I'M NEVER ALONE
i'm alone all the time
An Ojiway native, cynical, nihilistic punk, hailing from a first nations reserve, 140km north of Toronto, RAMA FN; I was born and raised on the Rez. Currently living in Newmarket, ON, to attend Seneca College. My friends & family come before anything else. THE REST OF THIS I WROTE WHEN I WAS IN GR. 10...TOO LAZY TO UPDATE IT, SO ITS NOT REALLY ME ANYMORE Basically, I like to get fucked up & fuck shit up. My personality is one giant contradiction ; I'm passionate yet indifferent, light-hearted and humourous but serious, empathetic yet critical, outgoing & spontaneous yet predictable...ETC. I never feel like I have anything to prove to anyone, but myself. I don't live to impress others. I don't care what people label themselves, in my books; if you're a fuckin chill person, than I'll like you no matter what you/everyone else considers you to be. I hate how fuckin' fragmented the entire youth culture is; I hate division and social barriers. Everyone has something to offer.I tend to care too much about other people, which often leaves me disappointed and hurt. I'm all about respect; I respect everyone up until I'm given a reason not to. I RUN ON INDIAN TIME; but as long as I get to where I'm goin, it don't matter:]. I'm easy to get along with, I'm all about havin' fun; you're not livin' the best possible life if you're not having fun,end of story. Life ain't worth living if you're not laughing everyday. Whatever gets me down, I find some kinda of humour in it, it's easier to cope that wayI got friends in low places & I got friends in high places, I love 'em all (even the one's I don't see nearly enough). Music and writing are what keep me (in)sane. It's hard for me to express any kinda of feeling off a piece of paper. I'm pretty diverse when it comes to my music preferences [check it out];I'm living for the things I love, not to be accepted, rich or anything superficial. I don't take anything too seriously, life has enough bullshit coming at ya to always keep something weighin' on your mind. I can't stand uptight people, who can't fuckin lighten up.
I don't understand myself, so I don't expect anyone else to.
At the end of that day, I think I'm OK..I'm just waiting for someone else to realize that too.
"we are the different fucking kids with the same heartbeat/ we got one pulse running through the streets/ they are out arteries/...i am a part of this"
I call myself a punk, because I choose; to it's what I am. It ain't about studded leather jackets, whos got bigger hair than who, chaos and violence, drinking more than the other guy [but i bet i can out drink your ass]....or being 'dirtier' than the next punk (someone please explain the logic in this way of thinkin?), it ain't about anything like that. There are ONLY 3 THINGS that have influenced my life in such great amounts they cannot go unrecognized, the first two being: my family, and growing up on the rez, and the third one is, PUNK ROCK. Punk, is and always will be truly undefinable. You can only really define what it is to you. When my ears first got a listen to the sounds of punk rock, or when I went to my first punk show, it was something else. "Punk rock is the truest form of rock 'n' roll today, I can think of"--Lars. I've learned more from punk, than I learned in any educational institution..then again, there's only so much that school teaches us, the real knowledge we gain is what we learn by living our lives; the "school of life", if you will, basically punk opened me up to a whole knew way of thinking/living. Anyways, I definitely wouldn't be the same person I am right now, hadn't it been for punk rock;; my ideas and thoughts, beliefs, my friends, and how I live my life. I'd be fuckin lying, if I said punk hasn't had a huge influence on my life. I don't find that you get that same unity and passion from anything else. (fuck the elite few, fuck the'punk police', fuck the fashion and fuck the punk rock hypocricy).I'll be a fuckin' punk til the day they bury my corpse with dirt.
"I just wanna stay out late/ I just wanna get shitfaced/ I just wanna sleep all day/ and I just wanna waste life away"
I just realized this shit is sounding too serious and blah .In the end I'm a fuckin goof--I find humour in everything & anything. Laughter is the cure for everything. Spontaneity is the key to a fun life. I drink; I get crazy:] One of my biggest piss-offs: BUZZ KILLERS!! There's nothing worse than someone bringin' ya down, when your having a good time. To be life isn't supposed to be "convient" and easy, so ya gotta have fun with it- if you don't than your as good as dead to me. Dont bitch & complain about your life, until you've done everything you can to make it bearable..better yet, until you love it.
"STAY PISSED. STAY YOUNG. STAY PISSED"
Rama (MFN); i will always call my home, no matter where i end up.