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What It Meant To Me

About Me


My name is Michael, I prefer Mike. I never really knew what exactly to write here, because, well, I didn't really know myself and what I had wanted to portray.
I, at the moment, strongly believe in the opposite from the age old saying: "Keep your friends close, and your enemies closer".
This summer has been the most crazy, hectic and emotional time in my life that I have been through. So much has happened that for me to write it down would take ages. Long story short, I broke out of my shell when I began to lose weight, and I finally went public with the fact that I was bisexual. My world changed, nothing stayed the same.
I had two people, though. Two people who I could depend and count on, no matter what. Adriano Perri and George Pelekanakis have been there for me when I needed them most, and I tried my best to be their rock when they needed someone. It is certain that without those two men as guidance, I wouldn't be here right now. No, I'm not exaggerating.
I met new people, and I was more social than ever. I had trust in everyone. I let everybody into my personal life and I became an open book. I had no secrets. I was happy.
Towards the end of my greatest summer of my life, another age old saying came into play. "What goes up, must come down". The error of my ways of being too trusting came back to bite me. I got betrayed by the one friend I've known for the longest time of my life. I do not talk to her anymore for good reason.
Once I got past that, the friends I had left, most of them, accused me of lying about a personal situation to get attention, because I craved it and wanted to get George, who I unfortunately became obsessed with.
My life lesson that I've learned for 2006 is not to be trusting. My trust that I had for people got demolished, torn to shreds, and I no longer can trust anyone with anything.
I'm working on finding myself now, because this is the age where everything counts.
For now, I can say that I am a gentle person. Shy when I don't know you well, but as I get to know you more, I become to show my true outgoing colors. I am very social. I love music that speaks to me, I love going out, but more than anything, I love being with the friends that mean the world to me, whether they think it or not.
You need only to be afraid of me if you hurt and/or betray me. A quality I inherited from my father is the fact that I hold grudges if you piss me off. I will not be so easily forgiving.

My Interests

Music, graphics, friends, love. The usual.

I'd like to meet:



I already know some of the greatest people out there. To others, they might seem like the worst, influential people out there...but to me, I call them my friends. And apart from that, I call two of them my brothers. I couldn't have made it through without certain people, like Adri, Geo and Nick, and I'm thankful for the times we shared. I just deeply wish times were like how they used to be, before the adult drama began to roll in.

I'd love to meet someone who I can share interests with, hang out with and not be afraid to spontaneously call you and propose to hang out.

And yeah, obviously, I'd love to find the love of my life, but every day that I live I think it becomes less and less possible.

Music:


EVANESCENCE
Imogen Heap
My Chemical Romance
Lifehouse
30 Seconds to Mars
She Wants Revenge
Shiny Toy Guns
Three Days Grace
Kill Hannah
Nelly Furtado
Panic! At The Disco
Mindless Self Indulgence
Rock Kills Kid
Hedley
Saliva
Thursday
Angels and Airwaves
Thrice
Deftones
As I Lay Dying
Atreyu
Dredg
Metric
Marilyn Manson
Disturbed
Fallout Boy
The Used
Zebrahead
Yellowcard
Violent Femmes
Finger 11
Mudvayne
Nine Inch Nails
The Ataris
The Vines
The Strokes
Red Hot Chilli Peppers

Movies:

The Lord of the Rings
Saw 1 2 and 3
V for Vendetta
Stay Alive
Exorcism of Emily Rose
Hostage
Underworld
Pirates of the Carribean

Television:

THE O.C.

GREY'S ANATOMY

QUEER AS FOLK

Books:

The Lord of the Rings

Heroes:

I Am My Own Hero

The Evolution of Michael Cerantola

November 2005 - 265 lbs

January 2006 - 272 lbs

May 2006 - 296 lbs

June 2006 - 315 lbs

July 2006 - 292 lbs

August 2006 - 270 lbs

September 2006 - 265 lbs

October 2006 - 258 lbs

November 2006 - 254 lbs - Fullhawk Growing In!

December 2006 - 248 lbs

December 2006 - New Hair Color :)

December 2006 - 240 lbs - Merry Christmas :)

More to Come as the Months Pass.
This is Why I'm My Own Hero.

My Blog

In The End

It starts with one thing I don't know why It doesn't even matter how hard you try keep that in mind I designed this rhyme To explain in due time All I know Time is a valuable thing Watch it fly by a...
Posted by [.what.it.meant.to.me.] on Sun, 04 Feb 2007 02:49:00 PST

Over and Over

"Over And Over" I feel it everyday it's all the same It brings me down but I'm the one to blame I've tried everything to get away So here I go again Chasing you down again Why do I do this? Over an...
Posted by [.what.it.meant.to.me.] on Wed, 06 Dec 2006 08:14:00 PST

replaced


Posted by [.what.it.meant.to.me.] on Mon, 04 Dec 2006 12:16:00 PST

The Summer is Over

Well, the subject heading says it all, another chapter in the book of my life has been closed.  Will it re-open?  Most indefinately.There were times when I would have relived my summer in an...
Posted by [.what.it.meant.to.me.] on Sat, 18 Nov 2006 09:28:00 PST

One Down...

Well the unthinkable has happened.  Because Adriano was too afraid to confront me about something in which he thought I was lying about, which I wasn't, he let it eat at him for 3 months, without...
Posted by [.what.it.meant.to.me.] on Wed, 08 Nov 2006 07:09:00 PST

To you, "friend".

So it's been quite a few months we were close.At the beginning, it was great.  You were there when I needed you, and vice versa, and the time we spent was full of laughter.  Half of a Tripod...
Posted by [.what.it.meant.to.me.] on Sun, 29 Oct 2006 03:53:00 PST

one more week and it's fucking over.

everything's my fault.when my other friends dont hang out when they planned it, it's traced back to being my fault.I love being blamed for shit that's FUCKING GOD DAMNED IMPOSSIBLE TO BE BLAMED FOR.I ...
Posted by [.what.it.meant.to.me.] on Fri, 18 Aug 2006 10:42:00 PST

My Circles

I've decided to do a little write up about the people that mean the most to me in my life right now, and where I rate them.  There's been a lot of instability recently and I guess I'm doing this ...
Posted by [.what.it.meant.to.me.] on Tue, 18 Jul 2006 09:46:00 PST

My Theme Song (also found on my page)

30 SECONDS TO MARS LYRICS "The Kill" What if I wanted to break Laugh it all off in your face What would you do? What if I fell to the floor Couldn't take all this anymore What would you do, do, do? ...
Posted by [.what.it.meant.to.me.] on Wed, 12 Jul 2006 07:02:00 PST

Canada Day Weekend

I decided now, that since I grew somewhat of a spine, Ill be able to finally say who and what ticks me off.  On that note, here was my weekend. :P Canada day weekend, Adri, Geo, Jen, Nick, Angel...
Posted by [.what.it.meant.to.me.] on Wed, 05 Jul 2006 08:02:00 PST