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I am here for Dating, Serious Relationships and Friends

About Me

I stand alone Burned every bridge above the troubled water No longer hiding from my personality disorder A stronger tide is coming and I've been running trying to function fine with out my mind climbing out these fucking corners I was born a thorn away from the rotten petals A forgotten rebel Passed through the absence of parentally hands to develop an evident level of benevolence so it's probably better I sold my sold to the devil This is a message to anyone I met that thinks they know me Don't pretend to understand any of the issues that I'm holding I was in a rush to grow up, look Mom no cuts Just a stomach in disgust, and the fear that I might go nuts this year If I don't swell up I'll see you one my way One day this shit'll kill me but I guess that it's OK I've lost all fate in a world so full of hate I don't fucking love music I just use it to escape I'm caught between wanting to punch someone in the face and putting a bullet in my head to leave the human race Everything takes its toll but there's no tolls I can take I haven't yet found a good reason to be awake Introducing the meloncolly I had behind my smile I'm angry at the universe for the way she treats me now And keeps me down, stealing all my energy I'm feeling like my enemy, concealing my identity Not dealing with my tendencies I peel the skin and then I squeeze The illness that speels out to my disease Not human in this century, I'm ill until the entity Who built this penitentiary, It's filthy as a centipede And guilt was in his sense cause he was willing to just let me breathe, While I wore a game face In 10 years don't check for me I'll be in the same place This planet is just an overpopulated mental hospital Each zombie walks around constitutes another obstacle So here it is I'm finally coming out my shell All 24 years of my life have been spent in conflict with myself I'm insecure by every facet of the existence From my addictions, to the conditions I choose to live in Who you kidding I suffer from excess anxiety A product of pollution in American society Stare into my eyes and see the hell that burns inside my mind and I no longer have an ego I can hide behind but I've been trying disregarding my insanity Every form of hurt further isolates me from humanity But it's provoked against being force fed so Fuck education for a decade and 3 years of headaches from my peers Cause now I realize I could have learned more on my own They taught me how to know everything except my soul Which is everything I need to grow Everything that keeps me whole Everything that ever meant anything to my own So I leave with the golden hopes to rip the beast that holds my focus but the fact remains the same, I'm still bound by chains It doesn't matter if your chain is 10 ft or 100 ft The fact remains the same, you're still bound by chains So people say I've changed, and it's harder to relate to me Good, I never liked you our friendship was make believe I'm peeling the mask back and revealing there's nothing fake about me Feeling my organs drilling distorted short portions of morbid acid keeps the torture unfortunately crafted interests to orbit my portrait and inflict my image with disorder The minutes get shorter, the walls start to close in Feels like the brain is hanging on but with clothes pins I've hidden in the darkness for too long I make it look all right but in the inside its all wrong I want life to change but I don't know if it can for a man or machine or whatever the FUCK I AM I stand alone burned every bridge above the trouble water No longer hiding from my personality disorder You want to die in my life then come and stay in madness' favorite little corner Cause even Shadows have Shadows and my secrets are eating me eagerly feedingI scream while i'm awake and even when i'm dreaming just to keep them away but they keep on defeating me Even Shadows have Shadows Welcome to the dusty subconscious of an actor Who murdered his childhood to stop the audience's laughter Even Shadows have Shadows I'm about to break free from my fears When I don't like what I seeand I can't feel what I hear Even Shadows have Shadows SO DON'T JUDGE A BOOK BY IT'S COVER, CAUSE MY STORY IS JUST AS FUCKED UP AS ANY OTHER!

