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I dont know why its always me.I always end up Broken Hearted.I dont know what i did wrong.I'm sorry.Hopefully one day ill be happy.Once a liar always a liar.That's the truth.I mean its messed up how one day you can sit there and tell someone you love them so much and want to spend the rest of your life with them then less than a week later be tellin someone different the same thing.Its crazy.I feel like i was just used.Used worse than i have ever been before.But i guess it was bound to happen.I don't know what it is about me. Let go of the things that you can not change I’ve started to look at the world through new eyes, and I’ve came to terms that I am not perfect, and that not everyone will always love me, appreciate or approve, of the things I do or who I am, and that’s perfectly ok. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, either way I am not going to change what I do, who I am or how I live for anyone, because I know people don’t always mean what they say, and that not everyone will always be there for me. I really don’t count on anyone being there for me, the only thing I can really count on is the unexpected, and most importantly myself. My (or anyone) truth and “beauty” is not only skin deep, or found on the surface, you got to dig deep down, and when you see that beauty, and find that truth, that is something truly beautiful. Scratch what you heard about me, I’m not like most girls, in fact I am everything she’s not. I get in life what I truly believe I deserve, trust me I had my fair share with liars, backstabbers, and cheaters, and all along they think they got the best of me, but I’m standing right here laughing right in their face. After all that I know what I deserve, and I deserve to be treated with love, sensitivity, kindness, and most importantly RESPECT, and I will not settle for anything less. My happiness is not found in a pill or bottle. I can have an amazing time doing anything and everything, laughter fuels my soul and that’s what truly makes me happy. Like I said before, I get in life what I truly deserve, but I work for it because anything worth achieving is worth working for, and that wishing for something to happen is different from working toward making it happen, because beside my family and friends success is the most important thing in my life, and I will make it happen. Absolutely nothing drugs, alcohol, or negative people will ever come between what I strive for in life and who I am going to be as a person. People will always have their own opinion about me good or bad and I am aware of that, but honestly I can really give a fuck about them. I grew a pair along time ago, and trust me I will not put up with anyone’s bullshit, lies, and fake attitudes toward me or anyone that I care about. Don’t believe me? Test me, I dare you too, I can easily kill you with my kindness, but push me a little bit more over the edge, and I will beat seven shades of shit out of you =] I don’t fear anyone or anything but fear itself, however, I learned to step right through my fears, because I know whatever happens, I can handle it, and to give into fear? that’s just not me. Who taught me to be a strong person like this? My family, my friends, my friends are my family, they taught me so much, and if I could give them the world I would, but even the world’s not enough. They taught me to stop trying to change the things that I can not change, but most importantly they taught me to admit when I am wrong, and to build bridges in stead of walls, to not always TRUST, but to let new people into my life, because in a way their supposed to be there. There are very few people in this world that I can count on, rely on, but there are those ( you know who you are) that I would take a bullet for , you are my family, I love you. I know that one day I am going to be the person I always dreamt of , and I know that god has a plan for me one day, I just got to design it the way I want to, but until that day comes I am just going to sit back, relax, live life, love, and know that whatever tomorrow brings I will be there.
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