kari

I'm not going to list every single thing I'm interested in-that's a sign of a bloated ego. People don't really care about every artist you listen to, every book you've ever read, and how many times you did a doodie last Thursday-the short version: I love techno-I enjoy japanese fashion, both street and couture- I was forced to grow up in NJ, but never felt 'home' until I moved to Brooklyn- I used to call myself a progressive Democrat, but have become disenchanted in the political make-up of this country given certain events...like say... THE WAR OF LIES... my focus has always been on international relations (politically speaking) so i guess i'm going 'back to my roots'...-I seldom find anyone who understands the way I think and why I say the things I do-i love urban decay and anything falling apart, rusted, dirty and worn out-a bit like myself-would like to travel and take photos of that sort of thing- I prefer the winter months-the snow in particular-i find that the sun sucks most of the life out of me and makes me very angry-and I've never had anyone answer in the affirmative to the question-"Did you see Frontline last night?"...i do know that i am only starting to understand how all of my interests and obsessions are linked and how they should be integrated-better late than never i guess-i feel like i can't do these things where i am right now-i do know that i have 'what it takes' to do which feels more like a need than a want, but that i let fear stand in my way-i do know that most people don't realize that-i don't know why i'm writing anything because not a person reads this or cares about what is written-myspace is so typical of our 'culture'...i'm so absorbed in myself i must write about myself and take pictures of myself for my space on my internet in my world so that i can continue this false notion of self-importance that is only a distraction from really getting to know myself_my demons_and all that goes along with that-but i really only use this for networking-lol yes me too-i think that 'identity' of any kind is what one uses when they are still trying to understand themselves-that is to say that once you know yourself, there is no longer a need to define yourself- i think the hard part for most people is embracing what others deem as 'not normal' and not caring about what they think... I want to stop dealing with fake people who know more about what was written in People Magazine than they do about themselves- I need to find the courage to express myself in my way-I want to smile, to figure out how to be happy despite the way I think, to find 'something' that is secure, to keep myself and others from getting hurt, to make other people laugh, and to be an advocate for what I believe in...in my way.one more thing tYpInG lIkE tHiS iS nOt CuTe