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. ..I'm no SAINT i mess up,been messsed up and messed people up...I make mistake after mistake, but i take responsibility for EVERYTHING..I used to run from my problems but like everything they caught up with me..I've had my heart broken and made the bigest mistake thinking i was takin the easy road...But God kept me around for wat i duno but now i know theres a purpose that i need to accomplish before i leave this world and maybi that purpose is jus to tell my story..And let everyone kno theres more to life, and to live it..Truely live it..I hate getting close to people and i hate talkin bout my messed up past,but i am now..The people who know me or watched me grow up know why its so hard..I cant say i've been to hell but I've had my own hell on earth...IVE DEF. HAD MY SHARE OF RAINY DAYS..And rarly do i ever see the sun but wen i do i dont take it for granted..I smile constantly to keep myself from falling into deep..My only escape i feel is running,music,and writing..I've been hurt and hurt people around me..My relationships never work out because i make the guys go through hell and then give them nothing in return..Jus scared to get to close and confide in someone TO have them leave me one day..But i realize if i give people a chance they wont all let me down like i think everyone does...NO ORDINARY GIRL..Come off silly and blonde but i'm smart got good grades(wen i went to school)..I'm learning not to go to alcohol to fix things or make things go away..And to the guys: All i want is that one person who will love me through the good and the bad The ups and the downs...With all my heart i truely believe in LOVE. I used to say i didn't jus because i didnt want to jinx myself..I broke guys hearts wen they said they loved me..Passed up great experiences cause of fear..And to convince myself that i wasnt afraid, i did things that could of killed me...Jumpin off 70 foot bridges and running in the middle of the highway..Another words i jus played with fire to see how far i could go,feel the rush..SO IF I COULD SAY ANYTHING TO ANYONE(my FAMILY parents n brother,sister and lastly friends):IM SORRIE..THERES NO BAD PEOPLE JUS PEOPLE WHO'VE DONE SUM BAD THINGS..BUT WHO HASN'T 'VE SAID WAT I'VE HAVE TO SAY I'M FIXING WAT I THINK NEEDS TO BE FIX AND THATS IT THERES NOTHING ELSE I CAN DO..SO TALK WATEVER SAY WATEVER I REALLY DONT CARE..I'M TAKIN IT AS A LEARNING EXPERIENCE AND DOIN WAT EVERY PERSON MY AGE SHOULD DO..*GROWING UP*THEY ASK WHY I'M CRAZY AND ITS SIMPLE---I LIVE "THE LIFE" THATS CRAZY...I'M "CRAZY" CAUSE I'M LIVING THE LIFE.... ...... ....
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. ... .. .....♥DAD♥.... ...."MY BEAUTIFUL SISTER. ... . MY MOM . ..*. ..
***I MAY HAVE BROKEN FRIENDSHIPS,FAILED RELATIONSHIPS, AND MET SUM 2 FACED PEOPLE BUT WITHOUT U I WOULDN'T BE WHO I AM TODAI...****HEAD STRONG,INDEPENDENT,AND A FIGHTER.... .. .. .THIZZ FACE . .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. . . ..........THE END........... .