Downside to Suicide

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I'm ashamed, yet astounded; Ashamed of the fact that my heart still falls victim to the grips of my selfishness, that I don't try that hard to be a good Christian; That I place my strength in my confidence...so much that the foundation of that confidence is sure to crack sooner or later and shatter upon my faith. -It’s funny how I feel so small when I try to make my confidence so great; So great that it towers over my better judgment and controls my heart.
I'm Astounded by how much love God has brought upon my life. Even though he knows I know better when I decided to do some of the things I do. I'm in awe of how he surprises me with his reasuring word inside of the slightest details of my days.
So for all of my talent that I put to waste. For all the things I take for granted. For all the selfish things I've done and will do. I give my heart, my mind, the essence of my being to God; And I pray that he will cleanse it even more. To make me see in ways I’ve never seen.
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† My name is Rachel and i'm quite FEROCIOUS!
† I'm 16 but I look 12ish... kind of...
† For the third time, i'm going out with Preston, And i'll go out with him as many times as it takes until he's ready to tie the knot. lol. He makes me happy; He's the love of my life.
† I got "lucky" enough to be a mix of the two shortest races on the earth, Mexican & Chinese
† My Favorite Band is Anberlin.
† I like my face & i take to many pictures.
† Sometimes I'm to honest...
† I love to help/inspire people
† I love God ♥
† I'm grateful for everything that god has given me
† & I feel kind of unworthy of everything I have
† I get overly paranoid sometimes; and most times it'll get the best of me.
† I get frustrated when I complain or take things for granted
† I'm not allowed to hang out with friends
† I get hyper off anything i eat
† I have an unhealthy diet, but i'm really thin.
† I'm probably going to be the weirdest person you'll ever meet
† I get confused easily
† I don't get attached to people that much anymore; but when I do, I'm overly attached.
† I draw well, but i don't plan to make a career of it
† I write a lot of songs about god; life and love
† I LOVE MUSIC!
† Christian music makes me smile :D
† I love to meet new people, Go to new places, & just take off on the spur of the moment
† Basically...I love life -Every Bad moment, embarrassment, heartbreak, disappointment, Splurge of anger, Set Back, Romance, Smile, Frown, & Laugh...I love every moment of it. Even if it doesn't turn out okay... I know for sure that Ill be fine.
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