I'd like to meet:

There's nowhere in the
world I'd rather be...

Name: Johnny
Age: 17
Orientation: Gay
Status: Complicated
Location: Florida
Sign: Scorpio
Chinese sign: Sheep
Eyes: Brown
Height: 5'11 - 180cm
Weight: 130lbs - 59kg

Hello World, I'm Johnny. I have lived a life that has had more ups and downs than the world's biggest roller coaster. I am no longer a fool for lies, nor a sucker for deception. I am not a robot, I have emotions. I make mistakes, and I try to the best of my ability to fix them. At this point in my life, I have learned the hard way that not everyone is who they lead people to believe they are. After all, the best part of believe is the lie. I have broken hearts and been broken hearted. I have grown to love and be hated. I openly speak my mind when necessary. Speak now or forever hold your peace in pieces. Life, in my opinion, is not all that it is cut out to be. I no longer let others bring me down because they cannot accept or understand me being different than they. I have never laid my hand on any type or amount of drugs in my life. I have been a vegetarian for over two years now. I am truly proud of those accomplishments. Speaking of accomplishments, I have discovered something I find to be bigger than landing on the Moon:The world around me. It took the courage of fully opening my eyes, but I have discovered many (disappointing and shameful) things amongst others and (incredible) within myself. I am my own archaeologist, digging deep within myself, hoping to find something new and fascinating every day. This search for myself has led me to great new discoveries and opportunities. I have many incredible friends. On the contrary, I have very few I can trust with my life. Those few are the wind beneath these frail wings keeping me from falling.

Things In Life...

A Future Worth Reaching

Marching Band. Those two words together mean everything to me. This is what I live for and what I love to do. The adrenaline that rushes through me while I am on the Band field, the thrill of putting on a breathtaking (for the audience and performers) show, the pride in every step I take as I march off after a performance, the feeling of great accomplishment from the hard work you put into thrilling the audience...All of these I could not live without. This is what I am choosing to follow. This is what I want to pass on and keep doing. Music is everything. Music is my dream.

Note: this was written a year ago. Mrs. P has read it, and responded. I keep her message and my original words to remind me exactly how much I have been changed.

Adding to my heroes is Mrs Paniagua [Mrs P.], and I actually have something to say about her. She's my band director, and while most of you are thinking "how nerdy is this kid?", well, I'll tell you otherwise. She's played a tremendous role in what has started to be some of the best years of my life. Band is honestly everything to me, and if it wasn't for her, I wouldn't be where I am as a person now. I would be a quitter. She's given me some of the most support anyone could give, and has taught me some of the greatest lessons in life, not only with words, but with actions. She's one who can take the most unbelievable amount of stress and drama [those of you in band know how bad it gets], and turn it into something incredible. She's taking me from a rough, worn piece of coal, and slowly shaping me into a diamond to shine forever without even knowing it. My insight on life, my actions, my self-motivation, and my determination to be what I want to be without letting others hold me back have all been shaped by this one person. I am going to be successful. I am going to reach those goals she's aspired me to follow. She's showed me the true road to follow, and I'm going to continue down this road, because now I know I'm going somewhere.

I don't know if you will ever read this Mrs P., but if you do, I want to thank you with all my heart, because you truly are a hero in my life, and as a single person you have showed me a tremendous amount of things I might have never known or learned without you. I'm glad I never quit. I'm glad to say that in my future years I'll be able to look back and say "Yeah...that's why I am who I am now.". Your an amazing inspiration, and I'm sure I'm not the only one who thinks this, but I sure am one who's proud to say it.
Thank You

-11/07/07

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