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About Me

i cant lay in bed to sleep unless my beds made, this says alot about me. i love my husband, Clay. he is the most amazing man i have ever been lucky enough to meet. he is the love of my life and is all i could EVER wish for in a life long love....he still makes my heart flutter and he always will. i am thankful i lived through all the things i put myself through to meet him. there are many nights/days i should of died and yet i am here. i find this a mixed blessing yet without clayi would not have the greatest joy in my life, my son Si. i never would of imagined how amazing my life could be as a happy little family. i never thought i would want nothing more than what i have. ok well thats not true i want a closet like Marilyn Monroe's full of vintage Chanel . i love my mom, brother, and grandmother. i am lucky they stuck through with me because at many times it would of been alot easier to walk away. Kyla Isis, my goddaughter, is my baby girl. people change and some stay the same...the ones that do not change into better people on a constant basis are the ones you need to stay away from and keep out of your heart. they will only find ways to pull you down with them. i let people take advantage of my kindness and as a result i dont trust people, especially bitches, easily. i am obsessed with education. education gives you freedom in many forms. i hate drama and the girls who like to create it. i detest ignorance. if you dont know dont pretend like you do. it takes a bigger person to admit they dont know something. if you owe someone money PAY IT BACK! you cant not make changes to you present if you havent paid for the mistakes of your past. i have no regrets. if i hadnt made the mistakes and decisions i did than i wouldnt be who i am and i know i am a good person. but most of all i am a good mom, a devoted wife, a hopelessly devoted godmother, a loving daughter/ sister, and a good friend.

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My Interests

Si, Clay, music, tattoos, shopping for the masses, knowledge, Kyla Isis, my family, vintage Chanel, big designer (hater blockin)glasses, Marilyn Monroe, standing when everyone expects you to fall, interpreting my insane dreams, people watching, i miss someone everyday, being good to those i love, M-A-C, appreciating what i have, anything hot pink, being a good mom and wife, trying to be more girly because im not at all really, the magnificent brilliance of life, education, mythology, saying fuck you to those that need to hear it, sewing, DIY, gardening, forgiving myself for the past...

I'd like to meet:

strong women who have made this world a better place, tori amos, tegan and sara, kat von d, and believe it or not Nichole Richie (i think wed be bff's fo reals)

Music:

ok here we go.......superaids, jawbreaker, tori amos, sleater kinney, tegan and sara, johny cash, the white stripes, outkasts, kylesa, the hives, crass, pj harvey, gang starr, the smiths, baroness, the killers, jedi mind tricks, hank williams, the ramones, subhumans, fugazi, the donnas, jets to brazil, buddy guy, gravediggas, eminem, patsy cline, tom waits, public enemy, the yea yea yeas, tupac, snoop, nappy roots, helta skelta, the cure, nirvana, dead prez, disturbed, the pixies, guns n roses, o.g.c., this is getting time consuming. so thats enough for now.........

Movies:

requiem for a dream, scarface, anything by kevin smith, pieces of april, the breakfast club, edward scissor hands, house of a 1000 corpses, clockwork orange, pulp fiction, blow, natural born killers, nightmare before christmas...........

Television:

RESCUE ME, chappel show, simpsons, ali g, nip tuck, family guy, roseanne, anything on the history channel.

Books:

the celestine prophecy, anything by anais nin, go ask alice, anne rice, random poetry, one day i hope to read all my house can hold...

Heroes:

my grandmother any woman that has the guts to be who she is and say fuck you to anyone that challenges her

My Blog

insides

Dont let my present happiness fool you I have nightmares when I am awake of things I have actually been trough. I have lost more than ANYONE will EVER know. I feel guilt everyday and I push it away. ...
Posted by ~Mrs. McCay~ on Tue, 24 Jul 2007 05:14:00 PST

clay and I have the most beautiful love that exsist...

today is clay and mine one year wedding anniversary! we actually stated dating on the same date a year prior. so after two years we are both have never been happier and we now know what we were put on...
Posted by ~Mrs. McCay~ on Sat, 23 Dec 2006 01:03:00 PST

the REAL story of what having a kid does to you....

so night before last Si was up from 4 am till 6:30am for NO apparent resason. his teeth are coming in at the top...its been a good time... so as i layed there on the couch in the middle of the n...
Posted by ~Mrs. McCay~ on Wed, 15 Nov 2006 06:00:00 PST

its easy..

You know it real easy to cut others down and talk shit. Its even easier to throw stones at peoples past when your past is just as tanted and your present hasnt evolved to much. Its easy to...
Posted by ~Mrs. McCay~ on Mon, 23 Oct 2006 06:07:00 PST