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"In our culture we have been trained for individual differences to stand out. So you look at each person and a mediator is; Writer, older, younger, richer, poorer, and we make all these dimensional distinctions and put them into categories and treat them that way and we get so that we only see others as separate from ourselves in the ways in which they are separate and one of the dramatic characteristics of experience is being with another person and suddenly seeing the ways in which they are like you not different from you and experiencing the fact that which is the essence in you and which is essence in me is indeed one. The understanding that there is no other. It is all one."
my name is brittany. mostly known as BNASTY. i live in a small town named land o' lakes, florida. and it's a horrible place. never ever move here. i'm twenty one. i'm not a drinker. my friends are. i'm a slacker. i'm confident that atleast i don't waste my life on alcohol and drugs, but i do waste it watching my friends drink alcohol and do drugs. i'm getting my ged finally. working on getting my license and getting a job soon after. currently planning Pat Fest for my friend Patrick Boyles who died drinking and driving last year. he was an amazing, beautiful, real person and i miss him very very dearly. i wear a necklace that says 'patrick' for him. he was the first friend i've lost to death, but definitely wasn't my last. this past year i've lost a good deal of friends from bad choices. it's unfortunate that people are dying so young, because of a habit.
i'm not going to pretend it's okay to drink, smoke, and fuck your life away. you are not indestructible. my friends should understand that by now, with all the people who have died in the past year. i've been dragged down by my friends for far too long. once they all realize that we're alling dragging each other down, much more people would survive and be sucessfull. i don't understand why alcohol constantly has to be involved with hanging out.
look out for your friends and family guys. you never know when you might lose them. make sure they know you love them and you will give them help if they need it. if you know anyone who is down the drain with drugs, get them help. they can very easily lose their life. once they are gone all you will think about is what you should've done, what you could've done, and what you would've gone. do it now.
i'd like to meet a cute girl with cute things to say. someone with enough of the same interests as me. someone to watch movies with. someone with peace of mind. please & thank you.