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I am a Mommy. I never thought that I would be the woman that I am today. When you have children it sure changes your Life. I Love to do different things now. To watch him grow is a amazing. I Love God he is 1st in my life. When you need a friend call upon him and he will be there. When I felt that my world was crashing, I cried out, and said give me something to live for, and he gave me the best gift that anyone could ever ask for. Not only that but he gave me a little boy that has modeled for several large companies. God is awesome. Sometimes God doesn't not answer our questions or our requests the way we want Him to. Sometimes His timing is not our timing, and sometimes His will is not our will. But ultimately we must surrender to Him, because no matter what we are facing, and what we are feeling. God's way, is the way. His will, WILL be done.
I know sometimes we may feel like He is distant. Sometimes we feel like He is just not answering us, when we ask Him for something. But He is there. He looks upon our hearts. He knows our needs. And He never leaves us or forsakes us.
I am asking God to send me a husband that is a man of God. His Father and I did not work out. I tried too many times to keep the relationship because of my son. But when you have two unequally yoked it will not work, no matter how hard that you try. I am asking God for a man that Loves Children and wants them also. They are defiently the best blessings that you could ever have. ("Look to all of you, (men) I am on Myspace to meet friends!" I get to many messages saying Hi Hot Momma, and Girl I want to get to know you better, and etc... Please if you are going to come at me like that, than please don't waste your time. I can be cool with all of you, (men) but have a little respect and maybe I will respond to your messages. The people that do know me, know that I am a very outgoing person, and Love to act a fool, so don't take what I am saying the wrong way.
Ethan you are my son, my best friend, my world. You have changed my life so much, that I could never imagine life without you. You came into my life unplanned but not unwanted. No matter how many people doubted Mommy, I knew that it was going to be all ok for the both of us. Ethan when I feel sad and overwhelmed with things in our life, you always seem to put a smile on my face. You are so young and yet very smart. You always dry Mommy's tears and say Mommy don't cry it is ok. I can remember when you were being born and the doctor's telling Mommy that you had all these problems with your heart. I began to cry and say God I will not accept this. And a week later they told Mommy that you were okay. Ethan you are a very strong little guy and Mommy is already very proud of you at such a young age. I know that you are going to grow up to be an amazing young man. Ethan Mommy will always be there for you. You are growing so fast and the things that you say are amazing. But I can also promise you that I will keep you safe and not let anyone ever harm you. I know that there are so many people that want to be involved in your life, or want to meet you, but I will give my best judgement on letting those in your Life.
You are my sister my best friend.
You have always been my big sister. And I have looked up to you.
I am also very thankful for everything that you
have done for Ethan and I. When I tried to commit suicide you helped me through that, and told me that things would get better.
And yes, things got better. I found out I was pregnant with my son ; that
saved my life.
At times I get upset with you and we have our disagreements about things,
but I know that you are only looking out for my best interest.
I admire you in so many ways. You work so very hard with
5 kids. I sure don't know how you do it. You have also helped me from day one with Ethan.
I would of not have been the mommy that I am today for Ethan if you had not
helped me all through the way. And the many nights that you would stay on the
phone with me when he was sick.
And when Dad died I was able to be the stronger one and holding you up.
I don't know if I can ever repay you for all your love and support that you have
shown me. But I can promise you that I will always be there for you.
I love you very much. And I look forward to many more years with you by my side.
I love to go to Church,
and sing my heart out..(boy I can't sing though)
I have one sister and two brothers
I have a very close family.
I have a shopping addiction.I don't think that
there is a cure for..(LOL)
I am very hard headed and like things my way
Very open minded to everyone with their relgions
and life styles.
I think with my head ; its less painful than thinking with your heart
I beleive that everything happens for a reason
I believe that God has a time for everyone to go
I am very airheaded at times. LOL
I try not to involve myself into to much DRAMA
I am a neat freak
I love to write poetry when I have spare time
I dislike people that think that they are better than other's
I have had a pretty rough year this year after losing my father at age of 51 and having a few sugery's
I am thankful this year for all the love and support that many have shown me and my family.
Ethan and I's father are working things out. Yes sorry to all of you that doubt the situation. I need to do what I feel is best for me and my son.
I enjoy most of all to encourage and pray for people,
I know that nothing is to Big for God.
I enjoy walks on the beach.
I love to spend time with friends
I work hard for everything that I have. It has not been easy. But nothing is handed to me.
The thing that I enjoy the most is challenges
I dislike people that claim to be christians that are dressed in sheeps clothing.
