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this fire burns always

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About Me

im killing the ghost of you
and im close to awakening me
We might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't even talk that often the next year, and don't talk at all the year after that, but then things might be different the year after that! So, I just wanted to say, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life, I look up to you, respect you and truly cherish you.No matter how often we talk, or how close we are - I haven't forgotten about you and I never will.
My name is Cynthia but most call me Cindy, Cindy Lou Who or Buttercup orrr Satan in the way back days. Don't ask - its an insider thing! I work at Barnes and Noble (Which has always been my lil piece of Heaven on Earth)! I'm a girl who is just looking for fun and friends right now. Can ya blame me? I think not.
I'm truly a blonde at heart...& my friends can vouch for that! The things I say...are truly noteworthy. :) But I'll always keep you laughing. And I love to laugh!! Almost as much as I love to smile or make fun of myself. Don't get me wrong I joke around a lot but I do know when to be serious. I'm also fiesty & sarcastic. Much like my favorite Disney characters: Tinkerbell and Princess Jasmine!!! Which brings me to my next point...I'm a Disney addict. If its Disney...chances are I've seen it. And you soon will too! Mark my words. I'm very persuasive!!! I cannot wait for the animated penguin movie 'Happy Feet' to come out in November! Because I LOVE LOVE LOVE animated films and penguins! And I'll be dragging my dear friends with me! Tinkerbell is my favorite Disney character. I have pillows, a comforter set, a light switch plate, and tons and tons of other Tinkerbell memorabilia. Especially these really beautiful tinkerbell wings that sparkle because of glitter & this tinkerbell snow globe {Both of which I got from my cousins!}.
A big part of who I am is who and what I want to be. Which is a Kindergarten teacher. I graduated from Mercer County Community College in May 2006 with an Associates in Education. Thats right! I want to teach the little ones! Because I love being around kids!! I'm still a kid at heart. I color in my spare time and collect stuffed animals. And obsessed with disney. I'll be a kid forever! I go to Rutgers; majoring in Psychology and English.
I used to write all the time and read all the time. Now its just reading all the time. And I think I should get back into writing. I think I'm going to work on that this year. It'll be one of my New Years resolutions!
Who I am: Now everyone I know could probably answer this a different way. But me. I prefer MY WAY. i can be sarcastic its bred in my family.
I am quirky and strange.

i can be intense


i bet you cant handle me


i am loyal, trustworthy and dependable.
i am trustworthy and somewhat trusting. You start out with my trust but...Lie to me...and you're done in my book.
i am NOT a liar, cheater, or the one to leave.
infact...i'm the one that keeps coming back until you've completely destroyed my heart & me

Music IS my life. Its not just music to me. It's important; it is a lifestyle for me.

Without music id be by far worse than I am now.
Lyrics, the music...its very calming and relatable. It helps put things in perspective and to make you feel when you think your much too numb.
I love to have my music on all the time
I like music that is real...music thats written about something of significance, substance, value.
I've come to learn music drowns out the White Noise in life. And sometimes thats all you need and all you can ask for to make it through the day.

I love going to concerts


My music of choice is rock, alternative, metal, heavy metal, and much to my brothers dismay - Screamo metal. I listen to everything. But that, thats what gets me through.
Black is my favorite color, as is red. As well as purple and pink and green and blue.
I don't like making decisions and choices. I'm always afraid theres a wrong one.
I can have a really warped sense of humor...and a gutter mind Family funtions are filled with sexual innuendos, profanity, sarcasm, embarassing stories. Just because your not one of us doesn't make you safe. Infact it makes you that much more vulnerable. We enjoy testing you, teasing you - seeing if you can handle it.
I can be a bit naive sometimes, and by sometimes I really mean 90% of the time.
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My Interests


writing
poetry
guys
music
concerts
songwriting
guitar
keyboard
reading

I'd like to meet:

AIM me @ WreckoftheDay20


I'd like to meet someone:

who can help me experience new & exciting things;

someone who loves to laugh & has a sense of humor;

someone who is sarcastic because its what I am;

someone who has a good heart & is trusting/caring/loyal;

someone who will always be honest with me;

someone who is really into music & its important to them;

someone who is into having fun & hanging out & attending concerts...


Music:


Aimee Mann, Shania Twain, Jessica Andrews, Garth Brooks, Tim McGraw, Anna Nalick, Switchfoot, Natasha Beddingfield, Rihanna, Saving Jane, TRAPT, Aphasia, Breaking Benjamin, Rammstein, Shinedown, SpineShank, UNLOCO, DISTURBED, As I lay Dying, CHEVELLE, Taproot, Evanescence, ICP, Twizted, Dark Lotus, Story of the Year, Lost Prophets, Saliva, MSI, Offspring, AC/DC, Ozzy, Lamb of God, Sevedust, Alanis Morrisette (Jagged Pill Album), Adema, Three Days Grace, Switch Foot, Killswitch, Dry Kill, Stone Sour, Smile Empty Soul, Trust Company, Motograter, Linkin Park, Atreyu, Die Trying, Silverchair, Seether, Union Underground, Shadows Fall, Don't Look Down, Sublime, Damage Plan, Ill Nino, rob zombie, powerman 5000, and more.

