Adèle Louise!!

R.I.P Ellis.
R.I.P George.
I hope I see you again one day.
You can always remember the past, but you only get one shot at today, so leave regrets to yesterday. ADDCMNTMSGBLGLOL
Vegetarian.
Ex Art Student.
Stokie born+bred.
Works in Sainsbury's café!
Nape, Nose (x2) + Vertical Labret piercing.
I constantly feel the need to write, and if I had something else to write that was somewhat productive, I would rather spend my time doing that than re-writing this,
I need to go to my old home. I need to remember every inch of that place, every route i'd take, every face i'd greet, every thing i'd touch, and I need to hold every person that I left behind. That place will soon drive me away and you'll beg me to stay, and I really wish that I could be there + still stick to my guns.
I don't care anymore.
This site is a popularity contest for many of you to portray yourself falsely, I am who I am, I never try to be anything I'm not and I don't need to impress anyone.
People, are my biggest passion and funnily enough my biggest hate. I love to converse, to listen and to be heard. I want to talk, laugh, cry and dance with as many wonderful people as possible, equally I want to teach, shape and influence the minds of those people without any understandings.
The power of words is phonomenal, language is not only a passion of mine, but it is bordering on obsession. Reading every single thing I see, studying the shape of each letter and the meaning of each word, over analysing lyrics + quotes, I get caught up in the words, lost in their meanings, and I fall in love.
I have such a creative mind, it never stops. Whether i'm thinking up a phrase, questioning life, picturing an image or noticing a perfect photograph frame moment, I never stop thinking, dreaming, hoping, over analysing and believing.
I finally have a job in the Cafeteria in Sainsbury's. I wear an ugly uniform and a bright orange hat with a hair net, but I genuinely think i'm going to enjoy it. Responsibilty is healthy.
I find it hard to be ruthless, I find it hard to forget, yet somehow easy to move on. I am mentally strong, I think positively and I never look back. Regret is never healthy, it is also pointless, I am always realistic about any situation, sometimes this is my greatest downfall, but for the most part is it my greatest aid.
I don’t particularily know who I am or where I’m going in this life, all I know is that I will always be true to myself + the people I truly love, because I know they will always be the focal point to my life and the fixed smile on my face.I want to be everything; I want to go everywhere.
I hold no true identity, I am somewhat a part of everyone + everything that you see + know. I want to be pierced, tattooed + alternative when I’m 20, 30, etc. I despise society's mould of "normality", I hate how anything different is riduculed + unaccepted, it is a vicious cycle of nonsensical judgement. Until piercings, tattoos and any form of originality in appearance are allowed into the work place, it will never become normal, it will never grow on people and it will never be accepted. Freedom of speech just about exists, but I have yet to see the freedon to express yourself.
I find great pleasure in writing, reading, singing + drawing, it is my escape.
Life is full of uncertainties and unanswered questions, but it doesnt stop me asking what if, and discussing opinions until we're going round in circles. Life is a game that we have no choice but to play, whether we win or lose at the end of it, is a different matter all together. What do you class as winning, maybe it's falling in love, or learning to ride a bike, and losing, is it never experiencing love, or never learning to swim?
I cannot help but think about what more there is to life, than the pictures we paint + the puppets we control. What else is there that we are being left to figure out on our own, in the process we’re turning heads, breaking hearts, saving lives + killing time.
And with each step I'm getting further from the truth, with every unanswerable question, I’m finding so much more that I need to understand, and I cant.
I don’t feel real half the time, my thoughts don’t feel real, nor do the trees, or the faces.
Its hard accepting that your hopes for the future may not go as planned, but it‘s harder when you don’t even know what those plans are.
I am such a positive person, it's just that I delve into unanswerable questions way too much and i am always contemplating or reflecting on my life and everything around me, with such a thirst for knowledge and broadening my opinions, I have to be a strong person, because when I over think things, you either start to fall apartor you make yourself stronger mentally. I make myself stronger, I look at everything realistically and try my hardest to concentrate on everything positive that is true.
Fate, superstitions, luck, regret, they do bear a place in my life, realism, spontaneity, selflessness, positivism, with that I live my life.
I have extremly high morals, strong beliefs, broad understandings/views on life + very different ideas of happiness + satisfaction to those of most people of my age.
I want to see the world, experience different cultures, hear different languages, eat different cuisines and live different lifestyle.
I don't need alcohol + drugs to lead a good life, a couple of drinks and that'll do me for a 3 or 4 weeks, all I will ever need are long talks + walks with beautiful people to beautiful places.
I have extremely bad balance and bad circulation. My feet and hands are always freezing cold, and when I shiver I jump, twitch, or generally spack out. I have slight OCD, but who doesn’t? I arrange things in size order a lot, I cant have an uneven amount of coins in my purse, things have to be symmetrical wherever possible.
