The Vampire Lestat said “People never change. They just become more perfect versions of themselvesâ€. If this is true or not, I’m not sure anymore. But I do know that I haven’t changed much in the 35 years I’ve been around. I’m still a big kid. I collect comics and play video games (or, I will again when I eventually decide to get a PS3). I love to laugh (though it isn’t as easy as it once was), even at my own expense. And I enjoy writing and learning, maybe more now than I did back in school.
But I know longer have the optimism I once had. Life’s had its ups and downs, with the downs being more dominant. My view of the world and humanity isn’t very bright (in fact, I think they kinda suck!) I’m not always the happiest of people and tend to brood a lot. And being happy can actually take a lot of work.
Still, I find a way to persevere. I’ve realized that I’m just one of those people destined to live in darkness. Not so bad really, you see things as they really are when you view them from the shadows. You can recognize real beauty and art from carbon copy, disposable trash. And dealing with the sad and scary parts of everyday life (death, loss, grief etc.) is a lot easier. The hard part is not letting the darkness consume or control you. I accept that many people close to me will never understand me to know fault of their own (still, kinda sucks!) but hey, what can you do?
If my life could have be described in one word, it would be "Searching". For what? I don't know. I guess I'll know it when I find it. Till then I just keep moving and try to remember to keep my head up so hopefully it doesn't pass me by.
I'm a big fan of live music, dance and art. Movies, as long as they aren't sad (hated Million Dollar Baby).Traveling is fun but rarely can think of a place I would like to visit (currently, Savannah GA.)
You Are Cyclops
Dedicated and responsible, you will always remain loyal to your cause.
You are a commanding leader - after all, you can kill someone just by looking at them.
Power: force beams from your eyes
Which of the X-Men Are You?
Your Theme Song is Comfortably Numb by Pink Floyd
"There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ship?s smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves."
You haven't been feeling a lot lately, and you think that's a good thing.
The comfortable part is nice... but you should really work on numb.
What's Your Theme Song?
You Are a Peacemaker Soul
You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can.
War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace.
You are a good mediator and a true negotiator.
Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy.
While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental.
You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take.
On the flip side, you've got a graet sense of humor and wit.
You're always dimplomatic and able to give good advice.
Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul, Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul
What Kind of Soul Are You?
The Movie Of Your Life Is Film Noir
So what if you're a little nihilistic at times?
Life with meaning is highly over-rated.
Your best movie matches: Sin City, L. A. Confidential, Blade Runner
If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?