Movies:

The Lord Of The Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring; The Two Towers; The Return of the King, Pride & Prejudice, The Notebook, Emma, Mansfield Park, Sense & Sensibility, Underworld, Pirates of the Carribean, Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone, Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, Bend It Like Beckham, Peter Pan, Amityville Horror, Waiting..., Cinderella, Lilo & Stitch, Ice Age, Emperor's New Groove, King Arthur, National Treasure, Constantine, Are We There Yet?, Blade Trinity, Mean Girls, The Cave, House Of Wax, Freaky Friday, The Incredibles, What A Girl Wants, The Prince and I, The Pacifier, Finding Nemo, Jarhead, Triple X, Saw, Fast and the Furious, Star Wars: The Phantom Menace; Attack of the Clones; The Revenge of the Sith; A New Hope; The Empire Strikes Back; Return of the Jedi, Gone In 60 Seconds, Save the Last Dance, Honey, A Cinderella Story, Ever After, Raise Your Voice, Little Black Book, X-Men, Queen of the Damned, The Longest Yard, Spanglish, Sweet Home Alabama, Liar Liar, SLEEPY HOLLOW, Texas Chainsaw Massacre (ORIGINAL), Pulp Fiction, Monty Python and the Holy Grail!!!!

Television:

One Tree Hill, GREY'S ANATOMY, Gilmore Girls, Charmed, Desperate Housewives, ER, Commander In Chief, Boston Legal, Lost, Invasion, Life As We Know It, Family Guy

Books:

Daughters of the Moon, The Seer Series: Don't Die Dragonfly; Last Dance; Witch Ball; Sweet Valley High: Senior Year Series, Daughter of Destiny Series: Keep of the Winds, Harry Potter Series, Princess Diaries Series, 1-800-Where-R-You Series, The Mediator Series, This Lullaby, Dreamland, Emma, Pride and Prejudice, Dangerous Girls, Dangerous Girls 2: The Taste of Night, Forests in the Night, Demon in my View, Shattered Mirror, Midnight Predator, Hawksong, Snakecharm, Sweep Series, Witchseason Series, The Sisterhood of Traveling Pants, South Beach, French Kiss, The A-List Series, Old Magic, The Guardians of Tims Trilogy, The China Garden, Witch, Charmed Series, Fearless Series, Caribbean Cruising and MORE - MANY MANY MORE!

Heroes:

There are three people in which I owe everything I am.
My mom; Keith; and Vic.

If it were not for these three people I would never be the person I am today. Each has taught me so much.
My mom. She taught me everything I know. She taught me how to make the right choices; how to give second and third and fourth chances to people who truly deserve it. She taught me morals and to take the higher road. She taught me to protect myself and make the hard choices because the easy road isn't always the RIGHT road.
Keith. He taught me how to let people in. He taught me how to have fun. That life isn't always about seriousness and goals and school - that you can mix it up a little and still get everything planned done. He taught me compassion. He taught me about myself in the toughest way possible. By knowing him, I knew the person I ultimately wanted to be. He made me want to be a better person. He made me want to try; he made me see that there are great things in life that you have to go out and get or see for yourself because no one else can do it for you.
Vic. Who taught me so much in four months. Taught me I have a choice. Showed me that even when nothing seems right, be positive and make a change. Nothings coincidence. Taught me to smile; to laugh; to be happy; and most of all, he taught me its ok to open myself up again. He taught me to love again. I never thought I'd let another person in.
I owe a LOT to these three people. There is no way to thank them enough for helping me become the person I am today. I don't know where I'd be without knowing them.

My Blog

I belong in Paris

You Belong in Paris Stylish and a little sassy, you were meant for Paris.The art, the fashion, the wine, the men!Whether you're enjoying the cafe life or a beautiful park...You'll love living in ...
Posted by its really good to hear your voice saying my name on Tue, 28 Nov 2006 01:42:00 PST

vacation

due to stalkers, im not going to say where im going.  everyone who needs to know...knows anyway.  but im leaving now.  so i gotta sign off.  ill be popping on to check school mail,...
Posted by its really good to hear your voice saying my name on Mon, 20 Nov 2006 02:06:00 PST

Pissed the fuck off.

Im a tad pissed off right now.  I can't even begin to describe.  IM me if you want to know.  Because I can't write about it here!
Posted by its really good to hear your voice saying my name on Mon, 20 Nov 2006 09:14:00 PST

To all my stalkers out there:

To anyone who isn't on my friends list, why the FUCK are you reading my journal?  Get your own fucking lives!  Seriously.  That last bulletin I posted last night, was to see exactly how...
Posted by its really good to hear your voice saying my name on Thu, 09 Nov 2006 12:19:00 PST

The Greatest Guy I Know:

so, here we are both battling similar demons,                            &nbs...
Posted by its really good to hear your voice saying my name on Sat, 28 Oct 2006 02:51:00 PST

I want thisssss!!!!


Posted by its really good to hear your voice saying my name on Thu, 26 Oct 2006 08:04:00 PST

Loneliness for a companion

Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the spaces between the notes and curl my back to loneliness. {Maya Angelou} Music is my solace.  It's what keeps me sane and from feeling completely alone....
Posted by its really good to hear your voice saying my name on Tue, 24 Oct 2006 09:52:00 PST

One of those days...

Im so bored.  Bored out of my mind.  I'm sitting here all by myself listening to music.  Dave refuses to go out to Barnes and Noble with me.  I really wanted a coffee too.  :(...
Posted by its really good to hear your voice saying my name on Thu, 19 Oct 2006 04:01:00 PST

not happening darin

I hate liars I've had most of this written on my page for sometime now. Except until the last month or two it hasn't really been true. Why? Some of you might be wondering. So I;ll briefly explain the ...
Posted by its really good to hear your voice saying my name on Thu, 28 Sep 2006 08:43:00 PST

The Wrong One.

I love you in a really big pretend to like your taste in music;  Let you have the last piece of cheesecake;  Hold a radio over my head outside your window sort of way.  So pick me. ...
Posted by its really good to hear your voice saying my name on Thu, 21 Sep 2006 10:21:00 PST