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

THAT SPEACIAL SOMEONE THAT BRINGS RESOLVE TO THE REASON I'M LAZY... OR MAYBE I JUST NEED SOMEONE TO SAVE ME... FROM THE PARTS OF MYSELF THAT KEEP MAKIN ME CRAZY..."I'm not really supposed to talk about this.....but..."With the excitment of a new born Came to join the main event and fight against the luke warm With nothing but they word and they history Take a can of paint and try to decorate they dignity It's not what they anticipate But, fuck, it doesn't matter. Put your fists up and instigate And they can't save the planet Or the children of the bandits Or themselves god damn it I'm just a man that loved rap So much in fact I put every piece of myself inside these fucking cracks What is that, you whisper something from the back? You think your personal attacks Make up for what you lack? I'm just a cat searching for a clean lap To crash in a world hurting, waiting for they turn to take a nap Sorting through bills, fan mail and life threats Wonderin why the postman ain't delivered my wife yet They call me Sean, this is Anthony No need to act hard cause we got extended family So I smile while I try to use my words wise Say what I meant just in case this is your first time Via child of the wings tired Smilin' like a couple of fools that the queen hired Can't wait for the vibrate to thicken So we can watch the world tip side. WAIT! Even the deads gettin live It's a little deeper, you can float, come on baby dive! To fall in love with this bitch From the petals on her flowers to the pimples on her tits Fuck the insults. And fuck the compliments Just wanna see the mommy free the honesty and the common sense Stop followin the win that you swallow Cause it's too simple to aim for a target sittin on a fence We do it for the candle in the sky Here's a toast to those who can't handle their high You and I, we can swim into the tide And watch these other children lose they mind (I'm growing tired!) And they landed safe and sound Better try to take 'em out before they make their saviors proud So fix your beef, quit actin' like a sheep Either spit your speak or sit there and git your teeth To spread the info to the kin folk Fuckin with the climate on the inside of the windows They're here, the baby farmers gonna take it farther Make a mark and break apart your fake martyrs Plans act firm (?), let the planet burn Understand the terms, you don't wanna open up this can of worms I'm tryin to keep the prize on the eyeball But people wanna see you fly all to watch the sky fall Who's to blame for your lack of conviction I wasn't drafted, I asked for the mission Put your name on the list at the bottom on an empty line And hope in plain sight what ever gave you the right to question mine? The night prowler, gonna crawl past all the rap politics You can put that on your last dollar Wake up, it's bigger than a paste of There's the door, get the money, go wash off your make-upAnd they don't need to love it If you don't wanna give it, keep it Doesn't really mean nothin' Come and beat it 'til it stops breathin' No need to even try to reason When they not leavin'

My Blog

13

I was walking past the mental hospital the other day, and all thepatients were shouting ,'13....13....13'.. The fence was too high to see over, but I saw a little gap in the planks and looked through ...
Posted by on Fri, 16 May 2008 06:08:00 GMT

wine tips

..> happy thanksgiving to all and your's, for all those on my list... remmeber from the wine guy me... for turkey - white wine - guwerstaminer - red wine - pinot noir... lol happy holidays.....> -->...
Posted by on Thu, 22 Nov 2007 00:08:00 GMT

this tragic day in U.S.A history - 9/11...,

take more then a moment out of your day today to remember and honor those who lost their lives, and those who helped save many without/ out thinking of themselves both on the ground and in the air on ...
Posted by on Tue, 11 Sep 2007 21:30:00 GMT

you make me wanna

"you make me wanna die"... he said it like he meant it... story over no more...hopin to prevent it... "you make me wanna live"...she said that with a straight face... and she placed keep sakes... insi...
Posted by on Sun, 15 Jul 2007 04:44:00 GMT

would'a could'a should'a

i post this, in the confidence that it get's seen... so someone can define what's between the lines and comprehend what i mean... i've been around and yes i see, that there's more to life then wh...
Posted by on Tue, 10 Jul 2007 19:25:00 GMT

fiesta - las casa de hesch - severns

"i have party tomorrow... u come... u have fun... then all go home..." hey one and all all and one... i'm have a independence bash at la casa de hesch - severns... pool, kegs, shoes, some b-ball, liqu...
Posted by on Tue, 03 Jul 2007 10:05:00 GMT

why all the fighting

if home is where the hatred is why can't it vary... so does being away add to the level's of irritation that already seem erry and plenty... why can't overall joy be the primary... i only wanna c...
Posted by on Sun, 24 Jun 2007 16:15:00 GMT

puttin shit in the past, and movin forward

i wanna thumb wrestle with the man who is responsible for painting the day of tomorrow... but so far he always wins, so i constantly drown my sorrow's... with the energy he drained, i have n...
Posted by on Mon, 04 Jun 2007 10:54:00 GMT

WILLING AND ABLE TO

i don't find things in life impossible... just damn near the realm of inhospitable... outcomes are always predictable... but only if you see the signs in the pages that are still printable... bla...
Posted by on Fri, 05 Jan 2007 20:24:00 GMT

NYC trip... bring the game face

this weekend a small band of refugee's will be departing by trin for the glorious stompin ground of upper eastside manhattan... NYC baby... mamma dukes (mom), powerhouse (mike sour), brother (danny), ...
Posted by on Wed, 03 Jan 2007 09:09:00 GMT