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Ben's ego dissolution

Nothing lasts... and nothing is lost

About Me


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My Interests

factbooks, forests, sushi, exotic foods, coffee, tea, philosophy, politics, debate, pharmacology, shamanism, amateur mycology, yo yoing, entheogens, british columbia, inventing words/phrases, fruity loops, overcast days, swimming against currents, reading, writing, extravagance, randomness, martial arts, meditation, transcending material existence, being god

I'd like to meet:

My Heroes

Music:

Elliott Smith, Wilco, Sparklehorse, Mary Lou Lord, Yo La Tengo, Shpongle, Flaming Lips, Belle and Sebastian, Rogue Wave, Of Montreal, Animal Collective, Mount Eerie, Ted Leo and the Pharmacists, Vashti Bunyan, Sufjan Stevens, Andy McKee

Movies:

Fear And Loathing In Las Vegas, Life Is Beautiful, Harold and Kumar Go To White Castle, Female Trouble, Trailer Park Boys: The Big Dirty

Television:

Sealab 2021, Trailer Park Boys, South Park, Metalocalypse, CNN, Survivorman, Colbert Report

Books:

Beyond Good And Evil, The Food Of The Gods, Psychedelics Encyclopedia, The Republic, The Social Contract, 1984, Get Me Out Of Here

Heroes:

Terrence McKenna, Friedrich Nietzsche, Andy Kaufman, Sacha Baron Cohen, Maria Sabina

1969-2003

My Blog

Meditations

These are just some aphoristic type thoughts, I was having the other night. I was in a sort of meditative state, and thought I'd write them down for safe keeping.- Some believe we're all a bit crazy, ...
Posted by Ben's ego dissolution on Wed, 10 Oct 2007 09:26:00 PST

life through the looking glass

to still he sitswith vestige he remainsobscured by the moonlightwilted and frayedburied beneathlay the rapacious seedknawing awayindifferent to heedthe degenerator humsso faithfully it feedsfor he who...
Posted by Ben's ego dissolution on Thu, 10 Nov 2005 01:39:00 PST

click

one moment takes a skipbrings about anotherthe night passes behind mei grasp it in stuportime is broken into framesa night played out in pictureswithout a photograph takeni grasp that in stupor...
Posted by Ben's ego dissolution on Sun, 29 Oct 2006 08:53:00 PST

My thoughts on 9/15

This was previously posted in my other journal, but I wanted to put it here for safe keeping.   a putrid narcissist lay in shambles shackled to the bed postwrithing, crawling, and sobbing im...
Posted by Ben's ego dissolution on Thu, 26 Oct 2006 12:03:00 PST

Has anyone ever felt this way?

Rage from nowhere, attached to nothing.... floating-freely from deep within me and ready in an instant to spew forth in what seem like instaneously-effortless bursts of unbridled entitlement to give m...
Posted by Ben's ego dissolution on Wed, 12 Jul 2006 08:15:00 PST

cough

    Pain -- In the hands of the weak, they run to temptation only to perish at the edge of their own bladeIn the hands of the strong, their anguish sublimates into beauty there is no da...
Posted by Ben's ego dissolution on Sat, 01 Jul 2006 05:29:00 PST

at this moment

I almost feel as though this song was written for me...I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mindThere was something so pleasant about that phase.Even your emotions had an echoIn so m...
Posted by Ben's ego dissolution on Tue, 27 Jun 2006 03:59:00 PST

fdaghrthrts

I'm on the edge hanging hanging on I've already fallen but tell me should I hold on and never let go?...
Posted by Ben's ego dissolution on Fri, 16 Jun 2006 08:42:00 PST

When All Is Lost

I have been watching you for a long time, and I am able to analyze most of your movements and predict how you will act and react in any given situation. Its impossible for me to look past all the sur...
Posted by Ben's ego dissolution on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

10

every one of you plasticine puppets drown in your mascara laced tears each and every night, no one loves you. ..... move along move along.
Posted by Ben's ego dissolution on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST