I'm kind of a mystery (to myself). I don't really know what I want to do with my life (besides being a mother to my adorable Jude, help heal the nonsense going on around me and in the world, and love my Justin the rest of my life). I do and I don't want to go to school again. 3 years of college was already a bit crazy. After all, everyone I work with who have degrees are making either two dollars more or the same amound of money I am and aren't doing anything with their degree. Not everyone wants a career though. I can't think of "what I want to be when I grow up" or anything I want to do more than any other thing. I want to own my own business somewhere along the Oregon, Washington, or Nor Cal coast... maybe a coffee shop (but that business is so saturated right now) or an antiques shop. But I don't feel like I will ever get to the step that would lead to the step towards the step towards the step of doing that. lol. Justin tells me to just pick something and go for it.... but I'm just not sure! Anyways, that's where I'm at...
On a more strange note (something I wrote from a while ago is below...read on if you want):I like to eat food. One can tell from the healthy amount of padding I surround myself with everyday.
I like to play. Playing with my car (it's a turbo), playing with my hubbie (get your mind out of the gutter guys), playing on myspace (neener neener neener...I've got 478 friends!), playing with friends (hotwings, beer, music, cackling), playing with fire (oh! feels so good, must.... get... extinguisher...!), playing with people's emotions (that was a joke, not all females manipulate ok?!), playing with my two cats (they are such ankle-biters!), playing chess with my imaginary friend Comancho (he's pretty hot, sorry babe), playing on roller coasters and other fast things of that nature (why is my stomach in my esophagus?), playing in the grass, flowers, cliffs, seashore, ocean, wilderness, staring at the sky (why can't I have lived in 1492?), playing with my imagination (unicorn, fly, green fields, lion, river, underground, lavendar, waves crash, wind, euphoria, eternity, lovers, travel, gazelle, God, Ireland, Great Wall, orchid, silence, creak, fear, look behind, stillness, anger, toast with honey, turkey dinner, argument, make up, song, dance, sex, tremble, joy, amazement, blessing, guilt, ignorance, pain, love, rules, obey, knowledge, robot, free, believe, laugh, birth, death, black, red, rain, naked, try, goal, epic, nobody, found, alone, speak, revenge, victory, work, waste, society, politics, angst, friendship, trust). I could keep going. That felt so good, to document how I feel and yet, to relate in a personal manner to a computer screen with the knowledge that people will read this, and hopefully catch my drift, is odd...
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