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Dementia

I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy every minute of it!

About Me

The Physics:
Height: About 5'8"
Weight: About 260 lbs. Hoping to lose about 100.
Body style: Hour glass, thank the gods lol.
Hair color: Black now, soon to be red. I switch back and forth.
Eye color: Green/Grey. It depends on what I'm wearing that day.
Skin color: Pale cream. And I keep it that way by intense aversion to ALL sunlight. And SPF 50+ sunblock.
Ethnicity: European mutt. Mostly Irish with a bit of Slavic and german.
I tend to wear deep V-neck blouses and dresses. Some T-shirts and tank tops.
And skirts, and dark or black jeans. I'm trying to get away from bondage pants, because they're overpriced and make me look like a boy.
I like flip-flops and boots for shoes.
I wear dark eyeliner and shadow. Usually nothing or deep red lipstick on my lips.
I have no piercings or tats, but I expect to change that soon.
My nails are usually painted an odd color.
My fashion is a mix of cyber/industrial goth and vampire/victorian goth. I also like the occasional metal band T-shirt and funny T-shirt. The only hoodie I own is a Trinity Blood one, because I love that anime.
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I am a culmination of erratic, manic, totally psychotic feelings and dreams, molded from nearly two decades of living, breathing, and observing the world through half-closed eyes. I am a dreamer, believer, daylight-sleeper, who will dive deeper, and deeper until I surface again.
My mind and heart have been tainted, beyond a fleeting hope of ever being pure again. However; even discarded porcelain still glows when someone takes the time to pick it up and love it again. I want to die and be born again, like the phoenix. I know I am able to do so, but who, I wonder, can be my spark? The flame, in whose arms I may be cremated, and my ashes molded anew?
I’ve always been a contradiction. A confliction of two drastically different sides. The fires and warfare arisen betwixt these is what keeps my heart going; the machine for my continuing existence. Who I am, at my core, lies on both sidelines, half-alive, and waiting for either life or death to take me back. I exist only because I remain in this limbo. Without my ache for return, and no means to do so, I would not be who I am. I might be Jane Doe, the popular cheerleader who marries her high school sweetheart, who beats her in his anger, and never says a thing because she thinks he’s supposed to. Who would have 3.5 kids by the time she’s 30, and a growing problem with alcoholism. Or I might have been Dana Joe, the nerdy and out-casted girl who spent one too many days crying in the bathroom and now spends her time plotting a bloody revenge for everyone who ever wronged her. But I am neither, and both repulse me. I am me. A new species.
I am a manic, erratic, psychotic mind in an eccentric manifestation of who I’d like to be.
PWNS
Malkavians Gangrels NAME: Katie
You want to know about me?
Hello there. Well, I suppose this is the part where I either put up a pre-made list of general things that really don’t mean much to me, in survey form, spewing my teen-age guts out for the world at large to process and then judge me based on those generic questions and subsequent answers, OR add huge numbers of useless images that I happen to like, followed by quiz after quiz telling me what I SHOULD be like. Well, you know what? Fuck that. If you are so numb that you cannot process my thoughts without the aid of a survey, then I do not want to bother my time with you. And if you judge everyone you meet based on the QUIZZES they take, rather than actually having a conversation with them, then, I don’t really want to bother my time with YOU either.
So, if you are one of the few that do not fall haphazardly into one of these two categories of drones, then please do strike up a conversation! I am always glad to meet new people and to broaden my knowledge with another living, feeling soul’s thoughts.
NOW for the factoids, I guess, eh?
Well, the basics most need to know about me are already scattered around this page in the set lists that MySpace has so anal-retentively provided for you. However, a few other things you should know about me are that I take ABSOLUTELY NO BULLSHIT! You try and fool me with online games, and I guarantee you I will not be a good sport and play along, ohhh no! You will wish you had never stumbled upon this stamp on cyberspace. I have been through the proverbial wringer in my 7-odd years on the internet and do not wish to repeat ANY of those experiences. I have had stalkers, assholes, guys who would hack into my computer with spyware and fuck with my love life, people who claim to be my friend but send viruses to me via email, scam artists, and just all-around people who abuse my trust. Well, the product, my dears, is this cynical, pessimistic, cussing weird-o who will no longer take any bullshit. But you may try, oh please do try, because that will make it all the sweeter when I get even.
