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u p d a t e s : 2/1/07 i had subway for the first time in like 2 months =]...it was amazing! just like old times with danielle when we got it everyday...it was stupid outside...like it was cold in the morning...then it was really windy...we thought about tying a sheet to are wrists and ankles and flying away =] but then it got all rainy...not cool..i didnt do all that much today though another then go to the ymca after school 1/31/07 i finally got to hang out with danielle...and i almost killed her with the closet door...so funny we laughed forever. dominique curses and we laugh for even longer. and what kind of retard gets tangled in a seat belt. haha...me it was the first time hanging out with vanessa after school...i met her mom..im sure she thinks im retarded..but she laughed too so it was ok...we went to 4 corners...vince and rob said they were there...when we got there they werent..i know its cause i was going...WHAT THE F^&*?!? are they scared of me now?...hah they leave before we get there. funny. and nice boyfriend skills vince [attemps to wink at you]. we met with chucky up at mcdonalds but we couldnt stay long so we only saw eachother for like a few minutes. dont be mad at them for telling me stuff..they just dont want me to get hurt.. even if they lied... i still think its nice of them to care enough. If that makes sense... 1/30/07 yea so..i dont know what im doing...im confused...afraid of ever getting hurt again. cause i dont trust myself. i dont know what i would do. so should i even try?..everyone says they're alike...what if he does the same thing. and something completly horrible happens?!?!..
dear jen, im sorry for your bad luck.. you'll get hurt again. but its ok cause you agreed to it all. might make you feel retarded. cause it'll be about the 4th time its happened...but its ok. im not mad. its more of a sorry feeling. =] 1/29/07 ...so theres this guy..if he reads this...he might be all..."i wonder if shes talking about me?" =] but yea he's pretty cool. 1/28/07 its ok only a whole 2 months were a complete and total lie...its confusing...but its ok 1/27/07 when to 4 conrners for a little while but that was boring so when chris got off work we went to vinces house:danielle, mike, synthia, tiffany, adam, vince, rob, and jen were there never expected it to be her...she was my friend...friends dont do that to eachother.. 1/26/07 went to the movies...HE WAS THERE.. ..he didnt say anything..but he was there =] good enough for me...i guess 1/25/07 went to the ymca...for the first time in forever...only cause danielle wanted me to...big mistake. i laid on the couch the whole time and was being emo. not good. so i started listening to my ipod...bad idea. most of the songs remind me of him... 1/23/07 talked to danielle finally, bad news with her mom and her dad...but i still got to talk to her. we'll probably hang out tomorrow. i had a leaders club meeting but i skipped it...cause they bore me..and i just wasnt in the mood..but when am i ever in the mood anymore. 1/22/07 school, tried to get chucky to stop being emo but as always..FAILED!!...i suck at everything... 1/21/07 looked for a job..seeing how im 16 and all..i think i might be working at a hair salon answering phones..it sounds easy...and its close enough to walk to. i won't walk there. but that's how close it is. i went to pick up my cell phone at diana's house cause i forgot to get it back from her when we went to the movies. i was hopeing there would be a missed call from you know who...but no. i just blame it on my phone being dead for about 13 hours =]...yea that must've been it...=/. i try to believe its true. but three seconds later i tell myself im being stupid and he doesnt care anymore. im worthless. i should forget him. im never good enough. I JUST CANT FORGET!!! 1/20/07 the festival was amazing..although i was working i still got to go and see whatever event i wanted too after i was done...which was early...congrats to caitlyn for winning the scolarship...and elle for solo musical...and the whole cast of beauty and the beast..and every one else who won.. i hope i can go next year 1/19/07 Freedom writers with diana [we ended up not seeing it we hung out with patrick and grant instead] acting district festival early tommorrow [5:30 in the morning] im just not in the mood any more... 1/18/07 emoest day of my life...i hate life...it sucks..slept all day cause it was better then being awake. my eyes hurt from crying.
1/17/07 ...very merry unbirthday to me...yea it was my 16th birthday but i didnt do anything special i had a surprise party that was fun for about 5 minutes...didnt hear from rob all day.... 1/16/07 more school..oh the joy...

