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Leah

you're so beautiful; from the top to the bottom of your soul

About Me

they say i'm emo:: i say i'm a recovering romantic
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Conner is my handsome boy and the love of my life!!! YEs my son...haha girls hands off!!! yes he is smart and amazing and gorgeous. He's loves going to the beach with his mama..and chuckie cheese....any store that has toys....mostly trucks!!! "open...open" he says as he pulls them off the shelves. spoiled rotten, but not rotten at all!! My poor babe I wish i could spend all my time with him...he deserves the absolute best.....Conner is 2 as of October 16th! and if you ask him who that poster is of the man on my wall...he'd say that's mommy's sexy boyfriend!!!(aka james dean.) He sings at least five different songs including mary had a little lamb, ba ba black sheep, twinkle twinkle little star, and down by the bay....he likes to tell me how handsome i look after i get dressed then he corrects himself and says beautiful. He loves people with warm hearts and conner loves having friends!!!*if loving meant living then i wouldn't die*

My Interests

I don't think everything happens for a reason. WHO came up with this simplistic catchall silver lining?? and if it didn't happen, it wasn't meant to be!...crap. AND when does life stop trying to teach you valuable lessons?? cause it'd be nice to breathe. Time really does heal but it's the waiting and the life inbetween that kills you.

Music:

Back in school they never taught us what we needed to know, like how to deal with despair, or someone breaking your heart. For twelve years I've held it all together but a night like this is begging to pull me apart. I played it quiet, left you deep in conversation. I felt uncool and hung out around the kitchen. I remember I kept thinking that I know you never would, and now I know I want to kill you like only a best friend could.Everyone's caught on to everything you do Everyone's caught on to.As if this happening wasn't enough I got to go and write a song just to remind myself how bad it sucked. Ignore the sun, the cover's over my head. I wrote a message on my pillow that says, "Jesse, stay asleep in bed." So don't apologize. I hope you choke and die. Search your cell for something with which to hang yourself. They say you need to pray if you want to go to heaven but they don't tell you what to say when your whole life has gone to hell.Everyone's caught on to everything you do Everyone's caught on to And everyone's caught on to everything you do (And I can't let you, let me down again.) Everyone's caught on to (And I can't let you, let me down again)So, is that what you call a getaway? Tell me what you got away with. Cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish. I've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids. Have another drink and drive yourself home. I hope there's ice on all the roads. And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt, and again when your head goes through the windshield.And is that what you call tact? You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back. So let's end this call, and end this conversation. and is that what you call a getaway? well tell me what you got away with. cause you left the frays from the ties you severed when you say best friends means friends forever

Movies:

When society as a whole knows more about who Paris Hilton fucked last night, then they do about how our own government fucked us, there is a problem. http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=7866929448192753501& amp;q=loose+change+recut

Loose Change 2nd Edition Recut



Dylan Avery, Korey Rowe, and Jason Bermas bring you the most powerful 9/11 Documentary yet. Updated!!!! helo loves of my life!! i am done with blog. blog and i became such good friends but i upgraded him to livejournal and well if you can't do with out...the link below will lead you to me.http://leahashby.livejournal.com/

Books:

If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand. I hope you find out what you want. I already know what I am. And if it makes you less sad, we'll start talking again. And you can tell me how vile I already know that I am. I'll grow old and start acting my age. I'll be a brand new day in a life that you hate. A crown of gold. A heart that's harder than stone. And it hurts a whole lot, but it's missed when it's gone. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget. If it makes you less sad, I'll move out of the state. You can keep to yourself. I'll keep out of your way. And if it makes you less sad, I'll take your pictures all down. Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out. It's cold as a tomb, and it's dark in your room, when I sneak to your bed to pour salt in your wounds. So call it quits or get a grip. Say you wanted a solution. You just wanted to be missed. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget... You are calm and reposed. Let your beauty unfold. Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones. Spring keeps you ever close. You are second hand smoke. You are so fragile and thin. Standing trial for your sins. Holding onto yourself the best you can. You are the smell before rain. You are the blood in my veins. Call me a safe bet. I'm betting I'm not. I'm glad that you can forgive. I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget. *the boy who blocked his own shot* brand new

My Blog

b r e a t h e i t o u t . (t h i s i s f o r u k a r a a s h b y)

this boy i know, he has a heart of glassit is gold inside but it has crystalizedit is beautiful but in it's tradgedyit is hard to hold without shatteringhe calls himself at night, in soft overchordske...
Posted by Leah on Sun, 31 Dec 2006 03:15:00 PST

stronger than your pride

love can be a many splendored thing can't deny the joy it brings a dozen roses, diamond rings dreams for sale and fairy tales it'll make you hear a symphony and you just want the world to see but like...
Posted by Leah on Sun, 31 Dec 2006 11:48:00 PST

i've been mourning the death of my life for an adequate amount of time now....

'stop talking about love. every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. it means nothing. it still doesn't mean anything. what you feel matters only to you. its what you do to the people you say ...
Posted by Leah on Sat, 30 Dec 2006 10:43:00 PST

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closer to closure take this out of me take anything you want cause i'll still breathe, i'll still breathe fading thinner but still it's haunting me can't find the words to say to the angels that took ...
Posted by Leah on Fri, 29 Dec 2006 10:01:00 PST

i just wish i could have been the person that made you feel perfect.....

trying to decide how i want to bring in the new years and i really want to be with the one person that means the absolute most to me, my three foot tall little boyfriend who likes to call me mommy. go...
Posted by Leah on Wed, 27 Dec 2006 11:05:00 PST

this is the sound of love and that is a shattered heart.

what a fucking way to end this year. so pics of ink spots:: hope side needs touchups in janurary.... blue oct. fuckin jan 30th. my heart, my excitement karas got her liscence so now we can call he...
Posted by Leah on Sat, 23 Dec 2006 10:58:00 PST

there's not a day that goes by, that i don't think about

i see the avenue its running down in front of you and i feel a part of you in everything your going through and i know you're running out the questions who you're running to and i know your running ou...
Posted by Leah on Thu, 21 Dec 2006 08:11:00 PST

areyoulisteningtotheinbetween,thequietinyourscreamsitsthesou ndofemptinessthatsapartofyou

i can tell by the colors on your dress i can tell by the scratches on your neck that this is not the way you planned it this is not the way it seems i can tell by the sadness that you wear i can see ...
Posted by Leah on Tue, 19 Dec 2006 09:45:00 PST

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that's it. i'm writing letters, to those who i care about and have somethings to say.........i'll end my year this way.....and my hope for next year: everything will change.
Posted by Leah on Mon, 18 Dec 2006 05:26:00 PST

and I have the sense to recognize that i don't know how to let you go

So you know why juliet killed herself right?? because she knew that nothing would ever compare to the love she had and lost when she was fourteen.we all begin with good intentlove was raw and youngwe ...
Posted by Leah on Thu, 14 Dec 2006 09:40:00 PST