I am very honest. Brutally so, in some cases. But I never do so out of spite for anyone. I will ALWAYS speak the truth, you can count on it. I have learned over my scant 19 years of life that honesty, while cruel and harsh at some times, is indeed always the best policy. Who ever benefited from lies? The government lied about 9-11, and now the twin towers are no more and thousands of innocent people are dead. The pope lies DAILY about his doctrine and the archives beneath the Vatican, and as a result, millions die everyday of war caused by the very same religion. Children in this country are having babies because their Christian parents will only let abstinence-only sex education be taught, and their children go off and fuck anyway, because THAT IS THE NATURAL COURSE OF THINGS, however, they don’t use any protection, because they were never taught to. Your teachers, parents, everyone lies to you, and you know what the result is? You never know what the fuck is REALLY going on, you rely on what others tell you, and never discover truth for yourself, contented with your lies. It’s not that ignorance is bliss, it’s that people are too lazy to be blissful with the truth.
I am fascinated, in fact almost obsessed, with gaining knowledge. Particularly on the subjects of: humans, science, the arts, the occult, mythology, astro-physics, philosophy, biology, and the culinary arts. If any of these subjects fascinate you as well, please feel free to strike up a conversation with me. Though I am a bit odd, and rather dark, so be forewarned. I am very into vampires and other types of shapeshifters and undead creatures. My favorite author being Amelia Attwater-Rhodes should illustrate this fact.
Vampire the Masquerade is one of my many obsessions, and my two most cherished clans of vampires therein are the Malkavian and the Nosferatu. The strange and the ugly, the psychotic and the deformed, the outcasts of those who have been cast out. I find kinship with these two clans and all subsequent members of, so please, if you too share such decadent and dark passions, do contact me.
I am… Very, very, VERY strongly opinionated on some issues, those being abortion, stem cells, cloning, gay marriage, political parties, the environment and others. My stances on these issues, however, DO NOT REFLECT A PARTY THAT I MIGHT BELONG TO for I do not belong to one. I am not right wing, nor left wing. Neither radical, nor passive. Neither liberal nor conservative. Neither democrat nor republican. I am an anomaly, I believe what I believe, and trying to pigeon-hole me would be like trying to nail Jello to a tree. It wouldn’t work very well.
My stances on the above issues are as follows.
Abortion: Pro-Choice. A woman always has the right to chose what she may and may not do with her body and any PARASITE that happens to reside therein. YES, babies are parasites. Look up the definition.
Stem cells: C’mon people. The cells scientists use for this will die within a day of birthing anyway, I doubt you will be using them for anything USEFULL like the scientists will. Think about it. A days dead cells, for a cure for cancer. I think that’s a fair trade.
Cloning: Messing with nature is just wrong. People are born different, with different genes for a REASON! Science is not a suitable replacement for true nature. While I do not believe in a god, I also do not believe in man trying to play one.
Gay marriage: Marriage is a legal issue, not a religious one, and our country is free of religious intolerance. THEREFORE: People should have a right to chose who they may and may not marry. Don’t like gay marriage? THEN DON’T MARRY A GAY PERSON!
Political parties: I think what I said above should answer this for me. I DESPISE both Republicans and Democrats. I fully believe that we would be better off with either as a state government ONLY or anarchy. I don’t trust the majority of people these days, and I am fully capable of protecting mine and mine own.
The Environment: Global warming is real. Why the hell do you think the Earth is going to shit? It isn’t the apocalypse, folks. Glaciers were here long before John the Baptist was.
That’s me, well, a portion of me anyway. Curious? My MSN messenger name is [email protected], please do stop by for a chat. :D
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My Interests

