Sarah

I decided that since i'm a senior i should write a new blog.... i am also sitting here listening to bob dylan's knockin' on heaven's door and kind of got me thinking...so here i go- oh life is good- i try to tell myself this every day even though sometimes it can be really hard to believe it- life can definantly be good... i love those times when you really feel how great life is and you are full of energy and motivation and just look to the future with pride and a smile on your face... i am a senior, i am 17 and it is very scary- sometimes i will think how the hell did i get this old i never thought the day would come... life moves quick, it moves very quick, being young is amazing, fresh, and full of risks- so you must enjoy it while you have it- this is why i do not want to rush my senior year even though I can't wait to go to school- I can't wait to meet new people, even though i love the girlfriends I have right now to death, I think when I go away though that I will learn so much about myself, what i want to do with the rest of my life, hopefully meet some people who will be lifelong friends, and just find out more about myself. I am going away far from here and someplace warm. I have wanted to do this since I was 10 years old so I feel like it's kind of my destiny, that something good is awaiting me. I like to feel as if I am independent and my own person and I have hated living in my house since I was a kid, which could be another reason why i want to get the hell out of here. I think Chicago is an amazing, beautiful city full of lots of opportunities- we'll see if i come back. I have grown up absolutely hating cold weather, but now that I look back I think Flossmoor was a good town to grow up in. I am starting to begin not to think I won't be leaving with so much anger, but looking back on this town as something that really helped me become who I am. I look forward to college for these things- not for the drinking and partying, although I will be doing those things too~ that's no where near my main priority. I think it's amazing how much of a person I have developed into in high school, just these past four years. I entered high school with insecurity, trying to be in the "popular group" and struggling to make a new group of friends. Now four years later, I would like to say I have developed into a strong person who knows what I want. I've learned a lot about what I want and the type of people I want to be associated with. I've developed morals and I've learned not to take anyone's shit. I am not a slut and never will be. I respect myself, and it is very difficult and an honor to get close to me giving my body to you. I know right from wrong. I don't steal and never will. I am not a mean person. I don't like it when people make fun of other people or make people into "the dork group" or the "popular group." Who the hell are you to say you're cooler than others? Because your group of friends likes you and you're pretty and you drink? No, that does not make you "popular." I want to be me, I don't want to be fake in any way, I want to dress how I want to dress, I hate Abercrombie and Fitch and Hollister because that is what every typical high school girl wears to " fit in." I've learned that a lot of people are assholes out there. I think I am generally an easy going person. I think people generally think i'm funny. My friends think i'm very wierd. A lot of people think I'm a hippie. You have to go out into the world with a firm head and not trusting anyone. I have had my heart broken. I've learned never to trust someone again that has hurt you in the past. I've learned that money is not everything. I've learned that I am glad that I didn't grow up rich because then I wouldn't be the same person I am today. I want to have a lot of money when I am older but not for a Lexus or a mansion, but I want to travel the world. I want to see every place I can possibly see in this world. I want to travel because it makes me happy and that is a big enough reason for me. I appreciate nature and I think it is so beautiful, and just what life should be about because people forget what the important things are in life. I like camping, I really wish I could play the guitar, I like fishing, even though I don't do these things often, I like shopping downtown at Forever21 and Urban Outiftters, I like going to the Dunes, I like watching good movies, i like hanging out with my friends, i like history and sociology, i like field hockey, i like any competitive sport, i want to eventually go skydiving, bunjee jumping, white water rafting, anything daring, new or adventerous...i love summer, i love laying on my trampoline all day without a care in the world and no schedule- like to feel free and sometimes carefree, I like to party and have fun with my girls, I love to dance haha- I really get into it. I love music. I think so much when I listen to it. I love it because it can literally change my mood- it can put me into a thinking mood, a motivated mood for field hockey, or an energetic mood on the weekends. Then there are also those time where I get sick of the party scene and think what is the point of this? Where is this going for me in the long run? I can't stand when people get drunk and pretend they like people that they really don't and take pictures with people they would never take with sober- that's what you call fake. If you don't like someone it's not necessary to be a bitch to them- but don't say you like someone and then pretend you do- that is being fake and i would rather be a bitch than be fake. I find it really hard to let people get close to me. I only have a few close friends and it took a while for them to get close to me, except for my best friend Kelly, who is the one person I know I can always count on forever. When I do let people get close to me, I get really close. I am a very emotional person. I take a lot of things to heart. I may seem shy at first, but I will eventually open up to you, you just have to give me time. My mom is my role model. I want to get close to my family before I leave, somehow, someway. I hate stupid people who have nothing interesting to talk about. I like to talk to people who read the newspaper or have something intelligent to say. My favorite shows are 20/20, Dateline, 60 minutes, and Grey's Anatomy, other than those shows basically I don't turn the tv on because I get bored, I am always listening to music instead. If you are a cheerleader and your favorite singer is Hillary Duff then don't talk to me. I have thought about doing something with the environment, especially after seeing the movie "The Inconvenient Truth." It pisses me off that everyone ignores this movie and goes on with their normal lives when they don't understand that they aren't even going to be going on with their normal lives if they don't do something! I'm tough and i've learned if you are going to do me wrong then you are not worth it, period. I am going to be successful in life, but my main goal is to be happy. If you're not happy, then nothing else matters. I have had a lot of pain in my life, I have been sad a lot, but I have learned that you have to let it go and that pain is there for a reason. Pain teaches you more than anything and it makes you a stronger person.
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

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