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Crazy isn't being broken, or swallowing a dark secret; it's you... or me...amplified. -Girl, Interru

About Me

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Inside Your Mind. 184 unique Q's.
Inside Your Mind.
What do you like about yourself?: The fact that I'm easy to get along with.
What do you dislike about yourself?: Everything else.
Do you have any special talents?: Not really.
What are some of your hobbies?: Painting, collecting snowglobes, and there's a few more.
Do you accept your anger?: Yup.
Do you accept your sadness?: All the time.
Do you accept your worry?: Yes.
Do you accept your confusion?: Yes.
Do you accept your anxiety?: Yes.
Do you accept your fear?: Yes.
What is difficult for you?: Everything.
About You.
Favorite color?: Black/Red/Purple
Favorite song?: "Downtown" by Petula Clark
Favorite band?: The Dresden Dolls/Flyleaf/Disturbed/Korn
Favorite movie?: Fried Green Tomatoes
Favorite teacher (past or present)?: Too many to name
Favorite book?: Girl, Interrupted by Susanna Kaysen
Favorite thing to do?: I don't know
Second favorite thing to do?: ^^
Favorite website?: Don't have one
Do you like your looks?: Nope.
Do you like your body?: Nope.
Describe yourself.
Length of hair?: Medium.
Color of hair?: Brown, Blonde
Color of eyes?: Green
Height?: Short
Are you athletic?: Nope.
Are you healthy?: Probably not.
What emotion do you hide?: All.
Do you think you’re smart?: Nope.
Are you religious?: Nope.
What is your religion?: Athiest... religion is overrated.
Do you believe in “God”?: Again, overrated.
What do you want to “be” when you “grow up”?: A teacher.
Do you get along well with people?: Some.
Are you fun?: Not really.
What makes a “good person” just that?: It's not really something you can describe.
How would others describe you?: Nice.
Friendship.
How would you describe a “true friend”?: Again, it's not really something you can describe.
Who is your best friend?: Angel, Trish, Adriana
How did you meet?: Angel: Can't remember. Trish: Last year's homecoming. Adriana: Biology class 10th grade.
Ever meet anyone who was just like you?: Prolly Angel and Kim.
How do your friends help you to be more yourself?: What?
Relationships.
Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend?: Nope.
If so, describe him or her.: N/A
What qualities do you look for in a significant other?: Personality and tolerance.
Ever crush on someone who only liked you as a friend?: All the time...
Ever have someone crush on you and you only liked them as a friend?: Yeah...
In a relationship…
What makes you jealous?: When my significant other flirts with someone in front of me.
What makes you angry?: ^^
What makes you happy?: When they're around.
What hurts your feelings?: When they yell.
What makes you love them more?: When they say "I love you" and mean it.
What have you learned about love?: It's hard.
Describe your first relationship.: ...
What benefits come from being single?: It's easier to find "The One".
What benefits come from being with someone?: I had someone to love and they loved me back.
Family.
What siblings do you have?: A brother and a "little twin sister"
Are you a first, last, middle or only child?: By blood: last. if you count my little twin, then the middle.
If you could change this, how would it be different?: I wouldn't change it.
Do you get along with your siblings?: Kim, yes. Anthony, most of the time.
What do you like best about your brother(s)?: He's funny... he can always make me laugh.
What do you like best about your sister(s)?: She listens.
What do you like best about being an only child?: ...?
Have you ever been embarrassed by family?: Oh "god" yes.
Do/did your parent(s) try to make you think like them?: No.
Tough shit.
What difficult experiences have you been through?: I don't wanna talk about it.
Has anyone close to you died?: Yes.
How did you find out?: Over the phone.
Did you get to say good-bye?: Only with my grandma.
Have you known anyone your age die?: Yeah.
Have you ever been really sick?: Yeah.
Has anyone close to you ever been really sick?: Yeah.
Do you have a drug problem?: Nope.
Do you have a drinking problem?: Nope... I can control my intake.
Are your parents divorced?: Yup.
Are/were your parents fighting constantly?: Yup.
Do you let yourself feel emotional pain or make it go away?: Pain lets you know your alive, though sometimes I wish I were numb...
Do you believe pain makes us grow?: Pain reminds you that you're alive.
How do you feel when you see a homeless person?: Upset.
Have you ever witnessed extreme suffering?: Yes.
Do you ever wonder why there is so much suffering?: Always.
What kinds of things cause you pain?: Almost everything.
What is the biggest mistake you’ve ever made?: There's been a few.
Have you ever thought about suicide?: Yes.
What advice would you give to someone who is suicidal?: Stop.
Learning lessons.
Do you think people learn from their mistakes?: SOmetimes.
Do you think people can learn the “easy way”?: Yes.
Have you ever learned the “easy way”?: No.
Have you ever learned the “hard way”?: Yes.
What is the most difficult lesson you’ve learned?: Let go.
Do you believe things happen for a reason?: Yes.
Have you learned that nobody is perfect?: I've always known that.
What imperfections about yourself do you accept?: Everything... I am an imperfection.
Do you try to look at both sides of a situation?: Yes.
Follow your dreams.
“Follow your bliss.”: What?
What does this quote mean to you?: Nothing.
What is your bliss?: N/A
Do you have a dream?: Yes.
What is your number-one goal?: To graduate.
“Do what you love and the money will follow." True?: No.
If your dream was guaranteed to happen, what would it be?: To graduate... and to teach.
Would you answer differently if the guarantee wasn’t there?: Yes.
Do you believe in yourself?: No.
Growing up.
How old are you?: 16
How old do you feel?: 30
What do you think is the perfect age?: None.
How old do you think people should be before they…
Get a job:: 16
Cook for themselves:: 12
Set their own bedtimes:: 11
Go away with their friends:: 16
Do their own laundry:: 10
Have a boyfriend or girlfriend:: Don't matter
Date:: 12
Kiss:: 13
Stay out past midnight:: 16
Stay out as late as they want:: 18
Have their own phone:: 15
Drive:: 16
Travel alone:: 18
Drink:: 21
Go to clubs:: 21
Get married:: Over 18
Have children:: ^^
Vote:: ^^
Go out by themselves:: 16
At what age do you think a person is mature?: There's no right age.
Do you think maturity is a good thing?: Yes.
Do you think all adults are mature?: Nope
Do you think a difficult life makes a person grow up faster?: Yes.
What IS “grown up”?: Reaching maturity.
Are/were you scared or excited about growing up?: Yes.
Do you think of yourself as grown up?: No.
Do you want to be considered grown up?: No.
What do you think is the secret to happiness?: ?
Random.
What kind of toothpaste do you use?: What?
Do you always brush your teeth before visiting a dentist?: Yes.
How many cavities do/did you have?: Currently: 2
Ever wear braces or a retainer?: Nope.
How often do you shower?: Every day.
Do you prefer any shampoo brand?: No.
What is the weirdest band name you know of?: Shug Clowns (Sorry,Billy...)
What are your favorite dog breeds?: Don't have one
Who was your childhood best friend?: Jake and Vung
Are you still friends with them today?: Yes.
How many computers are in your home?: 1
Do you write with your left or right hand?: Both... preferably left
Do you take any vitamins?: I'm supposed to...
How many doors are in your home?: a lot
How many windows are there?: A lot
Do you have a collection of change somewhere?: Yes.
Would you go to jail for a good cause?: Yup.
Do you own a bookshelf?: A few
Are there any objects hanging from your room ceiling?: Nope.
Are you okay with getting your blood drawn?: No.
How about getting shots?: Scared.
Do you like getting your picture taken?: No.
Opinions.
Abortion?: Pro choice
Birth control pill?: ^^
Casual sex?: "Casual?"
Illegal immigration?: Hate it.
Death sentence?: *shrugs*
Afterlife?: I think you go where you wanna go.
Ghosts?: They exist.
Legalizing marijuana?: hahaha
Gun control?: Don't matter.
Pornography?: *shrugs again*
UFO conspiracy?: ^^
Natural VS. Artificial medicine?: Does it matter?
War in Middle East?: STUPID
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I'd like to meet:

