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not what u thought

I only smile in the dark....my only comfort is the night gone black....

About Me

wanna hear about my new obsession? im riding high upon a deep depression...take a look at me and let me dirty up ur mind.... im young and still learning about myself so im ever changing, ever learning new things, ever thirsty for new chalanges... im like a four year old, i want know why and how come about everything, i want 2 reveal myself at will and speak my mind..yes i like shocking, if we were our bodies, if we were our futures,if we were our devences. if we were our culture if we were our leaders,if we were our denials, if we were our name tags, if we were our rejections, if we were our outcomes, if we were our indignities, if we were our successes, if we were our emotions, if wew were our incomes, if we were our obsessions, if we were our afflictions id probably do away with myself but luckily ive learned that we are not... im a free soul... i want 2 fly... i want 2 be fascinating.. i want 2 fullfill, i want 2 be fullfilled... im confusing and confused... am everything and im nothing...i dont want 2 be brainwashed by society and their expectations... i want more from life, i want extraordinary and great things not just fine and ok and mundane crap...Ultimately, you can not escape from Fear, because Fear is not a delusion... We are mortal creatures, condemned to die, and die we shall for time is against us.WE SHOULD FEAR...quid pro quo...

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My Interests

padded cells, russia, cherries, knives, fire.. -- -- -- -- -- -- -- -- START YOUTHINK.COM QUIZ RESULTS --
What genre of Metal are you?
Gothic Metal
Bands like Beseech, Sirenia, Lacuna Coil, and Tiamat. Music is: Typically slower and with lots of atmosphere, the genre also sometimes sports twin vocalists (male and female). You enjoy the finer things in life and love beautiful things that tickle your senses. You are romantic without ever overdoing it, and you love the dark because it brings out your sensual side.

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I'd like to meet:

like minded pll, who arent afraid 2 be themselves...
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: mickey
Birthday: 22 september
Birthplace: nelspruit
Current Location: midrand
Eye Color: blue
Hair Color: dark brown and pink
Height: cant remeber
Right Handed or Left Handed: both
Your Heritage: whole bunch of stuff mixed up
The Shoes You Wore Today: boots
Your Weakness: chocolate
Your Fears: losing my loved ones
Your Perfect Pizza: that one from mimis but i cant remeber its name...
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: save some cash
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol and haha
Thoughts First Waking Up: but why???
Your Best Physical Feature: mouth eyes
Your Bedtime: whenever
Your Most Missed Memory: kids stuff:)
Pepsi or Coke: COKE
MacDonalds or Burger King: MC Satans!!!!!
Single or Group Dates: single is better but in a group is also cool
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton - green tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: CHOCCY!!!!!
Cappuccino or Coffee: Coffee
Do you Smoke: yes
Do you Swear: yes
Do you Sing: haha sometimes
Do you Shower Daily: yip
Have you Been in Love: yes... i am
Do you want to go to College: yes doing gis soon:)
Do you want to get Married: maybe
&..39;Do you belive in yourself:' not always but mostly
Do you get Motion Sickness: nope
Do you get along with your Parents: yes
Do you like Thunderstorms: lllooooovvvveee them they make me all tingly and stuff oooooo:)
Do you play an Instrument: little bit guitar...
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: haha yea eidelweis beer is the best!!!
In the past month have you Smoked: yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs: haha... ummmmm
In the past month have you gone on a Date: yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes
&..39;In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:' nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: not yet
In the past month have you been on Stage: stood on a stage on saturday but there werent any ppl around
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: :( no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: haha ya
Ever been called a Tease: mmmm....
Ever been Beaten up: no
Ever Shoplifted: no
How do you want to Die: ironically
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: mona lisa - most mysterious woman ever
What country would you most like to Visit: japan or russia
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: brown or green...
Favourite Hair Color: brown or dark....
Short or Long Hair: lloooooooonnnnnngggggg
Height: no matter
Weight: doesnt matter
Best Clothing Style: anything original and not trendy.... personal style is always best
Number of Drugs I have taken: hehehehehehh.... like id remember that
Number of CDs I own: lots
Number of Piercings: going for 2 more this weekend:) but so far i had 4
Number of Tattoos: none yet
Number of things in my Past I Regret: being blind and way too late

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Music:

whatever i feel like...2day its : the cure, cradle and metallica, pj harvey, cranberries

Movies:

say it with me... books are better than the movie

Television:

discovery channel, history channel, travel channel, cartoon network:)

Books:

historical, philosophy, mythology, traveling.... and classics:)

Heroes:

I LOVE STEWIE!!!!!!!Take the quiz:
Which Griffin Family Guy Character are you?

Stewie
You are smarter than most of those surrounding you, yet it is wasted on heinous projects. You demand alot and kick ass when you dont get it.

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My Blog

diamods and blood

he smiles and touches my hand.. 'relax sweetheart' he whispers in my ear, leading me up 2 the small dark room.. im taken in by his blue eyes..i sit down on the cold leather chair im relaxed.. he touc...
Posted by not what u thought on Wed, 26 Sep 2007 09:13:00 PST

Your Eyes in the Moon

Beautiful piano in my head, Notes, giving me emotion... pulling.. at my heart, grow, grow!   Screaming in my mind, tie my.. hand, so i dont rip out these eyes that see, all of a sudden, wide open...
Posted by not what u thought on Sat, 18 Aug 2007 10:25:00 PST

always so blind

I wonder why, when u think something is good or great, something pops up out of nowever and mixes alot of stuff up again? you know something for a long time, yet you dont realise how deep or how passi...
Posted by not what u thought on Mon, 19 Mar 2007 10:20:00 PST

just random stuff in the head

There are lost hours... the ones nobody thinks about -  and the world is cool and quiet,  those hours that are mine.  Whether to sit in the quiet, sit at a counter, drinking black coffe...
Posted by not what u thought on Mon, 05 Mar 2007 10:46:00 PST

perfection or passion

THERE IS NO PASSION IN PERFECTION - ROSANNE CASHShe said it once in an interveiw - and it seemed like only the most perfect utterance about the conflict netween what we're sold and what we want ever s...
Posted by not what u thought on Wed, 14 Jun 2006 05:08:00 PST