKE US DECIDE WHO WE ARE. MOST OF US LET THE DRUGS DECIDE. ITS A LOT EASIER.THERE IS NO POINT TO EXISTING. THERE IS NO MEANING OF LIFE. THERE IS NO MEANING OF DEATH.SO WHATS WRONG WITH LIVING AN IGNORANT AND HAPPY LIFE? THE ACADEMICS TELL US THAT TRUTH IS THE ULTIMATE GOAL. WHAT FUCKING TRUTH? I SEE NONE.BUT I LOOKED. THATS THE POINT.
MUSIC HAS TO BE THE MOST FANTASTIC MUTATION EVER TO GROW FROM THE LEFT SIDE OF THE NECK.
THE CUBE. ITS BRILLIANT!
TALKS TO ME.
AR BRILL!
TAPS,ABSTRACT,IRRELEVANT,VIOLINSTRING,PINK NOISE.