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♥so fucked up♥

I am here for Friends

About Me



lately i've been called punk , emo , and a hippie . i don't think any of these labels fit. i'd rather be called by my name.

i'm all about making people happy. your happiness is worth the world to me.

i'm a woman who doesn't like to conform to what other people want me to be. it has taken me my entire life to look through the bullshit i was fed as a child and realize that i'm okay the way i am.

i guess you could say i'm artistic. i draw and paint. other people like my art, but i guess i'm never quite satisfied with it. i hate that.

i have two tattoos. they felt good. i also have a few piercings. i guess i'm into the whole 'mutilation' thing... oops?

i've been broken too many times in the past. i'm fixing myself as we speak. my

maybe i'm interesting. maybe i intrigue you. maybe not. let's just wait and see.



My Interests


i have a few interests. i like cigarettes and chocolate milk. i have to have my music or i'll die. i love it. i like drawing and other means of expressing my creativity. i like love. i like iced tea at perkins. i like lots of things, but i'm done.

I'd like to meet:



someone who is caring and gentle.
someone who likes me for me, regardless of who i was in the past.
someone who will look past the surface and see within.
someone i can talk to for hours and not get bored.
someone who i will be entranced with.
someone who will be entranced with me.
someone that when i look into their eyes, i can see more than just my reflection.
someone who would never try to hurt me.


is that you?

AND OF COURSE, SUFJAN STEVENS!!!

Music:


!!! (chk chk chk); alexi murdoch; a perfect circle; air; andrew bird; anna nalick; arcade fire; architecture in helsinki; the b52's; basement jaxx; the beatles; beck; belle & sebastian; ben folds five; benny benassi; bjork; bloc party; the boy least likely to; bright eyes; britney spears (toxic); broken social scene; buffalo springfield; the buggles; cake; clap your hands say yeah; cold war kids; coldplay; counting crows; daft punk; damien rice; dan deacon; darude; death cab for cutie; devotchka; dido; disney; dntel; dosh; the dresden dolls; drowning pool; evanescence; the faint; fallout boy; fifth dimension; fiona apple; the flaming lips; frou frou; garbage; grandaddy; halloween, alaska; hellogoodbye; the hollies; hot hot heat; ima robot; iron & wine; jack johnson; jack off jill; jewel; jimmy eat world; joan jett; john mayer; jump little children; junior boys; the kgb; the killers; lali puna; lcd soundsystem; len; linkin park; loudermilk; low; the lucksmiths; madonna; mae; matchbook romance; mates of state; mellowdrone; michael buble; minus the bear; mirah; moby; modest mouse; monty python; motion city soundtrack; mum; my morning jacket; nada surf; natalie imbruglia; nintendo; nirvana; no doubt; the notwist; oasis; ozzy osbourne; pavement; pedro the lion; pink floyd; placebo; the postal service; prince; the proclaimers; propellerheads; radiohead; ratatat; red hot chili peppers; regina spektor; right said fred; rilo kiley; the rocket summer; royksopp; rufus wainwright; saves the day; sigur ros; skinny puppy; the smiths; something corporate; static-x; stephen speaks; sting; the streets; strongbad; sufjan stevens; tegan and sara; tiki obmar; tilly & the wall; tom petty; tortoise; the unicorns; the verve; weezer; wilco; the yeah yeah yeahs

oh, and did i mention sufjan stevens?

Movies:


music dvds; garden state; eternal sunshine of the spotless mind; closer; i

Television:

i don't watch much tv. it sucks me in and numbs my brain...

Books:

"new" age stuff; fantasy stuff; i dunno... i do like books, honest...

Heroes:

my heroes are my friends... they don't care what people think and that is something i'd like to have.. i idolize free spirits.

And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who would attempt to poison and destroy my kirsten.

Which movie was this quote from?

Get your own quotes:

My Blog

im back *this blog not intended for the faint of heart*

    so i haven't done this in a while...i guess now's the time to start up again.this weekend was hell. it all started friday.. i was sooo proud of myself because i went so far as looki...
Posted by ♥so fucked up♥ on Tue, 06 Nov 2007 04:41:00 PST

broken

a poem i wrote in my first semester of college. it pretty much describes my life, especially last night.a comfortable sickness        &nbs p;   a growi...
Posted by ♥so fucked up♥ on Sat, 05 May 2007 06:44:00 PST

time for another blog... this time it's a good one..

so... it's been a while, but a new blog is necessary at this point in my life. I am almost.. happy?  there's this girl. you know her. she does make me happy. i hope it goes somewhere.. she's pret...
Posted by ♥so fucked up♥ on Sat, 24 Feb 2007 03:24:00 PST

way to switch a plane ticket and have tons of fun!!

so i just got home from california! rockin'! i had soo much fun! call me if you want details because i'm not going to make a long blog about it..way to switch from jessica to CALIFORNIA!! w00t!...
Posted by ♥so fucked up♥ on Sat, 30 Dec 2006 12:11:00 PST

help

i sometimes still cry myself to sleep.i can't stand this.kill me. please....
Posted by ♥so fucked up♥ on Tue, 21 Nov 2006 10:48:00 PST

why do i even try...

...to find happiness. it always comes up and bitch slaps me in the face. happiness is overrated. i've decided this. i was happy. never again. i've decided that whenever i'm happy, things go to shit an...
Posted by ♥so fucked up♥ on Sat, 18 Nov 2006 10:56:00 PST

one week

i was in the hospital for a week. i got out this morning. just thought i'd let you all know i'm kind of okay. i decided that jessica is not worth me killing myself. good choice.i had a plan, but i wen...
Posted by ♥so fucked up♥ on Sat, 11 Nov 2006 09:30:00 PST

is this what i deserve?

i gave her everything and all i get is pain, physical and otherwise. i cut. not much, just enough to bleed. i don't know what to do now. help me before i do it again......sincerely,,,...
Posted by ♥so fucked up♥ on Sat, 04 Nov 2006 03:42:00 PST

come on everybody it's ulcer time

so when i saw my psychiatrist today she told me a little bit about gastritis... (that's what they said i had when i was at the hospital last night) and she said it leads to an ulcer. fuck that. i don'...
Posted by ♥so fucked up♥ on Sat, 04 Nov 2006 06:10:00 PST

hospitals suck ass

so i was in the hospital tonight... apparently it's not good to not eat or drink hardly anything for a week. found that out the hard way. 5 hours and an IV later,,,they told me i have to drink liquids...
Posted by ♥so fucked up♥ on Fri, 03 Nov 2006 08:38:00 PST