there is a lot to know about me
im 16 ..my birthday is october 13
im rachel...i push people away...im constantly confused..im never quite sure why i do something..im never quite sure as to how i feel....im told im funny..im told im real..im told im not like many girls....when in reality im just like every other girl youll ever meet...im a lonely person and i reach out to people cause i dont want them to be as lonely as i ami like movies and music that make me feel...i like meeting new people...i fantasize about being defective..about being insane and having something seriously wrong with me...i dont know why..im just strange like that..i like photography... i like a lot..ad i hate a lot..im judgemental..i form opinions of people sometimes before i even meet them...well of girls rather..i like puzzles...i like books...i am afraid of being alone..im afraid of dying..im afraid of dying alone..im afraid of the dark in certain places..i like being outside at night... im numb..but when i feel something..i feel it on a magnafied scale
im an open book..ill tell you everything
i also spell words how i think they should be spelled or how i want to spell them at the time
hahahaa i love salad fingers..its so funny im afraid of the dark except when im with someone
im not a slut..not even close
i try to find beauty in everything and everyone
i think bareness and natural beauty..are the best..its not fake..and thats why its the best..its all you..100% o naturale
i feel safe in small places...especially when im sleeping
i like my friends
im a loser
my parents are divorced...i hate renee...so i live with my dad...and i was adopted..i hope one day to meet my family
i listen to people
i love art
i like to play the few songs on guitar that i know
i take pointe,modern &ballet
i love music....i listen to all kinds..except like..romance music thats like yaani or like kenny g or soemthing
i used to run track-hurdles- and crosscountry
i play basketball sometimes
im a certified scuba diver-open water advenced baby woot
i gave up on my hopes of ever being a real model...the only thing ill ever do is this charity i do..dare to share...its this charity event for kids with cancer..i think specifically lyymphoma and lukemia? idk
i used to be a really hyper person almost all of the time but now ive kind of calmed down a bit
im jewish and athiest-
i have a habbit of leaving glasses in my room until they get mold in them
I LIKE/LOVE:
me megusta my brother aaeron? i dunno how he spells it..crazy kid..hes really cool i like to meet/make friends with pretty people
comments and picture comments make me happy
cream soda & fanta [separately of course]
the sound of my watch ticking
salad fingers=love fire
drawing and photography
reading
poptarts
ringpops
pixiesticks
balloons,
star stickers
stickers
swings
running with no where special in mind
lying on the grass
nature
swimming
going to shows
music
cartoons
cuddling
holding hands
linking arms
roses,iris,and orchids
cats
dogs
all animals esp. horses
horseback riding
jumping rope
making my friends happy
meeting new people
meeting old people again
feeling beautiful
feeling loved
feeling anything at all is nice
rain
snow
winter
being cold..it makes me feel alive
snuggling in a warm blanket all cuddled up with the one i love
my puppy skippy!!! hes so cute..hes a toy chiuahuah..quite adorable i must say..cutest puppy alive..even tho he pees on my bed
I DISLIKE/HATE: my mom [Senator Renee Unterman] and she knows it
being alone when i dont want to be
fakes
jerks
pocket lint
when you have hair all over you
being itchy after i lay on the grass
socks with sandals
static when i dont try and make it
when i shock myself
whenever i roll down a hill i end up punching myself in the mouth...dont like that one bit
how girls are obsessed with having big boobs...if youve got small boobs..or if they are smaller than what you want.. get over it! they are just boobs..they are for feeding babies good lord...take what youve got and deal with it
it really bothers me when i try to be a good friend and i try to be there for people and i make an effort to be there for them and make sure everything is okay...and you kno..do what i can to make sure they are happyand they totally blow you off..ignore you..dont appreciate it or you...use you..etc. it makes me want to stop making an effort all togetherpeople if someone makes an effort to be your friend...try and say thank you and return the favor..if you dont like that person i understand but at least smile and be sweet to them... i at least try to do that...it might not seem like it but i kno that a lot of people get hurt easily and they just wont show it because of their damn egos...but sometimes it doesnt take much to upset someoneim just tired of my efforts being all for nothing SHOW SOME APPRECIATION! dont ignore me dont blow me off dont use me dont be an ass if you are busy..say can we talk later? im a bit busy..and then actually maybe call or something..make an effort so that i dont think you are blowing me off and dont like me and dont want to talk to mei dunno about you but for me when i like someone [as a friend] i dont like losing them or being ignored by them..if they dont like me they can say so..politely mind you..but they can say it....i dont care about everyone..its sad and true..but i still make an efforti kno im repeating myself and i got really sidetracked in the middle of that and i dont remember where i was going with that..but i kno it was good.. and damnit...that sucks
.. my AIM is tuesdayfunhouse...so talk to me?
ok ok so i need to get a life. i had a god or julie video here...but i took it out...but that doesnt mean you shouldnt check them out..they are pretty awesomei dunno how to make it bigger
7/17/06
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