I will start from the beginning, For so very long, (well really as long as I can remember), I wanted to ‘just be in a relationship’ and somehow I thought that I would make it work, well at many times in my life I settled for people and or things that were just not acceptable. I was always looking and checking things out and comparing myself to others, wondering if I would ever find that one special person that would really want to get to know the real me, and if they did would he actually be able to love me with all his heart! And then about 3 and half years ago, there came a point in my life where I decided that I deserved to be happy, and at that time I decided that I was just going to have fun with my life, and not worry about “being with†anyone, Well as fate has it, and like many people say that is when it happened, I can't believe it! I just got married on June 28th 2008 to the most wonderful, and most amazing man I know in the world! AND one that has given me all that I mentioned above, Total Acceptance! We had a beautiful wedding, and a really fun honeymoon! I not only found a man that loves me, but one that has stood by me through good and our bad times already. I want him to know how thankful I am, I am with the man of my dreams, the man that I have longed to find found me, There is not a day that goes by that I don't thank God for the treasure He has given me in my husband. He really balances me out, patient where I'm impatient, deliberating where I'm spontaneous, and always ready to crack a joke and make me smile when I take myself too seriously. I'm so blessed to be married to an incredibly patient person because being with him has made me realize how impatient I can be some times. “Really†LOL, Many people have commented "you 2 were made for each other" and that speaks volumes, especially to me, and yes we have had our ups and downs but I am glad that we both have stuck it out. We have our times, every relationship/marriage/family, does, but we come out on the other end loving and respecting each other 10x more then before. I know that he's the perfect one for me and that I'm the perfect one for him, He is truly my best friend and is one of my favorite person to be around, and I'm content to be anywhere in the world, as long as he is there with me by my side, he and my children absolutely mean the world to me, they are the smile on my face, and the breath of my happiness as I drift off to sleep, next to what makes me never want anyone else for as long as I shall live. There is nothing I can’t tell him. He does everything in the world that he can for me. He makes me happier than I could ever imagine being and I have no regrets. I’m GLAD I did everything I did to be with him because “its us against the world†We are completely different people but at the end of the day there is no person in the world I would rather spend time with. I love him so much its overwhelming sometimes and I just don’t know if anyone can quite understand what I mean unless you have walked in my shoes and lost the male figures that I have lost in my life to totally appreciate and understand what I mean in my heart. I have wanted to be part of something very special with a man my entire life, with someone that was honest and true, and fun and loving where it went both ways, and now I am. Soul mates? Maybe???, I sure do hope so! If they really exist, only time will answer that question for us now. But I do know that love, and best friends do exist between a man and a woman and I have some really good role models to follow, and if it is right between the pair of you it won't ALWAYS feel like work... I TRULY believe that, because I’ve seen it, Thanks Grandma and pa Muder! Am I dreamer? Maybe / Probably??? But for now my best friend is my better half, my lover, my confidant *(AND NOW My HUSBAND)*. Right now he is the man that makes me see stars whenever we kiss (literally)... He gives me butterflies in my tummy when I see or think about him... The man that puts the sparkle in my eye when we hold hands, and when other people see us, they wished it were them. I found out a long time ago that I do not need for someone to "MAKE" me happy, but rather someone that is open and honest with me and wants to be happy together. I still really enjoy TRUE Romance, love and affection and long intimate kisses and long talks for hours into the night. What I found out is, if you are lucky enough to find someone that makes you that happy then there is no need to look elsewhere...
My dedication: Ryan you have stood by me through good times and bad times. I want you to know how thankful I am for you. Although I know where we are is not your most favorite place in the world (City) you have supported me and stuck with me. You have loved me in spite of my weaknesses. You have brought into this life your devotion to our family. I have told you this before, but I am always in a hurry to com e home to you. You make the house a place where I want to be, the spirit is there, love is there, you are there. There are many people who look for ways to stay at work, or go out with their friends so they don't have to go home, and I on on the other hand, I look for reasons to go home. I am constantly amazed at your patience and your selflessness. These past three years have been wonderful, even with our ups and our downs each with a new learning experience. You are more handsome to me now then the day when we had our first staring contest (which you won cuz I started giggling). You understand me and even if you don’t most of the time you support me and you love me. These past couple years have been the happiest times of my life, people who know me now, know I always have a smile on my face especially these days even though we are going through some hard times. I wasn't always so smiley, but I can't help it when the most wonderful man in the world loves me. The only thing better then the last couple years is the knowledge that I will be with you forever, and that those years will only multiply and get better. Ryan, I love you more than anything in the world.
Thank you baby for being in my life!