Amanda Palmer and Susannah Kaysen.

Music:

My favorite band/duo thingy is the Dresden Dolls. The other bands I love are Cult Hero, KoRn, Flyleaf, Disturbed, Ozzy, Marilyn Manson, Imogen Heap, Alanis Morissette,The Red Paintings,Nirvana,Trivium, Cradle of Filth, The Vincent Black Shadow, Nile, 3, Amon Amarth, Therion, Lacuna Coil, The Beatles, Blink 182, NIN, Zug Island,what I've heard from Tech N9ne... yeah, I'm into almost everything.
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Movies:

Fried Green Tomatoes, Girl, Interrupted, Brokeback Mountain, Bowling for Columbine, Fight Club, Pulp Fiction, Reservoir Dogs, North Country, Carrie

Television:

America's Next Top Model, Scrubs, CSI, Golden Girls, I Love Lucy, Degrassi

Books:

Girl, Interrupted, Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Cafe, My Life At Rose Red: The Diary of Ellen Rimbaur, A Concise History of Modern Painting, Cut, Am I Blue: Coming Out From the Silence, Anything by William Shakespeare, Perfect, Anything by Stephen King, Any poetry

Heroes:

My family, My friends, Susannah Kaysen, Lois Jensen

My Blog

So... its been a while.

It's been a while, indeed. Let's see, where to start. I'm single again, that's no surprise. My family and I moved into a shack, I was in one of Mr. Gentry's plays (some loved it, some hated it), I've ...
Posted by Light like this does not exist, but we wish it did on Sun, 24 Feb 2008 08:31:00 PST

The Dresden Dolls/Red Paintings Show

Last night Teresa, Anthony and I went to the 9:30 club to see the Dresden Dolls and the Red Paintings. It was probably one of the best experiences of my life: We were out there standing in the rain fo...
Posted by Light like this does not exist, but we wish it did on Sat, 28 Oct 2006 08:00:00 PST

Crackheads and whipped cream...

Oh boy was today interesting. I hung out with Hope and Robyn (the crackheaded sisters that aren't really sisters) today, and it was the most fun that I've had in a long ass time. I really missed them ...
Posted by Light like this does not exist, but we wish it did on Sun, 13 Aug 2006 06:32:00 PST

Ozzfest 2006

Yesterday was so much fun! Myself, Trish, Vic (stepsis) and me mum went to Ozzfest, and it was great! The second stage was so bomb ass (even though I got groped, grinded against, and had a really fat ...
Posted by Light like this does not exist, but we wish it did on Mon, 07 Aug 2006 03:07:00 PST

A little of ^_^ and a little of ._. with a little of :'( and some >.<

I know this is late, but the last day of school was soooooo much fun! Durning A Lunch I hung out with Jak, Jo, and Miranda. Man that shiz was fun! We made complete asses of ourselves. Love you guys! T...
Posted by Light like this does not exist, but we wish it did on Tue, 13 Jun 2006 10:41:00 PST