"there are moments in our lives where we find ourselves at a crossroads; afraid, confused, without a roadmap. the choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us choose to turn around and go back, but once in a while, people push on to something better, something ***** just beyond the pain of doing it alone, and just beyond the bravery and courage that it takes to let someone in, or give someone a second chance, something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream, because it's only when you're tested that you discover who you are, that you discover who you can be. the person you can be does exist; beyond the hard work, faith, belief, and beyond the heartache, and fear of what lies ahead." - ONE TREE HILL
Music:
I wanna live
I wanna leave
I wanna open up and breathe
I wanna go
I wanna be
I wanna feel it constantly
Gotta show
Gotta stay
I've gotta feeling that won't go away
I've gotta know
If they got away
My opportunities
I need to think
I need to feed
I need to see if I still bleed
I need a place
I need a time
Cause I need to step outside that line
Gonna give
Gonna take
I'm gonna scream till I'm awake
I'm gonna push
Gonna pull
Open up the door
Just one,
Chance is all I ever wanted
Just one,
Time I'd like to win the game
From now on,
I'd take the chance if I can have it
Just one, just one
And if I knew
When the door was open
I'd go through
I would go on through
And I can say
What I do never be the same
Never be the same
Television:
i loveeee the ER
Heroes:
my grandfather, he seems to always be with me.
my cousin derek, hes always there for me when i need to talk, and be cheered up. when i need help, with growing up, or advice.
my sister, for being there with me through the hardest times, giving me pep talks, and letting me cry on her shoulder when things were painful for me.
my dad, for being the guy in my life, who i can talk to about anything. he does so much for me.
"sometimes we reach a certain point in our lives where we need to choose a path that leads you away from the one youre used to. sometimes, we learn that the friends we thought we had, arent really our friends, and were never there for us. our pets that we grow up with age 7 times faster than we do, and then were lost without our best friend who was always there, even when you didnt scratch behind their ears. sometimes, people hurt us, make us cry, or just flat out stab us in the backs. sometimes we need to fall down first, in order to get the message that we shouldve listened to our parents. the point comes in our lives that we sound like our mothers and fathers, and even start to look like them. where we begin to grow up, and leave our child-hood dreams behind, we leave our child-hood friends behind, the ones who really cared about us. we reach the age, where we go with the mainstream, talk like everyone else talks, walk like they walk, wear what they wear, and listen to what they listen to. we let the media and the screwed up image of the american girl in society take over our teenage minds; making us think that we have to be a size 3 to be beautiful, that we have to have blonde hair and blue eyes, with a full C cup to stand out in the crowd. we lose touch with the fact that we should get to know people for who they are, not what they look like. the best of everyone is in their heart. we get to a point in life, where we wake up one day and were just like, "man, what did i do with myself, i wasted so much time, partying, and trying to impress my friends, that i dont know know if i even have a future." theres just one thing to remember. life will go on, no matter how bad someone hurt your feelings. the world will keep spinning, whether youre here to be a part of it or not. do what you have to do. say what you have to say. feel what you want. and live life, like you know whats going on in this crazy world." - me :)