1/15/07 nothing nothing nothing..boring all day waiting for the call back soon enough they called at 1:00 in the afternoon saying we have to go back everyweek end from now on.1/14/07 got the call back from the audition so back to tampa for an interview...fun fun...[i miss rob] 1/13/07 auditions in tampa got up at 7 went straight there got home at 9 at night. no time for anything else. soo i guess being on a break for a little whiles' not suck a bad thing.. 1/12/07 me and rob's second month..worst day of my life. now were on a break..what the f*&% does that mean? am i not good enough?? =/1/6/07 danielle got off grounding so she came over my house for a little bit and we were taking pictures so that reminded her that vince promised they could take a picture together for myspace but they never did...so she called him and he said he'd come over...two minutes after vince came over we were looking at the pictures me and danielle took before vince got here..and we were all sitting in front of the computer in the computer room and danielles mom rang the door bell...so vince went into my room because he had a phone call...danielle got in trouble. and accused of doing something bad with vince because when her mom saw him he was in the bedroom...the've never done anything i feel so bad for her cause all she can do is tell the truth and hope that her mom believes her...sorry danielle..i dont mean to get your grounded all the time. 1/5/07 dominique slept over and we did ABSOLUTLY NOTHING!!!!! 1/4/07 i got a milk mustache and my mom hit a mail box rob had hockey so i guess thats going to be his excuse for not calling.. 1/3/07 danielle got grounded till forever....so i didnt do anything cause we normally do everthing together 1/1/07 guess what! im not a blonde anymore yea i died my hair like a redish brownish color. me, danielle and james did yep we all match, i like it! james:i smell like a girl me:..girls dont smell like apples james:THEN I SMELL LIKE A F!%*ING APPLE! 12/31/06 me and danielle partied at vinces uncles house and i got this really hott 21 year olds number but i didnt do anything with him because i have rob.. and i love rob so i hope he's not mad at me =[ 12/30/06 more depressingness... me and rob had our first arguement 12/29/06 depressing day, no rob...but i found out what it was...he said that we're together too much and sometimes he just wants to hang out with the guys...THEN WHATS DANIELLE DOING AT HIS HOUSE! 12/28/06 ...depressing day..didnt talk to rob all day yea it made me sad 12/27/06 hanging out with kourtney, danielle, rob [after band practice], and vince [after dermatologist appointment] probably at subway since we live off of it i was born brunette.. my mom was born blonde ..KENZIE WAS BORN BLACK!! 12/26/06 mall mall mall fun fun more presents but no boyfriend so vince picked us up so i could surprise him at work =] so we did and the boss was stupid so we only got to see him for like..a minute so we told vince to find and back road to a dark alley and put on scary music..and the outcome? WE FOUND THE COOLEST DRIFTING SPOT IN THE WORLD!!! so we did that untill rob and vince were almost out of gas then we took a break WE HAD AN AUDIENCE vince and rob are idols! =] 12/25/06 christy mass!!!! woohoo it was amazing danielle slept over and we stayed up all night laughing at our feet....and fish! =] 12/24/06 christmas eve rob came over and i got my present early. ITS AMAZING! a necklace. a heart necklace. with gold. and diamonds its pretty. i love it. be jealous. cause we'll beat you. =] 12/20/06 woohoo! we took exams today and i got like the highest grade in the class it was amazing oh and today i realized just how two faced my sister really is she pretends to like this girl named val when really when shes at home all she seems to do is talk crap about her...not cool 12/18/06 i let a hobo use my phone i thought she was going to run away after i handed it to her it was scary but she didnt thank god, she was actually very nice, but i also think she was a wee bit drunk...or alot a bit drunk! and she used the f word alot =] and also i found out that i was failing like most of my classes..it was a depressing day of school i had to eat lunch and make up work in my class room i did alot of work though so now hopefully i dont fail 12/16/06 me and danielle washed my dads car in the freezing cold so that i could drive up to international mall to go shopping for our wonderful boyfriends =] and it was the first time danielle had been to international mall!! 12/14/06 i was with my boyfriend after school and oh my goodness! he found all my recordings of me singing ahh! i didnt want him to find them ...but he did and he listened to them...yea i just about had a heart attack! oh and today bill was no where to be found billlllllllllllllll!!! what happened? did you die? 12/12/06 me and Rob's one month!!! it was sooo cute he came over and when i answered the door he had one rose[standing for one month]and a card saying "i love doing nothing with you" and i was also danielle and bills first day, yay! now we can always have our little anniversery thingy together! ah! i love my boyfriend =] 12/11/06 went to 4 corners and played with knives then...... fought with my mother and thought about running away again but then she made me give her my phone so i didnt 12/9/06 me and danielle and michelle almost burnt down the house taking myspace pictures and the thing that we had a fire extinguisher in that same room...but none of us knew how to use it. so i poured water on the fire but it made it bigger. so danielle said "put more on it" so this time i when and got a huge thing of water and the whole thing exploded and sparking like a firework...i thought water was supposed to put out fire...