belated |
Been thinking of my mother... she has been gone since.. 2002..Strange to miss her... when she died .. i became lost...I found myself... with Carolynn...then losted that dream...I've been wondering abo...
Posted by on Tue, 12 May 2009 11:12:00 GMT |
pondering |
I been wondering how I have been perceiving myself....as a lesbian dyke femme....which made my neice, Christina(miko) just smile...I still remember taking her to her 1st Gay pride weekend...she is al...
Posted by on Sat, 09 May 2009 17:16:00 GMT |
Feelings |
Note to self.... words are meaningless... when no action is followed...weakness is ulgy....The need of human connection..... a fantasy... for others. I exist in the frozen..NOW.. I'm such a dreamer.....
Posted by on Thu, 07 May 2009 13:52:00 GMT |
???? |
Today is a bad day....it's cold.. damp...wondering if the rain will ever stop...all this mess about the flu....glad i don't have it..been crying...It's hard living with this depression.... trying hard...
Posted by on Mon, 04 May 2009 11:58:00 GMT |
WISHES |
I wish i could forget her...forgive the pain...wish i were more mature... to understand her actions.... maybe face the fact.... I actually meant little in her reality... I wish the tears.... tools to ...
Posted by on Wed, 11 Mar 2009 10:29:00 GMT |
PLEASE TAKE THE PAIN AWAY |
I'M SO FULL OF ANGER.... DISAPPOINTMENT....PLEASE GOD HELP ME TO LET GO OF HER AND MY LOVE AND DISAPPOINTMENT OF HER.... TEACH ME FINALLY TO NEVER LET ANYONE ELSE EVER HURT ME LIKE THAT AGAIN.......PL...
Posted by on Tue, 27 Jan 2009 08:12:00 GMT |
aimlessly wondering????? |
Feeling numb and yet tired.....Carolynn is in the hospital.....She had been very sick all week before going to South baptist hospital in an ambulance. she had been vomiting everything she ate and d...
Posted by on Mon, 19 Jan 2009 12:54:00 GMT |
alone |
this day ... Carolynn and I ... had a verbal confrontation...She said I have lied to her from the start...I guess she is correct...I guess i'm a closet LIAR.... I keep my feelings....quiet.... I will ...
Posted by on Sat, 02 Aug 2008 22:37:00 GMT |
My night |
The nights are silent....shadows dancing on bleached walls...... the days are mute ....echoes of your missed caresses.....Memories...ghost kisses.....apparitions of buried dreams. Tears....forever fal...
Posted by on Sat, 07 Jun 2008 19:57:00 GMT |
MIST |
Pages torn from our faces......gone are the memories.... bitter and sweet... Songs .... wording the past.................time remembered and forgotten...shadows creeping up darken walls...repetition o...
Posted by on Mon, 12 May 2008 17:27:00 GMT |
