What to write about me...
(By the way, one thing to know about me.. is I tend to ramble, and enjoy talking a lot when I'm in comfortable situations. And this will be quite the lengthy read...)
Well: I love to have fun. Above all. I seek fun, everywhere, anywhere, and sometimes in it's most crippling form. Although not completely crippling.. just sometimes dangerous. Hah.. well not much anymore, because I don't skate much, but I still do some stupid things on occasion....
I like to go places. My house is alright... but I don't like being here all the time, so I like to go out into town, or head over to Seattle and hit up fremont, the U district, or anywhere.
I don't like when people make judgements. Which is what you may do.. possibly thinking I'm a boring person while readin this, but I always tend to have fun. If I'm just sitting there.. I like to talk, and have conversations about almost anything. I really like getting to know people.. and for people to get to know me. I can usually talk with somebody for hours.. as long as they're interesting. If you're not interesting, I'm not interested... and I'll become bored. It happens.
I really love music. I play it, be it guitar/bass/keyboard; I watch it, by going to shows; and of course I listen to it. It usually includes rock, such as hardcore, punk, indie, acoustic, techno, and yea.. pretty much anything that isn't on MTV or the radio (But I do give in sometimes...). Rap can be decent at times.. like Mos Def, and I do love to dance, even if I do it terribly.
And who doesn't like being outside? If you don't, I probably wont like you. Don't get me wrong, I love watchin movies and playing video games... but if it's nice outside.. I have to go out. Anything.. like going to the park or the city and walking around, playing soccer, or skateboarding are examples of fun things to do. And of course, going to the beach or the mountains and camping, going snowboarding, hiking, adventuring, fishing, and swimming.. I love it all. If you view my pictures... you might see some examples of what happens when Sean and the wilderness come together... It's fun.
I just graduated Centralia College with my AA, and will be starting at the UW in the fall. I can't wait. I got out of Centralia! I'm living life... and I can do as I please. I'm majoring in Business, and I'm most likely going to study a little international business overseas for my first semester or two, and ideally, participate in an internship program or just work abroad in England or something upon graduating. That would be nice.. but we'll see.
I'm a pretty focused individual.
I know what I want, and I intend on getting it.
I don't give up very easily.
I'm very confident with my abilities and how successful I will be.
I've gone through a lot of shit in life... mostly in the past several years.
I don't know all the answers, and I know I never will. But I sure do know a lot about myself.
I've come to a lot of realizations lately, and have really been growing as an individual.
Progress is great.
I am way too nice when it comes to a lot of things.
I've had people walk all over me in the past, taking advantage of my niceness.
I know niceness isn't really a word, but I use it anyways sometimes.
I think a lot, which is why I don't do drugs or anything like that, because I value my mind over everything.
Sometimes it takes me hours to get to sleep because I can't stop thinking.
I really like it when people respect me.
This can be done by things as little as answering their phone, or calling me back, or coming over when they say they are and keeping their word.
I hate people who lie.
I like people who have principles and standards about life.
People who treat others with love and respect, and you know.. that whole deal.
I really don't like shallow girls.
Don't get me wrong, I understand the whole... attraction deal, and if it's not there, then no dice.
But honestly girls, do you enjoy dating tall, muscly, good looking guys who are jerks that much?
You know, the types that cheat on you, treat ya like garbage, and etc.?
Or is it too much to give a nice guy a try?
That's just a bit of a rant.
Some girls aren't completely stuck up when it comes to that stuff, and I thank you for not being so thickheaded.
I love movies.
If somebody would actually do it with me, I would stay up all day and night and watch tons of movies some time.
I really want to watch all of the old Star Wars Trilogy in one go.
I even enjoy watching bad movies, mostly just to laugh at them.
Sometimes I like to keep all the blinds shut when I wake up in the morning, and take a shower, and eat.. and get ready. And then when I step out into the bright sunny day, I think of the song Well Versed in the Ways of the World by This Providence and sing this in my head:
I step out my door.. to a beautiful day.
And a world full of hate, but I still hold on to hope....
It's a good start to a day.
I like finding beauty in everything.
Even if I don't have my camera with me, I still stop and admire certain things.
What good is life if you can't stop and smell the roses?
I guess you could say I kind of want the American Dream.
I will find someone to love some day, and start a family, and have a house, and mow the lawn and do housework on the weekends, and bitch about the neighbors in some way.
Is that all? Is Sean going to settle for a boring settled down life?
Nope.
I'll have my toys.. like a boat, and a decent vehicle to go up to the mountains and go snowboarding.
I'll still find time to travel.
I'll still love and enjoy my life, and find more ways to have fun and better myself.
Sometimes when I think, I ask myself, what am I doing right now?
Am I making my life better? Or am I "Just getting by..."
I'm not a person who just gets by.
I really got to thinking about that lately.. and I was truly in a state of stagnance.
So I changed that.
I'm doing stuff, and I'm getting better, and feeling better.
I've got a scar on my shoulder from skateboarding.
I was pushing really hard to get a lot speed for a big gap...
I hit a rock, and went face first before I made it there.
Everybody laughed.. but oh well, it was fun.
As stated above.. I love music.
It's kind of like.. my life.
If I didn't have music in my life, I don't think I'd be dead.. but I sure would be much closer.
It's gotten me through some extremely tough times..
and it's opened my mind to so many different ways of thought.
I wouldn't be half the man I am today without the progress put forth by what music has done to me.
I love it.
Have you ever thought about an animal's basic survival instinct..
but: applied to your life?
I'm not talking about... trapped under a car, and your adrenaline pitches in to lift it up and get out..
Or the ability to fend off a wild pack of mongeese..
But emotionally...
I believe that one can only truly appreciate life by experiencing that which can take them no further.
Confusing huh?
Ponder it awhile..
Or just read my explanation here:
I don't think I can get further down than I was a while ago.
I hit rockbottom.
Not completely.. like, I didn't get into drugs, debt, and have nobody that cared for me...
But I experienced something that I can't even describe.
And yet... I think about it everyday, and am thankful for everything that happened.
It has opened my eyes.
Made me a better person..
And allowed me to truly appreciate what I have.
I was provided a situation that tested myself...
To show my ability to survive, strive, and thrive.
It's also showed me what I have, what I am, and what I can do.
I can do anything.
I got through that bit of life... what can't I get through?
I'm ready, for everything.
I wasn't before.
I was just a kid.
I thought I knew everything.
I thought I had a hold of my life.
I thought I knew myself...
And I didn't.
I was just beginning to find out what I'm about... and what I am.. and what I am to do.
And ya know what? I'm still workin on that...
I know what I'm about.. and I really know who I am, in comparison to earlier, and I've got plans... for the most part.
But now I can accept that I don't have all the answers.
As Socrates once said:
True knowledge exists in knowing that you know nothing.
I hate being depressed.
Why focus on the bad things in life? Some things get you down, and boy do I know this by experience... But hey.. life's too short to not have fun.
Just think of this quote...
If you're robbing a bank, and your pants fall down... I think it's ok to laugh, and to let the hostages laugh too because, c'mon, life is funny.
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