shangdabar

"Let's just say I was testing the bounds of reality- that's all. I was curious. I kind of always preferred to be hated, like Eric Von Stroheim in the movies- "the man you loved to hate." It was meant to be ironic- like courage wants to laugh. An essentially stupid situation. They go on a stage and howl for people. Me- they see exactly what they want to see. Some say "Lizard King"- whatever that means. Or some "Black-clad leather demon"- whatever that means. But really I think of myself as a sensitive, intelligent human being, but with the soul of a clown that always forces me to blow it at the crucial moment. A false hero- A joke the gods played on me." - j.m.