never let 'em see you sweat
it's not that you're obsessed
it's just that you can't
take your mind off the potential
If anyone speaks badly of you,
live so that none will believe it.
Do what you can,
for who you can with what you have
and where you are.
.i am.
im fairly simple. im satisfied with the more subtle things in life. i dont need a bunch of money or a brand new car to put a smile on my face. i have friends and family that do that for me at a much better price :] for example.. my prima.fav. brianna. her understanding is never ending and i just can't even allow myself to view a life without her. she's impossibly strong and she tips my chin up when i start to let my head hang. i LOVE you prima. i love to read. a lot. and as you can see on my page my favorite books are twilight, new moon, and eclipse by stephenie meyer. its pretty much an obsession i kid you not. i wont even get into detail about it cause it's a little scarey!! lol
but anyways.. i work at a place called superior healthcare in martinez.. im a secretary there.. its a pretty good job. i dont get up loathing the fact that i have to go there everyday. i have my own apartment in hilltop..yea livin on my own. i wouldn't say i struggle there, but it DEFINITLY isn't easy. and trust me, it isn't always as welcoming to come home to a house with absolutely nothing in it..more like no one. you have entirely too much time on your hands and you end up thinking A LOT. i've asessed my life so many times since i moved in there. but overall i cant really complain about my life. i've been blessed in too many ways to count.. who am i to take all that God has given me and be unhappy? im very grateful for all that he's laid in my path for me to discover.
as for dudes. there are none really for me right now. im not on the prowl, but new faces are always welcome. getting to know people is fun for me. im extremely observant. i like to notice the things that no one else does.. expressions are my specialty. i'll figure you out no doubt so challenges are always exciting. i dont try to hide who i am because its me. and it wont be changing anytime soon. i dont believe in second chances tho because nobody really changes. what you are is what you'll always be so might as well let it alone and dedicate all experiences to memory and move on.
my friends and my family pretty much mean everything to me. like rosa.. gosh we always end up in some shit! lol. but i never fail to have a good time when im around you.. the laughter is endless. and your fambam treats me like their own and i cant even begin to explain to you how that makes me feel... well maybe i can.. MEXICAN. lol.. but you know what i mean!! and meek. HA. meek. you just rock. your so openminded and fun i never have a dull moment with you. being brutally honest is always enjoyable too :]
my cousins! wow the primos. jacobo.. you big dummy! i love you to EFFING DEATH. youre never afraid to give me hugs and kisses! your so hardcore but so completely sweet! you do whatever you can for me when i need it and i just dont know what i'd do without you! bubbas! i know i dont see you very often..pretty much only at christmas every year.. but you are such an awesome person and you always make me smile. you got one of the best hearts i've ever known. ashes. my little cow tipper! haha. all the way in virginia.. your so unpredictable and exciting.. i think that's an understatement!!! hahah you're full of suprises!! i love you you albino!
my sisters.. omg. haha. were definitly fabulous! but you guys are truly wonderful.. its taken a long time for me to appreciate you and im sorry for that. we always have fun together no matter what. we are total bitches; but always come thru. our time together never ends without a new story to tell!! my brothers.. love you guys! a lot of drama and hard times, but you'll pull thru bud i know it. your a very compassionate young man and your so smart! please just start applying yourself! sammyslammajamma..mano your one of the best things that has ever happened to our family. i never thought the day you came here you'd end up being my brother, but GOD did it for us. i love you sooo much. you mean EVERYTHING to me!! and last but not least my parents. now those of you who know me, know how completely difficult it is for me to write this. i've never been truly close with them and i've often resented them. but being on my own and seeing others experiences i've come to know so much more. you are fantastic parents. i believe i am a strong young woman with very valuable..values. i see other people my age and im so glad i was taught to be the way i am. thank you. i love you.
sooo ill leave it there..lol.. sorry i go on writing binges. i love to do that too! haha anything else.. write ME.
THIS ISN'T FRIENDSHIP::ITS SISTERHOOD
Ms. Zermeno. i will never doubt that we were seperated at birth. you know me inside and out. never any secrets, not that i could even hide anything from you! you can look at my face and know everything i didnt want to say. id say you got my back, but i dont think that even begins to describe it. i cant fathom my world without you. 8 years later and we've still NEVER had an argument or fight. interesting huh?? i guess its cause we just always understood each other. your family has become mine and mine yours. what more could there possibly be for us besides a lifetime to continue our memories? i literally owe this girl my life. yep. she did what no one wanted to and stepped up. seriously i would have died 2 years ago..i breathe because of you. and i wouldnt want to breathe without you. so lil.. here's to another billion years of our friendship. i love you!