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Brian

I am here for Dating, Serious Relationships, Friends and Networking

About Me

Hey there. I'm Brian, an olde angst-ridden poet, musician, divorcing-father(trying to afford the darn thing after 4 years) and general guy alone trying to find his place in this fraggin' world we're all watching on reality t.v. I'm 38, so I finally get to keep control of the remote these days. My three daughters constantly try to steal the remote away from me. It gets frustrating, running through the apt. everyone trying to get the remote from the other ones. Of course I tucker out and get devious, getiing all sneaky then I spring out and grab the remote and run to my couch and quickly change the channel as fast as possible because, well, yanno what teens are like these days. I tend to talk to a lot of palm as a father of teenagers. My kids have a lotta 'tude in them, but since I am a kinda wacky father, I guess I can't expect my kids not to have some wackiness and 'tude in them somewhere. I guess I'll have to wait til they're all adults to see if the wacky streak affects them at all with its life long affliction. Oh yeah, down below in the friends section are two wacky guys....Joe and Mr. Barnaby.....they are two of my younger bro's so see if you notice the comedy that came to us from out over-serious yet tickle-happy Dad. OK, where was I.....oops about me. Hey ,you got it now!

My Interests

First off...before I get to me. The singer of the song just above here is Angela Gossow of Arch Enemy. Check em out!!Music and writing. My writing ranges from poems to lyrics to whatever the heck I can get on a page. Although my main interest has to be the best father I can be since I have three daughters I get every other weekend. I also enjoy a game called Heroclix.Into RPG's...ala Rifts/Palladium. Final Fantasy and Madden games. Romance of the Three Kingdoms!!, one of the best and most underrated stratagy game series. I can be found on two chat services. Yahoo as [email protected] or as Lord Relanor on AIM. Keep your chin up, life has treated me badly, yet I'm still here trying to find my way to happiness.

I'd like to meet:

Well, this could take a while. I could get really descriptive and no one will fit or leave it open and be mighty surprised. I'd rather be surprised right now. Been a bit pessemistic lately. As for a description I'll list a few like kind, sensitive, relaxed, mostly yanno down to earth....but extreme enough to be able to handle the loud sounds of thunderous metal reverberating off the walls. Must like poetry and/or writing....when I get on a roll I can churn out pages and pages worth. Now I have a bit of a twisted philosophy of life gathered from music, literature and religion. It pretty much works for me. Been alone long enough yanno and I'm feeling a need to share some of this strange life with someone. Sounds corny I guess but it sucks being the one alone. Especially 4 years of it. That's what hurts...But that is how I chose my path of transition to becoming divorced. I've had a rocky road and its gonna take someone special to help me rediscover what living life means over simply existing until death. Life's been hard, I'm not exactly sure if it's beaten me down too far to come back from. I'll chat with whomever chats with me. Hey, if you visit my page, send me a message darn it. I have people visiting but no clue who they are...lol. Send a message. The writings and poetry and in the blogs. Happy reading!!

Music:

I'm an old thrash-man. Metallica, Megadeth, Overkill, TESTAMENT!!, Iron Maiden, Obituary, Sepultura, Pantera, Suicidal Tendencies, Flotsam & Jetsam, Anthrax, AC/DC, Alice in Chains, Nine Inch Nails, Slayer, Morbid Angel, but I listen to some new stuff on the metal scene. Lacuna Coil is a new one and my new fav Arch Enemy. I also listen to classical music and some celtic ala Enya and Clannad. Sting/The Police and KISS( yes, I like the album "music from The Elder") are old favorites. A ton of old 70's & 80's groups too. Yeah even my big a$$ shook in all the dancy stuff in the 80's. A lot of classical (you wouldn't believe how close thrash and classical are). I get my weekly dose of Hearts of Space(public radio experimentalist music) I jam my frustrations out on my standard black Fender guitar to old 'tallicA tunes and whatever riffs my mind comes up with.

Movies:

Obvious Star Wars freakling and a horror movie freak. I love big movies with historical references in them. Brave Heart, Gladiator, a bunch of epics that go back to the old 60's Heston epics like "Midway", but I give one that is a secret "The Notebook" & "A love song for Bobbie Long". Can't leave this section unless I say Friday the 13th.....lol.

Television:

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Books:

Romance of the Three Kingdoms.Anything DUNE (Frank or Brian/Kev) or the Star wars expanded universe (many, many authors). Clive Barker, some Stephen King. Hyperion, Fall of Hyperion, Endimyon, Rise of Endimyon, Ilius and Olympos by Dan Simmons. Iliad and the Odyssey by Homer. Collected works of Plato.Other misc sci-fi and misc. horror.

Heroes:

My Dad ...and I didn't really realize the hero he was until I had to figure out how to live life without him.

My Blog

two of a kind

One day perhaps life will afford onto me a boonI've been eating the provided banes for sustenance for many yearsLivid with contempt for oneselfIt's easy to become lost in this worldHow many we lose ev...
Posted by Brian on Tue, 30 Oct 2007 01:11:00 PST

still floating along

The pulse thunders through my brainStaring from the mountain topI contemplate the storm the rages Gold has trickled from my fingersThe poor man's wake has startedThe lonely din for ever more Even here...
Posted by Brian on Tue, 30 Oct 2007 08:51:00 PST

Let me open the gates for you

Daze..... I'm in a daze.... I've gazed upon the moon and cried I've stared upon the sun until blind The stars have cursed me for what I am Better yet I've cursed myself.   I cannot find the right...
Posted by Brian on Mon, 29 Oct 2007 12:46:00 PST

Silent running

"Can you hear me?Can you hear me running?Can you hear me calling you?"~"Silent Running" Mike & the mechanics There is much restraint about myselfEnough to the point anger and hateThe heart there r...
Posted by Brian on Tue, 23 Oct 2007 01:14:00 PST

Watching from the window

"It's been a while since I could hold my head up high" It's a good line from a good song by StaindBeen listening a lot to them latelyJust that one CD and a couple certain tracksThere is a point where ...
Posted by Brian on Tue, 02 Oct 2007 09:42:00 PST

Here where the clouds are grey

The summer night, the summer sunThe complex duo that are one Simplicity reigns, simplicity feignsLife can harder than we know I've bled out my life for nothingMy heart is fluttered and dryI can't keep...
Posted by Brian on Wed, 22 Aug 2007 12:34:00 PST

The grey lands field

The fires around can't break the mistsShadows sit ever closer for a little heatThe screams of the fallen still ringTheir lives snuffed dry one by one The night wind picks up bringing salty airThe cann...
Posted by Brian on Tue, 14 Aug 2007 08:13:00 PST

Another day in Purgatory

The sky turned grey as I set free my heartTorn from its cage it flew with abandonTrapped in its cage of meat and boneIt had about withered away Yet even free it finds little lifeI've yet to try planti...
Posted by Brian on Mon, 13 Aug 2007 11:55:00 PST

More from purgatory

Today is a little better than yesterdayI get my girls for the weekendAlways a pick me up not matter how tired I may beLet Hurricane Hunsaker reign!! I've rather enjoyed the stormy daysI enjoy that tur...
Posted by Brian on Fri, 10 Aug 2007 09:18:00 PST

Don’t bother, another load of crap

The path of the pauper is setAgain the prince is buriedHardship seems my lotMy breath shallow as I gaze at the dark horizons My anger wells up ready to roarI've no choices right nowStagnation lends me...
Posted by Brian on Thu, 09 Aug 2007 09:06:00 PST