I like beauty, elegance + delicacy that overwhelms me. I like profound writing + meanings. I like intelligence + deep thought process.
I like things that leave me with a thousand questions in my head, equally, I like things that leave me completely speechless.
I smile because the trees look pretty or because the sun is making my back warm. I smile because someone else is laughing or because the birds are singing. I take great satisfaction in the beauty of simplicity in this world.
My standards are high to be impressed, but not to be happy.
I'd be a great philosopher, but we're living in the 21st century aren't we?
Knowing that a smile across someone’s face, is down to me, is the one thing I live for, it is the single greatest, most rewarding gift I could ever receive. I am such a selfless person, i'm not bragging, but it's just how it is. I dont listen to my own advice, I give it to other people and it always seems to be a great help.
I moved here in November 06, I can’t imagine my life anywhere else for a long time, but the day will come.

Everybody’s perceptions and definitions are different. Is there really any right or wrong, any true perfection, any true beauty, any true love? It is all how you perceive it.
I like losing myself in this world, in its beauty, in silence, in darkness, in open space.
I despise violence unlike I hate anything else in this world.
I’m bored of all the phases, hair colours + clothing styles that I’ve bled dry. I don’t want to chose a mould to fit into. Metaphorically I’ve cut myself into pieces + placed a piece in each one.
One of my biggests fears has always been what the future holds, even though it's incredibly cliché, I am always scared of failing, I know it is irrational, but i'm becoming better + believing in myself more + more. Along side that is the fear of becoming old and bitter, the thought of becoming ill or disabled, forgetting things, being unable to do things and merely existing as some kind of disease.
I don't believe in fate, it is easy to say that every action you take was meant to be, some things are inevitable to fall into place + click and be coinsidence, other things fall apart and don't go smoothly, it's life and sometimes it's unfair, but you gotta keep your head high right?
I have faiths + morals and I believe in sticking to my guns so to speak.
I only see importance in living your life well + treating others with respect. All that is relevant is the here + the now. Concentrate on the only things you can change, instead of dwelling about the past.
One day I will travel the world. I will visit Japan, France, New York, China, Australia and Italy especially.. I will hang glide. I will become a grade 8 pianist + I will bring a definite change to as many lives as possible.
Staying in, computer games, films, baking, writing + drawing is just as important to me, as being out, long walks, gigs, parties, raves + milling round town.Stay posi. Stay true. All that matters is the here + the now
"Everybody is a beautiful sculpture until you look closely, you see all these cracks, chips and imperfections. Everybody is a damaged being, so damaged in a way that nobody notices until they get too close."
"They mutilate women and then sell their images to us so that women forever hate themselves, and men forever lust over an object that does not exist.
The end result is domestic violence, oppressive gender roles, low self esteem, a slew of eating disorders and a desperate desire to maintain an appearance invented in the minds of wealthy men, that is neither natural nor humanly possible.
Why? So they can make a greasy dollar and reinforce their omnipresent power over women and men."
Calendar -
25th Feb - Limetree.
26th Feb - Gallows + Set Your Goals. Exeter.
29th Feb - Get pierced @ Newtribe w/ McMuffins.
1st Mar - Party @ Shivs!
4th Mar - Dads birthday/Shivs actual Birthday.
6th Mar- My birthday! Alecs birthday!
21st Mar - 12pm, going strong for 1 month.
22nd Mar - Nothing now because of weinerific circumstances.
23 Mar - Nato|Avarus|Idiom|Guilt Trip|Osmium @ Zephyr Bar
24th Mar - Simons birthday/Architects @ Exeter
25th Mar - Going to Newtribe with Matt @ Brixham.
26th Mar - Ellis' funeral... (L) @ TQ Church.
4th apr - Finish college :D
7th/8th apr - Beerfest @ Totnes :D
9th-10th apr - Roadtrip to Wales w/ Sarah, Mike + Steve!
18th apr - Limetree w/ Sali, Sean + Terry :)
14th May - Pendulum @ Exeter w/ Steve, Ben + Curtis.
1/17th May - Dartmouth music fest maybe?
22nd May - Shirobon, Codes In Tokyo + Le Skye @ The Rock TQ
22nd/23rd May - Induction days @ Sainsbury's
26th May - YAWA @ Exeter Cavern.
27th May - Poker Night @ Mikes!
28th May - Nasib's birthday @ Woodlands!
29th May - Till Training
7th June - A Day To Rememeber, Devil Wears' + Alensa w/ ALEXY :D @ Stoke.
"Hopeless as it may seem we stand and carry onward, with the ripples of water that surface on our hearts -
In the tomorrow without promises, I swear I’ll definitely return to the place where you’re standing.