CONNY

I'm looking for a life away from superficiality, arrogance and selfishness. Won't take a stand for those fights that are not mines anymore.I am very passionate whether that passion is good or evil has yet to be determined. I am very competitive almost to a fault. Perhaps I should let someone else win for a change? I sometimes wish to hide who i am from all those around me. It is hard for me to trust people. In the same time I also enjoy the fun that comes from playing mind games with others. I'll try to reveal the true me - if only to one person!
It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.
It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love - for your dream- for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon... I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow - if you have been opened by life’s betrayals - or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain.
I want to know if you can sit with pain - mine or your own without moving to hide it - or fade it - or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy - mine or your own -if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful - be realistic - remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see Beauty - even when it is not pretty - every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure - yours and mine and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.” It doesn’t interest me - to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn’t interest me who you know - or how you came to be here.I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
i'm home ...
The One You Feed
One evening an old Indian told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside all people. He said, "My son, the battle is between 2 wolves inside us all.
One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.
The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, consideration and faith."
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather "Which wolf wins?"
The old Indian simply replied, "The one you feed."
FUCK TRAFFIC!!!
"It will start raining as soon as I start washing my car, except when I wash the car for the purpose of causing rain."