My Top Ten Favorites:

Food:
1. Crab
2. Sushi/Sashimi
3. Brussel Sprouts
4. Raspberries
5. Chocolate
6. Mushrooms
7. Corn
8. Bok Choy with oyster sauce.
9. Baked Potatoes
10. Garlic

Feelings:
1. Velvet
2. An autumn breeze.
3. Wet leaves.
4. A soft bed.
5. A bear hug.
6. Leather
7. Rain on my face.
8. Long, straight hair.
9. Snow
10. The ground under my bare feet.

Sights:
1. The ocean under storm clouds.
2. Trees, any and all.
3. Fresh nail polish.
4. Green eyes.
5. Corseted waists.
6. Ice
7. Mountains
8. Books
9. Fruit salad.
10. Crystals

Sounds:
1. Crystal bowls.
2. Bells
3. The Harp
4. The Violin
5. Perfect pitch.
6. A cat sneeze.
7. My dad’s chuckle.
8. Crusty bread.
9. Snapping
10. The wind through the trees.

Smells:
1. Mom’s pillow.
2. Lilacs
3. Jasmine
4. Gasoline
5. Rain
6. Roasted meat.
7. Fresh, bubbly, berry pie.
8. Old books.
9. Clean hair.
10. Target

Animals:
1. Frogs
2. Siberian Tiger
3. Whales
4. Chameleons
5. Huskies
6. Pugs
7. Cats
8. Rats
9. Peregrine Falcon
10. Owls

Reading,
Singing,
Shamanism,
Wiccanism,
Alchemy,
Painting (watercolor),
Ceramics,
Meditating,
Sleeping,
Walking,
and Gaming
(rpg's and a few fps's),
snuggling with my love,
walking and dancing in the rain/snow,
writting poetry,
making blueprints for houses,
designing clothes,
cooking,
designing websites and webpages,
observing the weather,
science (I'm a nerdy girl lol),
listening to as much music as I can,
making jewelry,
talking with people both .. and IRL,
helping others,
and watching anime!!!
I think I got the basics of me down, if you want to know anything else, please comment me and ask.


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I'd like to meet:



Intelligent life. A stretch, I know.

Well, being as I am single now, I guess I would be looking for someone new. A tall, dark guy, with similar interests to mine, but enough not in common to be interesting. Someone kind, an animal lover, hopefully a few years older than I am. Into the occult, vampirism, and astrology especially. Someone who will take me as I am, and love me before, during, and after I am done with my weight-loss regimen. Someone devoted, but not clingy. Someone who doesn’t give a rat’s ass what their car has under the hood, as long as it works and looks attractive to them. I don’t care if he’s poor, or rich. Just be kind, and funny. I laugh a LOT, it’s my only drug lol. Preferably with glasses, and long hair, but the physical attributes don’t matter as much as the personality traits do. Yeah, someone like that.

Music:



Oh holy crap lol...
Within Temptation,
Nightwish,
Etheral,
Evanescence,
Lacuna Coil,
Enya,
Loreena McKennit,
Cradle Of Filth,
Dimmu Borgir,
Behemoth,
Rob Zombie,
Sonata Arctica,
Seal,
Disturbed,
Orgy,
Mudvayne,
Coal Chamber,
Devil Driver,
Rammstein (in small doses...),
Anime music (especially the opening theme for Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex),
Susperia,
Linkin Park,
Heart,
Sarah McLachlan,
Drowning Pool,
Godsmack,
Scar Symmetry,
Stratovarius,
Seether,
InFlames,
Blind Guardian,
Metallica (again, small doses lol),
Opeth,
Deathstars,
The Kovenant,
Apocalyptica...
Thats all I can remember for bands...
As for genres...
Classical,
Celtic,
Opera,
Techno,
Metal (Black, Death, Operatic, Melodic, Gothic, Industrial, Nu, Power, and Fantasy),
Rock (not very much, but some),
and J-Pop.

Movies:



The Fifth Element,
The Secret Of Nimh,
The Craft,
The Crow,
Practical Magic,
Blue Sub. No. 6,
LOTR I-III,
Underworld (I & II),
The Nightmare Before X-Mas,
Corpse Bride,
Edward Scissorhands,
Interview With A Vampire,
Ginger Snaps (all 3),
From Hell,
Sleepy Hollow,
POTC,
Brahm Stocker's Dracula,
Little Nemo,
Spirited Away,
Labirynth,
The Dark Crystal,
The Princess and the Goblin,
(Here come the Disney flicks lol... Nosthalgia.)
Beauty And The Beast,
The Little Mermaid,
Aladin,
Hercules,
Alice In Wonderland,
Cinderella,
Sleeping Beauty.
There, of course, are more. But these are my tops.

