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ScHizOphReNic PsYchO!

FoCuS oN tHe pAsT aNd Yo aSs Will be a hAs What!

About Me

As far as I have gone, I knew what side I'm on, But now I'm not so sure, The line begins to BLUR... Life is an adventure, to some it's torture. I have been in both down both paths. Martin Luther King Jr. once said.."Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter." I am glad that I weathered storms and survived trials in my life. Life is funny... We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the SOUL. We DRINK too much, smoke too much, spend $ too recklessly, LAUGH too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much , and PRAY too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We TALK too much, LOVE too seldom, and HATE too often. We've learned how to make a living, but not a LIFE. We've added years to life not life to years. I hope anyone who knows me, feels they have benefited from our friendship. I look back at my life, see mistakes and blessings. I cannot change either. I LOVE them all. It is who I am, what I am. It's hard to love that sometimes... but I do. Enough that I would rather cease to be than to be anything less than what I believe. The past year and a half ha been full of ups and downs.I have made new friends and made mistakes. Part of living and learning. "Kill the snake of doubt in your soul, crush the worms of fear in your heart, and mountains will move out of your way" ~

My Interests

Internal growth, Wrestling, Boxing, Mixed Martial Arts, Baseball, Hockey, Family, GOD, ALL natures of the spirit... the DARK & the LIGHT. Sexuality & LOVE, history, passion (what eva it is), sexXxy asSses! MUSIC & DANCING!!!

I'd like to meet:

------------------- My Savior Jesus Christ, Gordon B. Hinkly, My Great Great Grand children, Tabetha (my eternal soulmate), Trent Reznor, Jack Black, Harrison Ford, George Lucas, The Rock, Brett Hart, Steve-O, Jessica Alba, Carmen Electra (just once.. well maybe twice ha-ha!) ------------------- In general I would like to meet anyone who is REAL, people who like to laugh, enjoy to hang, talk, share & care. I never had a problem meeting new people... but few actually become friends and even fewer stay the course. But the ones that do, are more like fam... and U know who you are, LOVE YA!!!

Music:


Kanye West STRONGER feat. Daft PunkToo many to mention. Raw emotion and expression, ANYTHING funky I can dance to, Nine Inch Nails, 30 Seconds to Mars, Breaking Benjamin, FLYLEAF, CROSSFADE, 10 Years, Velvet Revolver, Jet, Kottonmouth Kings, E-40, T-Pain, 50Cent, Smashing Pumkins, Hard Acid House, German Trance, funky techno, 50 Cent, Eminem, Outkast, Prince, KISS, G-n-R, Beastie Boys, Linkin Park, Underworld, Torie Amos, The DOORS, Staind, STP, RedHotChiliPeppers, Queen, Journey, Billy Joel, Creed, Hardkiss, Rihanna

Movies:

----- WALK THE LINE ----- Cinderella Man ------ ~{{StarWars}}~, **SCAREFACE**, Rocky 1-2, The Godfather trilogy, Goodfellas, Pulp Fiction, Resevior Dogs, Natural Born Killers, Hustle & Flo, Waiting & Wedding Crashers...funny shit! American Pie, Meet the Fockers, --- BLOW --- Interview with a Vampire, Remember the Titans, Dreamer and Vision Quest just to name a few

Television:

Classic Cartoons, , The Simpsons, King of Queens, Seinfeld, Martin, 24, MTV, WWE RAW & SMACKDOWN, Nickelodeon (I have 4 kids!), Family Guy, Mad About You, In Living Color, Prison Break, House, Martin, In Livin' Color, Ren & Stimpy (ha-ha)

Books:

Bible, Book of Mormon (especially D&C and Peal of Great Price)

Heroes:

***JESUS*** My Father, Jim Braddock, Joseph Smith, Brigham Young, Moses, Dave Schultz, Abraham Lincoln, Reggie Jackson, Babe Ruth, Rulan Gardner, Mike Picozzi, Wyane Gretsky and John Smith!!!!

My Blog

Love

Love is patient, Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delig...
Posted by ScHizOphReNic PsYchO! on Fri, 15 Feb 2008 07:00:00 PST

To Merissa :)

Every time we're together, my heart soars. When I see your saddness, I cry inside. You're only 11, but you you're 100 yrs deep to me. I can't picture my life with out you. When You were born, I wept f...
Posted by ScHizOphReNic PsYchO! on Fri, 08 Feb 2008 04:35:00 PST

And...

I'm sad today... My kids are sick and my directon in life is uncertain. I'm used to more stability in my life. I  know everything does not always go as planned, but over time & the big pictur...
Posted by ScHizOphReNic PsYchO! on Mon, 04 Feb 2008 12:56:00 PST

Merissa Hope

January 19, 1997 she were born, on Martin Luther King's birthday... I remember how proud I was when I held her. My little girl... my heart... my HOPE! I c annot believe she is 11. Getting so big ...
Posted by ScHizOphReNic PsYchO! on Thu, 17 Jan 2008 10:03:00 PST

Blacking out

Blacking out I'm watching your eyes Casted out, viszions of life Blacking out I'm watching your eyes... meet mine Touched.. with frustrated lips Love is like starting over With every step engraving.....
Posted by ScHizOphReNic PsYchO! on Tue, 15 Jan 2008 11:34:00 PST

Nutshell - Alice in Chains

We... chase misprinted lies We... face the path of time And yet i fight, yet I FIGHT This battle all ALONE No one to cry to No place to call HOME   My... gift of SELF is RAPED My... privacy is R...
Posted by ScHizOphReNic PsYchO! on Tue, 15 Jan 2008 11:48:00 PST

Fear & Doubt

Kill the snake of doubt in your soul, crush the worms of fear in your heart, and mountains will move out of your way. Fear is a powerful thing... It will take your GOD fearing soul and fill it with&nb...
Posted by ScHizOphReNic PsYchO! on Tue, 08 Jan 2008 10:25:00 PST

hope

hope saddness...hopeloss...faith... dying, but survivingstrands of me... regainfears from the past... remainmoving fowardfalling downgetting uplooking 'roundstrength... waiveringpast... savoringf...
Posted by ScHizOphReNic PsYchO! on Sat, 29 Dec 2007 04:58:00 PST

the bottom?

December 25th, 2007... No money, No presents this year.  No one special to share the holiday with. No family... NONE. No mom, no dad, no brothers, aunts, uncles... and NO kids. I didn't even get ...
Posted by ScHizOphReNic PsYchO! on Thu, 27 Dec 2007 01:03:00 PST

Help Me!

GODhelp mehelp meHELP ME!Help me I hurtHelp me forgetHelp me I'm lostHelp me I'm fallingHelp me I'm cryingHelp me I'm dying... INSIDEHelp me FIGHT... not HIDEHelp me remember... WHO I AM!Help me... NE...
Posted by ScHizOphReNic PsYchO! on Thu, 29 Nov 2007 11:22:00 PST