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Well...for starters, I'm a pretty shy person, but I can pretend not to be. :) But most of the time, my personality pretty much mimics the people around me. Meaning, if I'm with a party crowd, then I party just as hard as they do. If I'm sitting down for a quiet dinner and a chat, then I take on that kind of attitude. So it really depends on who I'm talking to. It's not that I don't have a personality of my own, but I can't be happy around sad people, or sad around happy people. I hate to feel out of place, I s'pose.
As far as being shy goes, it's easy to fake it over the net with that shield to hide behind, but in real life, it's a lot scarier, not that it can't be overcome.
Am I a religious person?
Honestly? No. I think of myself as being very 'spiritual', but not at all religious. Do I believe? Yes...with all my heart. I never doubted it for a minute. That could be because of my 'programming', or it may just be what's in my heart, who's to say at this point? What I do know is that God exists for me and plays a large role in my life. That's spirituality to me. It's a part of me and everything that I do.
As far as 'religion' goes, it's not for me. To me religion is using the Bible as a textbook to tell you what your values and morals 'should' be. It's celebrating a certain holiday just because of the date, it's saying prayers you may or may not understand, it's sitting in a church with 100 other people to listen to a man telling them to behave and to be pure of heart before passing around the collection plate so they can buy a new golden candle holder.
I don't mean to offend the religious folks who read this in any way. It's just that I was dragged to church every Sunday for years, I sat next to my mother and chanted the same prayers every week without getting an answer to a single one. I was surrounded by wife beaters and drug addicts and alcaholics, who all figured that they could do whatever the hell they wanted to...as long as once a week they came to the church to say they were 'sorry'. Not good enough for me I guess. I just like to justify the evil things I do BEFORE I do them, not after. Once again, my opinion, no offense.
Now...there are three things that really piss me off, and I won't stand for them at all because I don't think ANYBODY deserves to be treated with disrespect. In my opinion, you don't have to like everybody, but you could at least respect them enough to recognize them as human.
The first thing is blatant rudeness. People who are just looking to be an asshole simply because they can be. I have no problem with people who believe in 'speaking their mind' or 'being open and honest'...but there's a level of tact to which to do that. I have no patience with people who say whatever the hell they want and not keep someone elses feelings in mind. I know some of you will disagree, and thats cool, but I just can't blurt out negative comments and just take a 'deal with it' attitude about it all.
The second thing is hating people that you don't even know. That's just stupid. Racism, ageism, homophobia, antisemetism and everything else involving hatred is beyond me. I think so many people are just counted out as being less of a person because of their age or their sexual orientation or the color of their skin or whatever. Sometimes without even SEEING what they look like or knowing WHO they are. They have no idea what they miss out on or what they throw away.
The third thing, the one that pisses me off more than anything else on earth...is being ignored. I don't want to come off as some spoiled brat or anything, but if someone didn't want to talk to me, I'd rather them say, "Hey, I don't want to talk to you." and leave it at that. To be blatantly ignored is, by far, one of the rudest most unforgivable bullshit acts that you can possibly use against me. Just so ya know! :) But seriously, if someone makes it a point to just ignore me for the hell of it, chances are they won't ever be hearing from me again.
I have a REALLY high tolerance for a LOT of things, and I don't expect a whole hell of a lot from the people around me. A few friendly words, an occassional smile, just the little things, nothing major. But even though I don't like to hold grudges, don't go figuring ME for a jerk once I reach my boiling point. Because if you've gotten me to the point where I'm just totally pissed off or forced to be rude to you, you better believe I've given you MORE than enough chances to make it right.
Believe me...anyone who has made my permanent shitlist DESERVES to be there. And being somewhat 'polite' is the most they can ever expect from me ever again. Their fault, not mine. I give everyone a choice, and if they choose not to have me around, then so be it, the feeling will eventually become mutual.
Well aside from that, I love meeting new people. No matter where your from or who you are, doesn't matter to me. So don't be afraid to add me as a friend, I'm ready to talk to whoever wants to chat with me. ^_^If you like messengers, then add me. I have a few. Msn: [email protected] Yahoo: [email protected] .. Junjou Romantica
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