Television:



The best television ever! lol!



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Wow... Well I LOVE Anime...
My faves being Full Metal Alchemist,
Card Captors,
Wolf's Rain,
InuYasha,
Yu-Gi-Oh,
Outlaw Star,
Evangelion,
Hellsing,
Digimon,
and Blue Submarine No. 6.
Tenchi Muyo,
Trinity Blood,
I also like Mad Mad House (the reality show that was on Sci-Fi) alot...
Old Charmed,
Iron Chef,
Beakman's World,
Family Guy,
Futurama,
Robot Chicken,
Colorful (another anime)
and Folly Cooly (again, another anime).
I'll have more soon.

Books:



Blood and Chocolate,
all books by T.A. Barron and Amellia Attwater-Rhodes,
Daughter Of The Forest,
Lord Of The Flies,
All Harry Potter books,
Green Rider,
Eldest and Eragon by Christopher Paolini,
and pertty much any and all books on vampires,
wicca,
fantasy.
And all books by Konstantinos.

Heroes:

My friends. T.A.D.A.A.! Taco, Amy, Dorothy, Amber and Amanda. (Not necessarily in that order, they are all of the same importants to me. They are all beloved, and precious to me, and if ANYONE hurts any of them, I will hunt that asshole down and do VERY, VERY nasty things to them.

My Blog

Someone who...

Someone who doesn't take me too seriously when I'm actually joking. Someone who doesn't care about cars, and I don't mean the movie Someone who wishes for WORLD DOMINATION & against microbes. Someone ...
Posted by Dementia on Mon, 11 Feb 2008 01:13:00 PST

Dead Dolly

Dead Dolly, rotting in a casket. Dead Dolly, head's in a basket. Dead Dolly, hand's on the door. Dead Dolly, blood all over the floor. Dead Dolly, knife in her hand. Dead Dolly, on the nightstand. Dea...
Posted by Dementia on Wed, 30 May 2007 06:14:00 PST

The Attic

Deep, behind a veil of dusty, web-covered memories are scattered the remains of a future I never had the chance to see. A picture in the corner shows a mirror image of a lily whose petals long a...
Posted by Dementia on Fri, 25 May 2007 05:36:00 PST

Damned Fate: Chapter one

New story, my own, called Damned Fate. Here's chapter one: My name is Anria. I died 427 years ago. But that doesnt change the fact that I am still chained to Earth, in more ways than one. This is ...
Posted by Dementia on Wed, 23 May 2007 06:38:00 PST

Prologue: Children Of The Lost

My own short story! Here's the prologue:    In a  time long since past, the children of the now scorched earth have to walk without teachers, parents, and all other past-influenced...
Posted by Dementia on Wed, 23 May 2007 06:30:00 PST

Floating aimlessly through the cyber-goo...

I wonder where the hell I belong anymore.I had my group at Mingus, we were small, but fiercely loyal and so tightly tied together, we usually weren't seen without eachother.That shattered at Red Rock,...
Posted by Dementia on Sun, 20 May 2007 09:40:00 PST

As time goes by...

Well, children, normally I don't do journal-type blog posts because I am not all that interested in blogging. However, since I am now 19 years + 1 day old, I thought I might give it a shot.It's been.....
Posted by Dementia on Fri, 11 May 2007 05:40:00 PST

Religion.

Why did God give us free will, and then expect us not to eat the apples? Why did God have the apples there in the first place, if he created all? Why did God give us free will, and then give Lucifer...
Posted by Dementia on Mon, 30 Apr 2007 11:40:00 PST

An exerpt from Shattered Mirror by Amelia Atwater Rhodes.

Cold as winter, strong as stone; She faced the darkness all alone. A silver goddess; a reflection. A mirage; a recollection. No return; no turning back. The past is gone, the future, black. Serpents g...
Posted by Dementia on Sun, 29 Apr 2007 01:44:00 PST

Ranting, look if you wish, I'm just venting,

I hate this, going through 4 years of hell with the best friends I've ever had, and all the shit happening to me. I miss the days when I didn't have to care about big things, before Mary, before High ...
Posted by Dementia on Sun, 15 Apr 2007 01:36:00 PST