So, I'm a point in my life where there are many things that I don't know the answer to (like why i just cannot figure out how to fly), no, but seriously, I am at quite a stepping stone. Before me there are two more stones; one requires taking only a slight step down (it's actually almost at the same level) and the other a pretty hefty jump up. Now, on that down rock lies familiarity, a sort of comfort zone that I have experienced many times, a so-called 'safe' way to just be who I am and continue to hold on to who I was. Afterall, my life has not always been the greatest, but I know what to expect on that stone. No surprises, no guessing; I feel like I would know exactly what would happen each day I woke up. The same routine, the same thoughts, the same outcomes. Just there, requiring little to no sacrifices.
Now, back to that other stone, the one I said would require a bit of effort to get up to. Now, that stone is just high enough for me to not be able to see what's really on it or if it is even big enough for me to be able to stand on it. (Now, on a side note, I forgot to mention that I have a backpack on that holds all the things I have held on to throughout my life, and goodness is it heavy. In this pack there are not the greatest things; there are regrets, failures, uncertainties, and distractions. But for some reason I have held on to it like a security blanket.)
But ok, back to the stone above me. I cannot see what's above it, but I feel like there is great hope; I hear laughter and accomplishments, and I hear a voice that gives me such a peace when I listen to it. A future that is unknown, but strangely I kinda like the idea of not knowing, cause for some reason I know its good, and I know it's something great. Suddenly I notice a hand stretch out and down from the stone, it's there just waiting to help me up. I look away to the other stone for a moment and look back quickly to see if the hand is still there, and it is, it has not even budged, as if it has no plans of ever giving up on the chance that I might grab ahold of it and see the face of One who belongs to it.
As I shift the pack on my back, that at this point is making my muscles ache, I catch another glimpse of the stone below me. I think about how easy it would be to just step down to it; afterall, I wouldn't have to take the backpack off and I can easily see where to step, and I know what's awaiting me when I get there. Then I realize that there could really be something awesome on that higher step, and it looks like I wouldn't be alone up there, I would have a friend, probably the greatest friend I could ever imagine, with me along the way. It's brought to my attention that if I were to go for that higher stone, I would have to take off my backpack, because it was way too heavy to try to lift up with me. That step up there would clearly require some sacrifices, and letting go of some of the things in my life I have tried to convince myself that I would always hold on to.
I'm a little nervous at this point because I know I need to make a decision, that enough time has been spent where I am at. I desire to move forward and I need to choose if it's up or down...
Well, I chose to take that hand. It was so welcoming and so strong that I hardly had to jump. It lifted me right up and I stood on that stone, which turned out to only be the edge of a great life ahead of me, and I found myself holding hands with God. He smiled at me in a way that said, "Well it's about time you trust me. I would have never stopped waiting for you, but you had to make the decision yourself." I felt my face brighten with the biggest grin and I plan on keeping it like that.
I want to be someone who attracts people to the joy that God has for their lives. Yes, I know that I will face times that seem hard and troubles that seem like they would defeat me if I dare try to overcome them. But I never forget that I am holding hands with the King. The King that has victory over every circumstance, every enemy, every doubt. He reigns over my life and I find my comfort in Him.
At this point I encourage every one of you to reach up and make that leap. I can promise you that it will be worth it. That stone doesn't guarentee an easy journey but there is someone there that will be with you the entire way. And if you happen to trip, don't worry, He is holding your hand and has no plans of ever letting you fall. This life will require sacrifices and at times may even feel a little uncomfortable, but I encourage you to not give up, cause it is merely things that are building your muscles and preparing you for what's ahead.
If any of you have questions, just let me know and I will be more than happy to introduce you to the greatest friend EVER!_______________________________________________________
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How to make a Brittany
Ingredients:
3 parts mercy
5 parts brilliance
1 part empathy
Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of emotion
Username:
Personality cocktail
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